From cutting to black magic attacks we double down

I make a mental note to list my blessings instead of think of sad ass thoughts. Depression. Low bipolar manic mania.

I find normal everyday thing sad.

I have a mixed episode where it feels like a weeks worth of emotion in one day. I dive down into a cry then shoot up, into euphoria. And taxing ride both physically and mentally. 14 days till next doctors appointment and therapist session. Working on cbt cognitive behavioral therapy. Thoughts create actions. So change your thoughts and affect your actions (and reactions)

I go from down to up. Still waiting to do my blood work. Doctors appointment in 2 weeks. Just holding on till then

I jump back on Buspirone.5 mg then 7.5 mg till my back hurt. It’s been one week off meds and have plummeted into a low. Over reacting. Blowing things out of proportion. Expectationizing everyone. Bipolar disorder depression manic mania episode medication

I try a low dose of mushrooms. Seem to work for the last two months.

Modern love S1E3 Annie Hathaways. My Buspirone symptoms (T.D.) Tardive Dyskinesia symptoms vs side effects balance oculus go and wander app

Buspirone 10mg isn’t doing much. This week was a low depression where I cried a lot but also found some strength through it. Depression mania bipolar

Buspirone 10mg I level out at an 8. Mania. Depression. I find a more manageable level of meds that help

Bipolar mania sets in after a round of depression. Low to a high. We think this dosage is too weak. It’s a longer than usual episode.