I Didn't Think I Was Worth Helping (Reading Psalm 30)

 Dylan opens up about once feeling like she had to choose between her mom and dad, how her relationship with God helped her realize she could love both parents, and what children navigating divorce need most from their friends and families. Toni also reflects on the responsibility divorced parents have to protect their children from adult conflict, resist trying to replace the other parent, and create opportunities for their children to experience family—even when the family looks different than it once did.  But this conversation is about more than divorce. Dylan shares how God helped her overcome insecurity, why teenagers need a personal relationship with Jesus instead of simply borrowing their parents’ faith, and what Proverbs 3:5–6 taught her during a moment when she desperately needed to hear from God.  Parents, this is an episode to watch with your children. And whether you are raising kids, navigating co-parenting, healing from your own childhood, or simply wondering whether the next generation still loves Jesus, this conversation will leave you encouraged. Because the movement of God does not end with us.  The next generation is still listening.  They are still asking questions.  They are still developing real faith.  And they still need safe adults willing to hear what they have to say.   Watch podcast episodes on YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/@tonijcollier Support the Still Coloring Podcast: https://square.link/u/u2FkAzC7?src=sheet Shop Toni's merch: https://www.shopetch.co/collections/toni-collier Connect with Toni:  Personal Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/tonijcollier Podcast Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/stillcoloringpod Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/colliertoni Newsletter: ToniJCollier.com/Newsletter Website: ToniJCollier.com Purchase Toni's newest book, Don’t Try This Alone: https://amzn.to/3BQqaBr Purchase Toni’s children’s book, Broken Crayons Still Color: https://amzn.to/3x3I4xD Purchase Toni’s first book, Brave Enough to be Broken: https://amzn.to/3VoCjVu Watch podcast episodes on YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/@tonijcollierSupport the Still Coloring Podcast: https://square.link/u/u2FkAzC7?src=sheetShop Toni's merch: https://www.shopetch.co/collections/toni-collierConnect with Toni: Personal Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/tonijcollierPodcast Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/stillcoloringpodFacebook: https://www.facebook.com/colliertoniNewsletter: ToniJCollier.com/NewsletterWebsite: ToniJCollier.comPurchase Toni's newest book, Don’t Try This Alone: https://amzn.to/3BQqaBrPurchase Toni’s children’s book, Broken Crayons Still Color: https://amzn.to/3x3I4xDPurchase Toni’s first book, Brave Enough to be Broken: https://amzn.to/3VoCjVu

In this episode of the Still Coloring Podcast, Toni gets honest about her own season of loneliness, uncertainty, and learning not to move ahead of God.  Through Psalm 3, she explores what it means to trust that God is still watching over you, even when your circumstances feel unsafe and your prayers seem unanswered. You can expect an honest conversation about: Why waiting on God can feel so painful The temptation to trust your intellect over your discernment How to stop rushing what God is asking you to surrender Practical ways to manage anxiety while you wait The importance of gratitude, movement, journaling, and community How Psalm 3 reminds us that God is still our protector and rescuer   This episode is for anyone waiting for healing, clarity, a relationship, a new opportunity, relief from grief, or an answer that has not come yet. God has not forgotten you. He is with you, He is watching over you, and He can give you peace and presence while you wait. WATCH UNSHAKABLE MOXIE SEASON 2 FOR FREE: https://go.odb.org/broken-crayons-moxie  Listen to the Still Coloring Podcast on your favorite podcast platform: https://tonijcollier.com/podcast  Subscribe for weekly conversations about healing, faith, emotional health, and finding hope in the middle of life’s messiest moments.  Connect with Toni:  Instagram: @tonijcollier  Still Coloring Podcast: @stillcoloringpod  Broken Crayons Still Color: @brkncrayons    Remember: broken crayons still color, and God is not finished with your story. #WaitingOnGod #StillColoringPodcast #ToniCollier #Psalm3 #ChristianPodcast #TrustingGod #ChristianWomen #FaithInTheWaiting #GodHasNotForgottenYou Watch podcast episodes on YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/@tonijcollierSupport the Still Coloring Podcast: https://square.link/u/u2FkAzC7?src=sheetShop Toni's merch: https://www.shopetch.co/collections/toni-collierConnect with Toni: Personal Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/tonijcollierPodcast Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/stillcoloringpodFacebook: https://www.facebook.com/colliertoniNewsletter: ToniJCollier.com/NewsletterWebsite: ToniJCollier.comPurchase Toni's newest book, Don’t Try This Alone: https://amzn.to/3BQqaBrPurchase Toni’s children’s book, Broken Crayons Still Color: https://amzn.to/3x3I4xDPurchase Toni’s first book, Brave Enough to be Broken: https://amzn.to/3VoCjVu

In this episode we discuss why adult friendships change, how to navigate conflict without ending the relationship, when it's time to transition a friendship, the power of being truly seen, and why community is one of God's greatest gifts.  Whether you've experienced friendship breakups, church hurt, loneliness, betrayal, or simply want stronger relationships, this conversation will challenge the way you think about friendship.  In this episode you'll learn:  + Why friendships naturally change over time  + How to navigate difficult friendship conversations  + The biggest mistake people make before ending friendships  + Why assumptions destroy relationships  + How to become the friend you're looking for  + The power of presence over fixing Biblical wisdom for healthy community  + How to rebuild trust after hurt If this episode encouraged you, share it with a friend who needs it. Support Toni's ministry: https://shorturl.at/GsH9y Youtube pod version: https://www.youtube.com/@tonijcollier  Subscribe to the podcast newsletter: https://tinyurl.com/stillcoloringpod  Follow Toni Collier on Instagram: https://instagram.com/tonijcollier  Follow the podcast Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/stillcoloringpod/  For bookings: https://www.tonijcollier.com/booktoni  Other resources can be found at tonijcollier.com! Watch podcast episodes on YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/@tonijcollierSupport the Still Coloring Podcast: https://square.link/u/u2FkAzC7?src=sheetShop Toni's merch: https://www.shopetch.co/collections/toni-collierConnect with Toni: Personal Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/tonijcollierPodcast Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/stillcoloringpodFacebook: https://www.facebook.com/colliertoniNewsletter: ToniJCollier.com/NewsletterWebsite: ToniJCollier.comPurchase Toni's newest book, Don’t Try This Alone: https://amzn.to/3BQqaBrPurchase Toni’s children’s book, Broken Crayons Still Color: https://amzn.to/3x3I4xDPurchase Toni’s first book, Brave Enough to be Broken: https://amzn.to/3VoCjVu

Do you rely more on your intellect than God's voice?  In this episode of the Still Coloring podcast, Toni Collier opens up about a difficult truth she discovered while reading Psalm 46: she had been trusting her own understanding more than God's wisdom. If you've been overthinking every decision, carrying burdens you were never meant to carry, or feeling exhausted from trying to control every outcome, this conversation is for you. Through honest storytelling, biblical insight, and practical encouragement, Toni unpacks what it really means to "be still and know that I am God"—and why discernment often requires us to slow down, surrender, and listen. Psalm 46 reminds us that God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble. Even when life feels chaotic, His presence offers peace that striving never can. You don't have to figure everything out on your own.    In this episode, you'll learn:  • Why self-reliance can keep us from hearing God's voice  • The difference between intellect and discernment  • How to trust God when you don't know what to do  • What "be still" actually means in everyday life  • Why surrender is often the first step toward peace  If this episode encouraged you, subscribe to the Still Coloring podcast and share it with someone who needs this reminder today.    Support Toni's ministry: https://shorturl.at/GsH9y   Subscribe to the podcast newsletter: https://tinyurl.com/stillcoloringpod  Follow Toni Collier on Instagram: https://instagram.com/tonijcollier  Follow the podcast Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/stillcoloringpod/  For bookings: https://www.tonijcollier.com/booktoni Other resources can be found at tonijcollier.com!   Watch podcast episodes on YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/@tonijcollierSupport the Still Coloring Podcast: https://square.link/u/u2FkAzC7?src=sheetShop Toni's merch: https://www.shopetch.co/collections/toni-collierConnect with Toni: Personal Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/tonijcollierPodcast Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/stillcoloringpodFacebook: https://www.facebook.com/colliertoniNewsletter: ToniJCollier.com/NewsletterWebsite: ToniJCollier.comPurchase Toni's newest book, Don’t Try This Alone: https://amzn.to/3BQqaBrPurchase Toni’s children’s book, Broken Crayons Still Color: https://amzn.to/3x3I4xDPurchase Toni’s first book, Brave Enough to be Broken: https://amzn.to/3VoCjVu

Access the Unshakable Moxie video bible study, featuring Toni Collier here (for free!)! https://go.odb.org/broken-crayons-moxie  To financially support Toni's ministry, donate here: https://shorturl.at/GsH9y  To shop Toni's Hope Merch, click here: https://shorturl.at/dEp62 Through honest storytelling about her recent surgery, friendship, motherhood, healing, and faith, Toni reminds us that God never intended for us to carry our burdens alone.  Psalm 30 teaches us that weeping may stay for the night, but rejoicing comes in the morning. No matter what you're facing today, joy is on the way. In this episode, you'll learn:  • Why receiving help can feel so uncomfortable  • How low self-worth impacts relationships and decision-making  • The connection between self-respect and settling for less  • What Psalm 30 teaches about grief, healing, and hope  • How to believe that better days are still ahead    Subscribe to the Still Coloring podcast for honest conversations about faith, healing, grief, self-worth, relationships, and finding hope in hard seasons.  Support Toni's ministry: https://shorturl.at/GsH9y   Subscribe to the podcast newsletter: https://tinyurl.com/stillcoloringpod  Follow Toni Collier on Instagram: https://instagram.com/tonijcollier  Follow the podcast Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/stillcoloringpod/  For bookings: https://www.tonijcollier.com/booktoni  Other resources can be found at http://tonijcollier.com      Watch podcast episodes on YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/@tonijcollierSupport the Still Coloring Podcast: https://square.link/u/u2FkAzC7?src=sheetShop Toni's merch: https://www.shopetch.co/collections/toni-collierConnect with Toni: Personal Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/tonijcollierPodcast Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/stillcoloringpodFacebook: https://www.facebook.com/colliertoniNewsletter: ToniJCollier.com/NewsletterWebsite: ToniJCollier.comPurchase Toni's newest book, Don’t Try This Alone: https://amzn.to/3BQqaBrPurchase Toni’s children’s book, Broken Crayons Still Color: https://amzn.to/3x3I4xDPurchase Toni’s first book, Brave Enough to be Broken: https://amzn.to/3VoCjVu

In this episode of the Still Coloring Podcast, Toni opens up about one of the most painful seasons of her life—walking through betrayal, divorce, financial uncertainty, public scrutiny, and the feeling that maybe she had become "damaged goods." Through Psalm 121, Toni shares how God reminded her that He never stopped seeing her, never stopped watching over her, and never stopped working, even when everything around her seemed to be falling apart. If you've ever wondered where God is in your grief, questioned whether your story is too broken, or felt like you've lost more than you can carry, this conversation is for you. Psalm 121 reminds us that our help comes from the Lord—the Maker of heaven and earth—and that He is still watching over our coming and going, both now and forevermore. Special thanks to the official sponsor of the Still Coloring Podcast, Our Daily Bread and God Hears Her! Check out the "Unshakeable Moxie," show where you can hear stories about women who refuse to quit co-hosted by Toni Collier and Moriah Smallbone: https://go.odb.org/broken-crayons-moxie Access the Unshakable Moxie video bible study (for free!)!  https://go.odb.org/broken-crayons-moxie  To financially support Toni's ministry, donate here: https://shorturl.at/GsH9y Watch podcast episodes on YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/@tonijcollier Support the Still Coloring Podcast: https://square.link/u/u2FkAzC7?src=sheet Shop Toni's merch: https://www.shopetch.co/collections/toni-collier Connect with Toni:  Personal Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/tonijcollier Podcast Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/stillcoloringpod Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/colliertoni Newsletter: ToniJCollier.com/Newsletter Website: ToniJCollier.com Purchase Toni's newest book, Don’t Try This Alone: https://amzn.to/3BQqaBr Purchase Toni’s children’s book, Broken Crayons Still Color: https://amzn.to/3x3I4xD Purchase Toni’s first book, Brave Enough to be Broken: https://amzn.to/3VoCjVu Watch podcast episodes on YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/@tonijcollierSupport the Still Coloring Podcast: https://square.link/u/u2FkAzC7?src=sheetShop Toni's merch: https://www.shopetch.co/collections/toni-collierConnect with Toni: Personal Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/tonijcollierPodcast Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/stillcoloringpodFacebook: https://www.facebook.com/colliertoniNewsletter: ToniJCollier.com/NewsletterWebsite: ToniJCollier.comPurchase Toni's newest book, Don’t Try This Alone: https://amzn.to/3BQqaBrPurchase Toni’s children’s book, Broken Crayons Still Color: https://amzn.to/3x3I4xDPurchase Toni’s first book, Brave Enough to be Broken: https://amzn.to/3VoCjVu

Can I tell you why Psalm 27 brings me to tears every time I read it? It’s one of the most meaningful passages of Scripture in my life, truly. It has carried me through grief, heartbreak, rebuilding, fear, and seasons when I felt like I had nothing left to hold onto but God.  If you've ever felt overwhelmed, exhausted, anxious, abandoned, or unsure of what to pray, I really do hope this conversation is a powerful reminder that God's presence is enough.  Let me tell you about the things I once turned to for comfort, why Psalm 27 continues to wreck me in the best way. and what it means to dwell with God instead of constantly asking Him to fix everything around us.  Special thanks to the official sponsor of the Still Coloring Podcast, Our Daily Bread and God Hears Her! Check out the "Unshakeable Moxie," show where you can hear stories about women who refuse to quit co-hosted by Toni Collier and Moriah Smallbone: https://go.odb.org/broken-crayons-moxie Access the Unshakable Moxie video bible study (for free!)!  https://go.odb.org/broken-crayons-moxie  To financially support Toni's ministry, donate here: https://shorturl.at/GsH9y Watch podcast episodes on YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/@tonijcollierSupport the Still Coloring Podcast: https://square.link/u/u2FkAzC7?src=sheetShop Toni's merch: https://www.shopetch.co/collections/toni-collierConnect with Toni: Personal Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/tonijcollierPodcast Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/stillcoloringpodFacebook: https://www.facebook.com/colliertoniNewsletter: ToniJCollier.com/NewsletterWebsite: ToniJCollier.comPurchase Toni's newest book, Don’t Try This Alone: https://amzn.to/3BQqaBrPurchase Toni’s children’s book, Broken Crayons Still Color: https://amzn.to/3x3I4xDPurchase Toni’s first book, Brave Enough to be Broken: https://amzn.to/3VoCjVu

Have you ever desperately wanted to hear God's voice... but weren't sure if it was really Him? I want to tell you a powerful story about the first time I believe I heard the voice of God. Y’all know I’ve been going through it – navigating divorce, doing my best as a single mom, facing financial hardship, and healing from trauma. This season really and truly has brought me to complete desperation and ultimately closer to God than ever before. Let’s look at Psalm 91 and I’ll tell you how this Scripture became more than words on a page to me. Psalm 91 feels like a personal message from God that changed the trajectory of my faith journey. You might be wondering, “How do I know if God is speaking to me? Why can't I hear God's voice? Does God still speak today? What role does silence, prayer, and Scripture play in hearing from God?” I don’t have all the answers, of course, but I hope this conversation – and the other episodes still to come in this Psalms series – will help you to seek God in those questions. Special thanks to the official sponsor of the Still Coloring Podcast, Our Daily Bread and God Hears Her! Check out "Unshakeable Moxie," co-hosted by Toni Collier and Moriah Smallbone: https://go.odb.org/broken-crayons-moxie Toni's episode with Stasi Eldredge: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bibZB_Kz7Dw Watch podcast episodes on YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/@tonijcollierSupport the Still Coloring Podcast: https://square.link/u/u2FkAzC7?src=sheetShop Toni's merch: https://www.shopetch.co/collections/toni-collierConnect with Toni: Personal Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/tonijcollierPodcast Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/stillcoloringpodFacebook: https://www.facebook.com/colliertoniNewsletter: ToniJCollier.com/NewsletterWebsite: ToniJCollier.comPurchase Toni's newest book, Don’t Try This Alone: https://amzn.to/3BQqaBrPurchase Toni’s children’s book, Broken Crayons Still Color: https://amzn.to/3x3I4xDPurchase Toni’s first book, Brave Enough to be Broken: https://amzn.to/3VoCjVu

What do you do when it feels like everyone else is getting to enjoy the life you prayed for? Today we’re talking about disappointment, unanswered prayers, jealousy, seasons of waiting, and struggling to trust God’s timing. I call it the “pain comparison trap” and it’s HARD, y’all. Comparison can slowly steal your peace and distort your view of yourself and God! If you’ve ever wondered why everyone else seems to be moving forward while you feel stuck, forgotten, or overlooked by God, this conversation is for you. Your pain is not invisible, and God has not forgotten you. And I want to acknowledge your sadness. I feel it too. Don't discount your pain.  If you’ve been wrestling with discouragement, unmet expectations, loneliness, singleness, grief, healing, or feeling emotionally exhausted from watching everyone else “win,” pull up a seat and let’s chat through a few stories of comparison in the Bible.  Cain and Abel – Genesis 4 Rachel and Leah – Genesis 29-30 Saul and David – 1 Samuel 18  Joseph and his brothers – Genesis 37 Watch podcast episodes on YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/@tonijcollierSupport the Still Coloring Podcast: https://square.link/u/u2FkAzC7?src=sheetShop Toni's merch: https://www.shopetch.co/collections/toni-collierConnect with Toni: Personal Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/tonijcollierPodcast Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/stillcoloringpodFacebook: https://www.facebook.com/colliertoniNewsletter: ToniJCollier.com/NewsletterWebsite: ToniJCollier.comPurchase Toni's newest book, Don’t Try This Alone: https://amzn.to/3BQqaBrPurchase Toni’s children’s book, Broken Crayons Still Color: https://amzn.to/3x3I4xDPurchase Toni’s first book, Brave Enough to be Broken: https://amzn.to/3VoCjVu

What happens when life falls apart… and you have to rebuild from scratch? I’ve been there. And I’m still going through a season of rebuilding years after my second divorce. So, let’s talk about the emotional pain of starting over again when life doesn’t go according to plan.  From grief and disappointment to healing and trusting God in the middle of uncertainty, this episode is for anyone who feels exhausted trying to rebuild their life after heartbreak, loss, divorce, failure, betrayal, or unexpected change. If you’ve ever felt like everyone else is moving forward while you’re picking up the pieces, my prayer is this: that you’ll be reminded that healing is not linear, starting over is not shameful, and God still meets you in the middle of the rebuilding process. Watch podcast episodes on YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/@tonijcollierSupport the Still Coloring Podcast: https://square.link/u/u2FkAzC7?src=sheetShop Toni's merch: https://www.shopetch.co/collections/toni-collierConnect with Toni: Personal Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/tonijcollierPodcast Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/stillcoloringpodFacebook: https://www.facebook.com/colliertoniNewsletter: ToniJCollier.com/NewsletterWebsite: ToniJCollier.comPurchase Toni's newest book, Don’t Try This Alone: https://amzn.to/3BQqaBrPurchase Toni’s children’s book, Broken Crayons Still Color: https://amzn.to/3x3I4xDPurchase Toni’s first book, Brave Enough to be Broken: https://amzn.to/3VoCjVu