The Mysterious Source - Kisei Costenbader, Sensei

In this episode, Jogen continues exploring how Zen practice moves beyond the meditation cushion and into daily life. Focusing on the Bodhisattva path, he reflects on generosity as the first and essential practice—expressed through simple acts like appreciation, attentiveness, sharing resources, and imagining the inner lives of others. Rather than striving to be “good,” he invites listeners to cultivate a generous heart that naturally flows from clarity and awareness, transforming ordinary moments into opportunities to bring a little more care, beauty, and ease into the world. ★ Support this podcast ★

In this episode, Jogen explores how Zen practice extends beyond the meditation cushion into the challenges of everyday life. From observing habitual thought patterns and interrupting unhelpful mental habits to cultivating pockets of quiet mind in daily tasks, he emphasizes continual practice as a path to clarity, awareness, and grace. Listeners are invited to engage with their own minds, relationships, and routines as living opportunities for mindfulness, reflection, and transformation. ★ Support this podcast ★

In this episode, Jomon reflects on death, impermanence, and how mindfulness can deepen our appreciation of life. Drawing from experiences with wildland firefighters, Zen retreats, and the teachings of Frank Ostasewski, she explores how turning toward mortality and grief can cultivate presence, compassion, and wholehearted living. Listeners are guided through practices to recognize impermanence, connect more deeply with others, and fully inhabit the precious moments we often take for granted. ★ Support this podcast ★

In this talk, Hogen explores how to bring spiritual practice to life in the face of life’s inevitable endings. From confronting illness and loss to observing the fleeting nature of thought and time, he offers practical guidance on calming the mind, grounding in the present moment, and discovering wisdom and compassion in even the most difficult situations. Listeners are invited to cultivate micro-awareness and find stability, clarity, and meaning right here, right now. ★ Support this podcast ★

Responding to a question about fame, influence, and “sacrificing one’s life to a cause,” Jogen explores the Buddhist teaching of the Eight Worldly Concerns: pleasure and displeasure, loss and gain, praise and blame, fame and infamy. He examines the deep human desire to be known, respected, and powerful, and the spiritual dangers hidden within recognition and status. Drawing on stories from Zen tradition and his own experience, he reflects on how practice invites us to stop being buffeted by these worldly winds and to act from integrity rather than optics. What would it mean to contribute fully, perhaps even to change history, without needing to be known for it? ★ Support this podcast ★

In this talk, Kisei continues exploring the Faith in Mind poem, reflecting on the invitation to “cut off all useless thoughts” and return to the root of awareness itself. Drawing on the koan of Mu, the teachings of Mumon and Dahui, and her own experience of practice, she reframes “cutting off” as seeing through the thinking mind rather than fighting it. By investigating the nature of thought—its texture, duration, and source—practitioners begin to recognize the spacious awareness in which thoughts arise and dissolve. This talk points to the freedom of the unhindered mind and closes with a poem from Joy Harjo, reminding us that true clarity opens from the heart. ★ Support this podcast ★

Jogen explores the question of motivation for practice, reflecting on why spiritual practice matters in a disturbing and impermanent world and why it can still be difficult to sustain. He examines sources of motivation—from habit and benefit to suffering, wisdom, and mysterious calling—and introduces the traditional “Four Thoughts That Turn the Mind” as contemplations on suffering, impermanence, karma, and death. Through personal stories and practical reflection, this talk invites listeners to consider what truly motivates their practice and how deep contemplation can unbottle a more wholehearted commitment to the Dharma. ★ Support this podcast ★

Kisei reflects on the closing stanzas of the Affirming Faith in Mind poem, exploring what it means to trust the heart-mind beyond discrimination and thought. She considers seasons of practice, the tension between sidedness and non-duality, and the lived, particular shape of a practitioner’s path, weaving in stories of pilgrimage, faith in America, and the koan of calling out to one’s true nature. This talk invites listeners to recognize the mysterious source within, honor their unique karma and calling, and cultivate trust in the unfolding of their life and practice. ★ Support this podcast ★

In this dialogue, Jogen and Hogen reflect on practice, uncertainty, and how to find direction in life. Hogen shares what he would tell his 18-year-old self about confidence and liberation, while Jogen explores non-resistance, yielding to experience, and listening deeply to the body and mind. Together they discuss career choices, not knowing the future, and how Zen practice cultivates discernment, flexibility, and trust in the unfolding of a life. ★ Support this podcast ★

In this talk, Hogen reflects on turning problems into wisdom, exploring how fear, beliefs, and fixed stories can become inner prisons—and how practice opens a path to freedom. Drawing on teachings about equanimity, responsibility, and gratitude, he invites listeners to face fear directly, soften around difficulty, and transform life’s challenges into sources of insight, compassion, and appreciation for this one precious life. ★ Support this podcast ★