Five Year Retrospective

Though I've known I was trans for over a decade, this week marks my five years out and on HRT milestone! So lets see where things are at physically, mentally, socially, and more! What kind of more? Heels! Bikinis! Booooooobs?? I'm a good weird! TEXT VERSION https://www.tillystranstuesdays.com/2025/07/08/five-years-out-and-on-hrt-check-in/ FURTHER READING (topics discussed with essays available at http://TillysTransTuesdays.com) One Year Retrospective, Two Year Retrospective, Three Year Retrospective, Four Year Retrospective, Trans Tabletop Roleplaying Games, Confidence, Confidence 2: Into the Unknown (aka What is Happening aka A Whole New World), Body Hair, A Pandemic Transition, Photos and Reflections, Photos 2: The Selfie Apocalypse, Photos 3: Tilly's Guide to Selfies, Hormone Replacement Therapy, Hair, Hair 2: First Haircut, Trans Voices 1: Gendering, Trans Voices 2: Hearing the True You, Trans Voices 3: Interview with a Speech-Language Pathologist, Parents Who Will Never Know the Real You (aka My Dad), Performative Allyship, Body Hacking, Gender Euphoria, Bodily Autonomy, Anecdotal Trans Healthcare, Transition Setbacks, Finding Our Trans Style Special thanks to Daisy and Jane for the use of "Sorry Not Sorry" as our show's theme music. Please stop by and show your support at daisyandjane.bandcamp.com and soundcloud.com/daisyandjane --Please leave us a rating on Apple Podcasts/iTunes!-- Website: pendantaudio.com Bluesky: @pendantaudio.bsky.social‬

For trans people who transition as adults, lost childhoods are something we struggle with in a myriad of ways. But sometimes you might just get a little glimpse into what could have been... from art that speaks to you in ways you never could have imagined. This is about life, and love, and loss, this is about Paper Girls, this is about KJ... and this is about me. Writer and nerd June Green returns to discuss betting on yourself and paying the cheese tax. Let's all go pilot our flesh mechs! JUNE GREEN Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/saint_june_bloom/ TEXT VERSION https://www.tillystranstuesdays.com/2024/08/08/the-new-past/ FURTHER READING (topics discussed with essays available at http://TillysTransTuesdays.com) Heavily Gendered Clothes and Trans People, Bad Representation: Lovecraft Country, Bad Representation: Emilia Perez, Good Representation: Cyberpunk 2077, Finding our Own Representation (P!nk), Physical Representation and the Hollywood Ideal, The Past and Why it Haunts Us, Trans Representation in Media 2022, Trans Representation in Media 2023, Trans Representation in Media 2024, Hair, Hair 2, Trans Grief 1, Trans Grief 2, Trans Trauma 2: Societal Gaslighting REFERENCE MATERIAL Long Away film short - https://seedandspark.com/fund/long-away Special thanks to Daisy and Jane for the use of "Sorry Not Sorry" as our show's theme music. Please stop by and show your support at daisyandjane.bandcamp.com and soundcloud.com/daisyandjane --Please leave us a rating on Apple Podcasts/iTunes!-- Website: pendantaudio.com Bluesky: @pendantaudio.bsky.social‬

Pride month! It's about trans and queer people, and that's cool! Why don't cis people get a month too? SO GLAD YOU ASKED. Have a listen and let's talk about what it is that we have to be proud of. Writer and nerd June Green joins us to discuss water conservation in the bog witch community and HRT blow darts! Have you experienced ewwphoria? I'm the most dangerous game! JUNE GREEN Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/saint_june_bloom/ TEXT VERSION https://www.tillystranstuesdays.com/2025/06/24/why-is-there-no-cis-pride/ FURTHER READING (topics discussed with essays available at http://TillysTransTuesdays.com) Trans Motivation, Trans Intersectionality, The False Dichotomy, Trans History 1, Trans History 2, Trans History 3, Trans Trauma 2: Societal Gaslighting, Implicit Queerphobia, The Matrix and its Trans Allegories, Rainbow Capitalism, You Are Trans Enough, Cis Privilege, Confidence, Trans Representation in Media 2022, Trans Representation in Media 2023, Trans Representation in Media 2024, This Is Not For You, Cis Is Not A Slur REFERENCE MATERIAL Trans History: A Graphic Novel: From Ancient Times to the Present Day - https://bookshop.org/p/books/trans-history-a-graphic-novel-from-ancient-times-to-the-present-day-alex-l-combs/21746915 The Pink Triangle - https://www.thepinktriangle.com/history/symbol.html Why It Took Decades for LGBTQ Stories to Be Included in Holocaust History - https://time.com/5953047/lgbtq-holocaust-stories/ The Oppressive History of LGBTQ+ Communities Worldwide - https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/psychology-for-the-people/202106/the-oppressive-history-of-lgbtq-communities-worldwide Discrimination in the United States: Experiences of lesbian, gay, bisexual, transgender, and queer Americans - https://pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/articles/PMC6864400/ LGBTQ Rights Timeline in American History - https://lgbtqhistory.org/lgbt-rights-timeline-in-american-history/ A brief history of lesbian, gay, bisexual, and transgender social movements - https://www.apa.org/topics/lgbtq/history International Men's Day - https://internationalmensday.com/ Begin Transmission: The trans allegories of The Matrix - https://www.amazon.com/Begin-Transmission-trans-allegories-Matrix/dp/B0BYPFFBGH/ Special thanks to Daisy and Jane for the use of "Sorry Not Sorry" as our show's theme music. Please stop by and show your support at daisyandjane.bandcamp.com and soundcloud.com/daisyandjane --Please leave us a rating on Apple Podcasts/iTunes!-- Website: pendantaudio.com Bluesky: @pendantaudio.bsky.social‬

It's time to wrap up this installment of Tillyvision, as Star Trek: Strange New World's "Ad Astra Per Aspera" comes to a close! We talk why we'd want to be part of a society that oppresses us, how and why we can be better, and maybe this show gives us a road map for how we can get there. Critic and journalist Mo Ryan returns to discuss how it's up to those with privilege to USE it to do what you can to help (and has a shoutout for Rabbi Danya Ruttenberg!). What can YOU do to help trans people? Who do we want to be? MAUREEN "MO" RYAN Bluesky: https://bsky.app/profile/moryan.bsky.social Instagram: www.instagram.com/moryan66/ Website: moryan.com TEXT VERSION https://www.tillystranstuesdays.com/2025/06/17/the-intentional-trans-allogory-of-strange-new-worlds-ad-astra-per-aspera-part-3/ FURTHER READING (topics discussed with essays available at http://TillysTransTuesdays.com) Cis Apathy, Misgendering and Passing, Unexpected Changes from Transition, A Trans Re-wedding, Trans Tabletop Roleplaying Games REFERENCE MATERIAL Begin Transmission: The trans allegories of The Matrix - https://www.amazon.com/Begin-Transmission-trans-allegories-Matrix/dp/B0BYPFFBGH/ Cis woman ‘fired after customer accused her of being trans’ says it felt like a ‘stab in the back’ - https://www.thepinknews.com/2025/03/27/cis-woman-fired-after-customer-accused-her-of-being-trans-says-it-felt-like-a-stab-in-the-back/ The ‘Star Trek’ Cast on the Radical LGBT+ Representation of ‘Strange New Worlds’ - https://www.thedailybeast.com/obsessed/star-trek-strange-new-worlds-cast-on-its-radical-lgbt-portrayal/ On Repentance and Repair: Making Amends in an Unapologetic World, by Danya Ruttenberg - https://bookshop.org/p/books/on-repentance-and-repair-making-amends-in-an-unapologetic-world-danya-ruttenberg/19498640 Special thanks to Daisy and Jane for the use of "Sorry Not Sorry" as our show's theme music. Please stop by and show your support at daisyandjane.bandcamp.com and soundcloud.com/daisyandjane --Please leave us a rating on Apple Podcasts/iTunes!-- Website: pendantaudio.com Bluesky: @pendantaudio.bsky.social‬

We're back with the meaty middle part of our discussion of Ad Astra Per Aspera! We're going to talk about cis hypocrisy, how some cis people experience so much fear that they might be trans that it motivates their transphobia, and how being "one of the good ones" won't save us. Critic and journalist Maureen Ryan returns to discuss being book birthday buddies and how the bar is in hell! I don't want to hurt other people just to help myself. MAUREEN "MO" RYAN MAUREEN "MO" RYAN Bluesky: https://bsky.app/profile/moryan.bsky.social Instagram: www.instagram.com/moryan66/ Website: moryan.com TEXT VERSION https://www.tillystranstuesdays.com/2025/06/10/the-intentional-trans-allegory-of-star-trek-strange-new-worlds-ad-astra-per-aspera-part-2/ FURTHER READING (topics discussed with essays available at http://TillysTransTuesdays.com) Cis People Get Gender Affirming Healthcare Too, Cis Grief, Trans Trauma 2: Societal Gaslighting, Implicit Queerphobia, Internalized Transphobia Special thanks to Daisy and Jane for the use of "Sorry Not Sorry" as our show's theme music. Please stop by and show your support at daisyandjane.bandcamp.com and soundcloud.com/daisyandjane --Please leave us a rating on Apple Podcasts/iTunes!-- Website: pendantaudio.com Bluesky: @pendantaudio.bsky.social‬

Let's dive into two of my favorite things that taste great together... trans allegories, and Star Trek! Season two, episode two of Strange New Worlds, "Ad Astra Per Aspera," rocked my world. Because it shouted with its whole chest TRANS RIGHTS ARE HUMAN RIGHTS. So let's get you the context you need if you've never watched a Star Trek, and dive into our main discussion! Critic and journalist Maureen Ryan joins us to discuss confident humility, and how as far as you know there's only one of her! MAUREEN "MO" RYAN MAUREEN "MO" RYAN Bluesky: https://bsky.app/profile/moryan.bsky.social Instagram: www.instagram.com/moryan66/ Website: moryan.com TEXT VERSION https://www.tillystranstuesdays.com/2025/06/03/the-intentional-trans-allegory-of-star-trek-strange-new-worlds-ad-astra-per-aspera-part-1/ FURTHER READING (topics discussed with essays available at http://TillysTransTuesdays.com) A Trans Re-wedding, The Trans Allegory of Barbie, The Trans Allegory of I Saw the TV Glow, The Trans Allegory of Real Genius, The Trans Allegory of Silo s1, Trans Politics 2: You Must Vote to Protect Us, Proactive Allyship (be an accomplice), Gender Dysphoria, Misgendering and Passing, Transmedicalism (and WPATH version 1), Trans Trauma 2: Societal Gaslighting REFERENCE MATERIAL IDW August Full 2025 Solicits - https://bleedingcool.com/comics/idw-august-full-2025-solicits-event-horizon-valiant-tmnt-sonic/ Begin Transmission: The trans allegories of The Matrix - https://www.amazon.com/Begin-Transmission-trans-allegories-Matrix/dp/B0BYPFFBGH/ Special thanks to Daisy and Jane for the use of "Sorry Not Sorry" as our show's theme music. Please stop by and show your support at daisyandjane.bandcamp.com and soundcloud.com/daisyandjane --Please leave us a rating on Apple Podcasts/iTunes!-- Website: pendantaudio.com Bluesky: @pendantaudio.bsky.social‬

Tabletop roleplaying games offer everyone a chance to become someone else, just for a little while. And for trans folks, that can lead to some of our earliest experimentation with gender. Comic writer Zoe Tunnell returns to discuss seducing the dragon and dirtbag lesbian chic! ZOE TUNNELL Bluesky: https://bsky.app/profile/zoewithasword.bsky.social Website: http://www.zoetunnell.com TEXT VERSION https://www.tillystranstuesdays.com/2025/05/27/trans-tabletop-roleplaying-games/ FURTHER READING (topics discussed with essays available at http://TillysTransTuesdays.com) Implicit Queerphobia, Gender Dysphoria, Gender Euphoria, 2022 Trans Representation in Media, 2023 Trans Representation in Media, 2024 Trans Representation in Media REFERENCE MATERIAL Visibility An RPG Magazine from the Trans Community - https://www.drivethrurpg.com/en/product/516656/visibility-an-rpg-magazine-from-the-trans-community-issue-1 Special thanks to Daisy and Jane for the use of "Sorry Not Sorry" as our show's theme music. Please stop by and show your support at daisyandjane.bandcamp.com and soundcloud.com/daisyandjane --Please leave us a rating on Apple Podcasts/iTunes!-- Website: pendantaudio.com Twitter: @pendantweb Facebook: facebook.com/pendantaudio Tumblr: pendantaudio.tumblr.com YouTube: youtube.com/pendantproductions

Body hair! Love it or hate it, it's something nearly every human has to deal with. And for those of us who hate it, whose dysphoria it makes worse, that can mean a whole intensive process to get rid of it. So let's talk about what all that entails, and why we'd go through it just to have to do it all over again. And again. And again. Comic writer Zoe Tunnell joins us to discuss feeling better in yourself and going buckwild in comics! Space horse! ZOE TUNNELL Bluesky: https://bsky.app/profile/zoewithasword.bsky.social Website: http://www.zoetunnell.com TEXT VERSION https://www.tillystranstuesdays.com/2024/08/20/body-hair/ FURTHER READING (topics discussed with essays available at http://TillysTransTuesdays.com) This is Not for You (Trans Day of Visibility, Yes You Are Trans Enough), Gender Dysphoria, Gender Euphoria, Hormone Replacement Therapy, Privilege (Time and Money), Internalized Transphobia, Parents Who Will Never Know the Real You (aka My Dad) Special thanks to Daisy and Jane for the use of "Sorry Not Sorry" as our show's theme music. Please stop by and show your support at daisyandjane.bandcamp.com and soundcloud.com/daisyandjane --Please leave us a rating on Apple Podcasts/iTunes!-- Website: pendantaudio.com Twitter: @pendantweb Facebook: facebook.com/pendantaudio Tumblr: pendantaudio.tumblr.com YouTube: youtube.com/pendantproductions

There's a phenomena that happens a lot in the trans and queer community that's hard to define, but when you're so used to having to fight for every single little thing you deserve, it's too easy to sometimes go too far and end up hurting people. Let's go through some examples and talk about how to spot it and why we need to stop it. The 4400 and Clean Slate writer Shomari Kirkwood returns to discuss the joy of building yourself. Tired of working your core? Blow glass! SHOMARI KIRKWOOD Bluesky: https://bsky.app/profile/mxoberon.bsky.social TEXT VERSION https://www.tillystranstuesdays.com/2025/05/13/pushback-overkill/ FURTHER READING (topics discussed with essays available at http://TillysTransTuesdays.com) Trans Trauma 2: Societal Gaslighting, Gendered Childhoods, The False Dichotomy, Trans Day of Visibility (you are trans enough), Transmedicalism (and WPATH version 1), Bad Representation 2: Emilia Perez, Trans Intersectionality, Hormone Replacement Therapy REFERENCE MATERIAL Polyamory in the United States - https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Polyamory_in_the_United_States Special thanks to Daisy and Jane for the use of "Sorry Not Sorry" as our show's theme music. Please stop by and show your support at daisyandjane.bandcamp.com and soundcloud.com/daisyandjane --Please leave us a rating on Apple Podcasts/iTunes!-- Website: pendantaudio.com Twitter: @pendantweb Facebook: facebook.com/pendantaudio Tumblr: pendantaudio.tumblr.com YouTube: youtube.com/pendantproductions

For many trans folks, hormone replacement therapy is a vital part of our transition. Let's talk about why that is, what it does and doesn't do, and a little thing we call... patience. The 4400 and Clean Slate writer Shomari Kirkwood joins us to discuss being part of the world and ewwphoria! The sun is in Aries and the moon is blue. SHOMARI KIRKWOOD Bluesky: https://bsky.app/profile/mxoberon.bsky.social TEXT VERSION https://www.tillystranstuesdays.com/2024/08/08/hormone-replacement-therapy/ FURTHER READING (topics discussed with essays available at http://TillysTransTuesdays.com) Body Hair, Trans Voices 1-3, Gender Dysphoria, Trans Kids and the Intake Exam, Four Years Out and on HRT Check-in, Transition Setbacks, Anecdotal Trans Healthcare, Body Hacking, Gender Euphoria, Trans Trauma 2: Societal Gaslighting, Transmedicalism (and WPATH version 1), Cis People Get Gender Affirming Healthcare Too REFERENCE MATERIAL The effects of hormone replacement therapy (HRT) on the human eye - https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/11944225/ Overview of feminizing hormone therapy - https://web.archive.org/web/20250427214738/https://transcare.ucsf.edu/guidelines/feminizing-hormone-therapy Estrogen Levels - https://transfemscience.org/articles/hormone-levels-female-puberty/#estrogen-levels Estrogen HRT Labs at FOLX - https://www.folxhealth.com/library/estrogen-hrt-labs Medical Association Statements in Support of Health Care for Transgender People and Youth - https://glaad.org/medical-association-statements-supporting-trans-youth-healthcare-and-against-discriminatory/ Special thanks to Daisy and Jane for the use of "Sorry Not Sorry" as our show's theme music. Please stop by and show your support at daisyandjane.bandcamp.com and soundcloud.com/daisyandjane --Please leave us a rating on Apple Podcasts/iTunes!-- Website: pendantaudio.com Twitter: @pendantweb Facebook: facebook.com/pendantaudio Tumblr: pendantaudio.tumblr.com YouTube: youtube.com/pendantproductions