123. Clinging, Collapse, and Coming Home to Myself

This was the hardest year of my life. I found myself in the deepest freeze — emotionally, physically, and spiritually. After walking away from a relationship I once thought was my forever, I faced the terrifying realization that I had been outsourcing my safety for most of my life. Safety in men. Safety in money. Safety in pretending everything was fine.In this solo episode, I walk you through the unraveling. The grief, the helplessness, the heartbreak. And the surprising emotion that finally cracked me open and pulled me out of freeze: anger. Not rage — but the deep, righteous anger that reminded me I deserve more.This isn’t a “bounce back” story. It’s a remembering. If you’ve ever felt stuck in clinging energy, desperate for love, money, or a way out — I hope this helps you feel seen. I hope it helps you come back to yourself.❥Softening into self- 3 month 1:1 with Whats App Support:https://marina-yt.mykajabi.com/offers/PAWQhZHu❥❥1:1 Coaching with me: https://docs.google.com/forms/d/e/1FAIpQLSfWcZM5s9c2OjOLwoGMI5jE6rh_JAzjN2d_vCtuVe7e3pVGxw/viewform❥❥❥Stay or Go Course: ⁠https://marinayt.com/stay-or-go⁠ ❥❥❥❥ FREE RESOURCE: a step-by-step process of working with your triggersTRIGGERED TO ROOTED: A ROADMAP TO CREATE TREASURES FROM YOUR TRIGGERSThis powerful step by step process will walk you through how to somatically move through a trigger, ground yourself, allow the emotions to come up and experience massive growth in your lifeDownload here:⁠ ⁠https://marinayt.com/trigger-2-rooted⁠⁠Follow me on Instagram:⁠ ⁠www.instagram.com/marina.y.t⁠⁠ Subscribe to YouTube: http://www.youtube.com/@marinatriner Top Episode Quotes:“I was literally enacting helplessness so that my husband would rescue me.”“Anger is the antidote to freeze. It woke me up when nothing else could.”“I thought I was doing it all ‘right’—the divorce, the healing—but I still collapsed. And that’s part of it too.”“You don’t get rewarded for being brave. You get broken open so you can finally see.”“Outsourcing my safety was inherited—but reclaiming it is mine.”Tagssomatic healing, nervous system regulation, freeze response, trauma healing, anger work, women’s healing, heartbreak recovery, emotional safety, attachment wounds, Marina Yanay-Triner, solo episode, inner child healing, reclaiming power, emotional resilience, body-based healing, nervous system support

In this episode, I’m joined by world-renowned trauma expert Dr. Diane Poole Heller for a profound conversation on attachment wounds, healing relational trauma, and the path back to secure connection. Diane shares insights from decades of work in Somatic Experiencing and her DARe™ model, helping us understand why so many of us feel unsafe in intimacy—and what we can do about it.We explore the origins of avoidant, ambivalent, and disorganized attachment patterns, how early ruptures shape adult relationships, and why nervous system regulation is key to healing. Diane brings a grounded, compassionate perspective to the messy, tender process of becoming securely attached, whether you're in a relationship or not.This conversation is full of lightbulb moments, practical takeaways, and gentle reminders that secure connection is not just possible—it’s our birthright.Connect with Diane:www.traumasolutions.comhttps://www.instagram.com/traumaattachmenttraining/❥Softening into self- 3 month 1:1 with Whats App Support:https://marina-yt.mykajabi.com/offers/PAWQhZHu❥❥1:1 Coaching with me: https://docs.google.com/forms/d/e/1FAIpQLSfWcZM5s9c2OjOLwoGMI5jE6rh_JAzjN2d_vCtuVe7e3pVGxw/viewform❥❥❥Stay or Go Course: ⁠https://marinayt.com/stay-or-go⁠ ❥❥❥❥ FREE RESOURCE: a step-by-step process of working with your triggersTRIGGERED TO ROOTED: A ROADMAP TO CREATE TREASURES FROM YOUR TRIGGERSThis powerful step by step process will walk you through how to somatically move through a trigger, ground yourself, allow the emotions to come up and experience massive growth in your lifeDownload here:⁠ ⁠https://marinayt.com/trigger-2-rooted⁠⁠Follow me on Instagram:⁠ ⁠www.instagram.com/marina.y.t⁠⁠ Subscribe to YouTube: http://www.youtube.com/@marinatriner Top Episode Quotes:“Connection is a biological imperative—we’re wired to attach, even when it hurts.”“You don’t have to wait for a perfect childhood to have a great adulthood.”“Healing attachment wounds isn’t about fixing—you’re not broken. It’s about reconnecting.”“Our patterns were brilliant survival strategies. But they’re not always the best relationship strategies.”“Secure attachment can be earned, at any stage of life.”attachment healing, trauma recovery, somatic experiencing, secure attachment, avoidant attachment, anxious attachment, nervous system healing, childhood trauma, relationship wounds, emotional safety, trauma-informed relationships, intimacy healing, healing attachment styles

“Language can either divide us or bring us home to each other.”In this soulful conversation, Marina and Jawdat explore how Nonviolent Communication (NVC) becomes a bridge — between people, between cultures, and within ourselves. Jawdat, a lawyer and facilitator with Army of Healers, shares his work using dialogue, storytelling, and NVC to support trauma healing and collective reconciliation. Together, we explore how to communicate from compassion instead of defense, transform tension into deeper connection, bring awareness and healing into justice work, and use the body as a compass for honest, grounded expression.This episode invites us to see communication not just as words, but as an embodied act of love, repair, and truth.Connect with Jawdat:https://www.instagram.com/jdkassabhttps://jawdatkasab.wixsite.com/appraiser❥Softening into self- 3 month 1:1 with Whats App Support:https://marina-yt.mykajabi.com/offers/PAWQhZHu❥❥1:1 Coaching with me: https://docs.google.com/forms/d/e/1FAIpQLSfWcZM5s9c2OjOLwoGMI5jE6rh_JAzjN2d_vCtuVe7e3pVGxw/viewform❥❥❥Stay or Go Course: ⁠https://marinayt.com/stay-or-go⁠ ❥❥❥❥ FREE RESOURCE: a step-by-step process of working with your triggersTRIGGERED TO ROOTED: A ROADMAP TO CREATE TREASURES FROM YOUR TRIGGERSThis powerful step by step process will walk you through how to somatically move through a trigger, ground yourself, allow the emotions to come up and experience massive growth in your lifeDownload here:⁠ ⁠https://marinayt.com/trigger-2-rooted⁠⁠Follow me on Instagram:⁠ ⁠www.instagram.com/marina.y.t⁠⁠ Subscribe to YouTube: http://www.youtube.com/@marinatriner Top Episode Quotes:“Language is not neutral — it can be a weapon or a bridge.”“Compassion doesn’t mean agreeing. It means staying present with humanity.”“We can’t heal collectively without learning how to listen.”nonviolent communication, trauma healing, conflict transformation, empathy, peacebuilding, nervous system regulation, heartspace podcast, marina yanay triner, jawdat kasab, trauma informed communication, collective healing, nervous system awareness, self compassion, embodiment, emotional regulation, healing podcast, inner healing, community healing

I’m joined by the radiant Sarah May—author, yoga teacher, Reiki healer, and intuitive guide—for a deeply honest and nourishing conversation about what it really means to come home to yourself. After doing everything she was “supposed” to do, Sarah found herself crying in a van in the middle of the desert, completely disconnected from her truth. That moment sparked a radical journey of healing, intuition, embodiment, and finally choosing a life that felt good, not just looked good on paper.We talk about how Sarah navigated grief, perfectionism, and pressure to achieve, and how she found her way back to wholeness through yoga, somatic practices, intuitive guidance, and her connection to nature. She shares how her van life adventure with her husband became more than a road trip—it became a pilgrimage back to her soul.If you’ve ever felt like you did everything “right” and still felt empty, or if you’re standing at a crossroads wondering if it’s safe to choose you—this episode will hold your hand through it.Connect with Sarah:www.shejourneys.uswww.instagram.com/she__journeysGet The Book: https://www.amazon.com/She-Journeys-Memoir-Heartbreak-Homecoming/dp/1647429625Personal website for healing offerings: www.shejourneys.us❥❥1:1 Coaching with me: https://docs.google.com/forms/d/e/1FAIpQLSfWcZM5s9c2OjOLwoGMI5jE6rh_JAzjN2d_vCtuVe7e3pVGxw/viewform❥❥❥Stay or Go Course: ⁠https://marinayt.com/stay-or-go⁠ ❥❥❥❥ FREE RESOURCE: a step-by-step process of working with your triggersTRIGGERED TO ROOTED: A ROADMAP TO CREATE TREASURES FROM YOUR TRIGGERSThis powerful step by step process will walk you through how to somatically move through a trigger, ground yourself, allow the emotions to come up and experience massive growth in your lifeDownload here:⁠ ⁠https://marinayt.com/trigger-2-rooted⁠⁠Follow me on Instagram:⁠ ⁠www.instagram.com/marina.y.t⁠⁠ Subscribe to YouTube: http://www.youtube.com/@marinatriner Top Episode Quotes:“I had done everything right. And yet, I still felt completely lost.”“The van didn’t save me. It gave me space to finally feel what I’d been avoiding for years.”“We talk a lot about coming home. But what does it really mean to come home to yourself?”“Letting go of ‘should’ was the most healing act I could give myself.”spiritual healing, somatic healing, intuitive living, healing journey, yoga for healing, women’s healing, reiki and intuition, grief and transformation, van life healing, spiritual awakening podcast, author interview, self-discovery journey, heart healing, feminine energy, burnout recovery

In this deeply nourishing episode, I’m joined by Ann Weiser Cornell, PhD—author, teacher, and a pioneer in emotional healing through the practice of Focusing and radical acceptance. Ann has spent decades helping people transform the parts of themselves they’ve been trying to fix, hide, or silence. Together, we explore what it means to turn toward the most painful emotions—shame, fear, self-doubt—not with resistance, but with compassion and presence.Ann shares how the nervous system and emotional patterns can become “stuck” when we reject or disown parts of our inner experience. We dive into the powerful concept of self-in-presence, and how relating to your inner world without merging or identifying with it can become a path to deep, lasting healing.If you've ever felt broken, overwhelmed by inner criticism, or caught in cycles of emotional pain you can’t “logic” your way out of, this conversation is here to remind you: you are not your trauma, your coping mechanisms, or your pain. You’re the one who can learn to turn toward it—with gentleness, curiosity, and radical acceptance.Connect with Anne:https://focusingresources.com/https://focusingresources.com/https://focusingresources.com/learning/untangling/https://focusingresources.com/learning/get-bigger-than-whats-bugging-you❥❥1:1 Coaching with me: https://docs.google.com/forms/d/e/1FAIpQLSfWcZM5s9c2OjOLwoGMI5jE6rh_JAzjN2d_vCtuVe7e3pVGxw/viewform❥❥❥Stay or Go Course: ⁠https://marinayt.com/stay-or-go⁠ ❥❥❥❥ FREE RESOURCE: a step-by-step process of working with your triggersTRIGGERED TO ROOTED: A ROADMAP TO CREATE TREASURES FROM YOUR TRIGGERSThis powerful step by step process will walk you through how to somatically move through a trigger, ground yourself, allow the emotions to come up and experience massive growth in your lifeDownload here:⁠ ⁠https://marinayt.com/trigger-2-rooted⁠⁠Follow me on Instagram:⁠ ⁠www.instagram.com/marina.y.t⁠⁠ Subscribe to YouTube: http://www.youtube.com/@marinatriner Top Episode Quotes:“You are not your shame. You’re the one who can turn toward it with love.” — Ann Weiser Cornell“When you stop trying to fix yourself and start listening to yourself, healing begins.” — Ann Weiser Cornell“Presence is not detachment—it’s the warm, loving awareness that says, ‘I’m here with you.’”Ann Weiser Cornell, radical acceptance, emotional healing, somatic healing, trauma recovery, focusing therapy, nervous system regulation, self-compassion, inner child healing, shame healing, healing from trauma, parts work, embodiment, personal growth podcast, deep healing conversations

In this solo episode, I’m opening up about one of the most tender and complex parts of my healing journey — growing up with emotionally immature parents and the lifelong impact it can have on our nervous systems, relationships, and sense of self.I share what it’s like to carry the invisible weight of over-responsibility, to be the emotional regulator in your family, and to navigate the guilt and grief that comes with creating space or going no-contact. This isn’t just about cutting people out — it’s about reclaiming your energy, your truth, and your right to feel safe in your own body.If you’ve ever felt torn between loyalty and self-preservation, between being the “good daughter” and finally being honest about how much it’s all costing you — you’re not alone. I’ve been there, and I’m still walking this path.I also talk about what helped me come back to myself and how I support others through this work inside my group program, The Unburdened Heart — for those of us who were never really held in the ways we needed.This one’s for the fixers, the feelers, the hyper-independent women who are so damn tired of holding it all. Let this episode be your permission slip to put it down.❥Join The Unburdened Heart Program: https://marinayt.com/the-unburdened-heart ❥❥1:1 Coaching with me: https://docs.google.com/forms/d/e/1FAIpQLSfWcZM5s9c2OjOLwoGMI5jE6rh_JAzjN2d_vCtuVe7e3pVGxw/viewform❥❥❥Stay or Go Course: ⁠https://marinayt.com/stay-or-go⁠ ❥❥❥❥ FREE RESOURCE: a step-by-step process of working with your triggersTRIGGERED TO ROOTED: A ROADMAP TO CREATE TREASURES FROM YOUR TRIGGERSThis powerful step by step process will walk you through how to somatically move through a trigger, ground yourself, allow the emotions to come up and experience massive growth in your lifeDownload here:⁠ ⁠https://marinayt.com/trigger-2-rooted⁠⁠Follow me on Instagram:⁠ ⁠www.instagram.com/marina.y.t⁠⁠ Subscribe to YouTube: http://www.youtube.com/@marinatriner Top Episode Quotes:“There’s a kind of grief that comes when you stop trying to make a broken system love you.”“I spent years trying to be the calm in everyone else’s storm — and abandoning myself in the process.”“You can love someone and still need distance to protect your nervous system.”“I had to learn that taking space isn’t selfish — it’s sacred.”“It’s not my job to carry what my parents never learned to hold.”somatic healing, emotionally immature parents, trauma healing, nervous system regulation, inner child work, family estrangement, grief, fixer identity, boundaries, somatic coaching, Marina Yanai Trainer, The Unburdened Heart, CPTSD recovery, adult children of narcissists, self abandonment healing, trauma-informed care

In this deeply personal and vulnerable episode, Marina shares the most transformative relationship experience of her life—the one that finally broke the cycle of being the fixer in love. With raw honesty, she opens up about falling for someone with immense potential, a soulful connection, and an incredibly difficult past. But more importantly, she shares how she finally walked away—not just physically, but emotionally and somatically—from the belief that her love could save someone who didn’t want to be saved.This is not just a story of heartbreak; it’s a story of nervous system healing, boundary reclamation, and rewriting the blueprint of what love feels like. If you've ever stayed in a relationship hoping the other person would change, if you've ever been hooked by potential instead of reality, or if you’ve lost yourself trying to fix someone else—this episode will speak to the deepest parts of you.Marina invites you into her process of grieving not only a romantic relationship but also her relationship with her father, and how all of it ties back to her childhood pattern of trying to earn love through healing others. She reflects on her own addiction—not to substances, but to hope, to the fixer fantasy, and to the deep desire for emotional safety. Through this heartbreak, she found a sense of freedom she never knew was possible.❥Join The Unburdened Heart Program: https://marinayt.com/the-unburdened-heart ❥❥1:1 Coaching with me: https://docs.google.com/forms/d/e/1FAIpQLSfWcZM5s9c2OjOLwoGMI5jE6rh_JAzjN2d_vCtuVe7e3pVGxw/viewform❥❥❥Stay or Go Course: ⁠https://marinayt.com/stay-or-go⁠ ❥❥❥❥ FREE RESOURCE: a step-by-step process of working with your triggersTRIGGERED TO ROOTED: A ROADMAP TO CREATE TREASURES FROM YOUR TRIGGERSThis powerful step by step process will walk you through how to somatically move through a trigger, ground yourself, allow the emotions to come up and experience massive growth in your lifeDownload here:⁠ ⁠https://marinayt.com/trigger-2-rooted⁠⁠Follow me on Instagram:⁠ ⁠www.instagram.com/marina.y.t⁠⁠ Subscribe to YouTube: http://www.youtube.com/@marinatriner Top Episode Quotes:"I was addicted—not to him—but to his recovery. That was my drug.""I used to fall in love with who people could be. Now I fall in love with how they treat me.""Healing isn’t just knowing better. It’s feeling differently. It's your nervous system learning what safety actually is.""The fixer in me always saw souls. But now, I’m learning to love what’s real.""I grieved the love story that never happened—because potential isn’t love, and fantasy isn’t reality."trauma healing, somatic healing, relationship patterns, fixer mentality, codependency, emotional healing, nervous system regulation, heartbreak recovery, boundaries, breaking trauma bonds, Marina Yanay-Triner, Deep Within podcast

What if the real reason you're exhausted isn’t your job, but the invisible emotional labor you’ve been carrying for everyone else? In this raw and vulnerable solo episode, Marina opens up about her own burnout—not from overworking, but from being the fixer, the emotional container, and the one who always says “yes.”This is a conversation for the silent supporters. The ones who grew up too soon, who manage everyone else’s stress while ignoring their own. Marina shares the painful yet liberating truth about the toll this emotional responsibility takes on your nervous system—and what happens when you finally stop.She talks about grief, guilt, shame, and the unexpected discomfort of being supported after years of self-sacrifice. Whether you've been the emotional anchor in your family, your relationships, or your community, this episode will help you reclaim your energy, redefine responsibility, and begin the journey toward rest, reciprocity, and nervous system safety.You are not selfish for choosing ease. You are not wrong for wanting to be held too. You’re just finally learning to be free.❥Join The Unburdened Heart Program: https://marinayt.com/the-unburdened-heart ❥❥1:1 Coaching with me: https://docs.google.com/forms/d/e/1FAIpQLSfWcZM5s9c2OjOLwoGMI5jE6rh_JAzjN2d_vCtuVe7e3pVGxw/viewform❥❥❥Stay or Go Course: ⁠https://marinayt.com/stay-or-go⁠ ❥❥❥❥ FREE RESOURCE: a step-by-step process of working with your triggersTRIGGERED TO ROOTED: A ROADMAP TO CREATE TREASURES FROM YOUR TRIGGERSThis powerful step by step process will walk you through how to somatically move through a trigger, ground yourself, allow the emotions to come up and experience massive growth in your lifeDownload here:⁠ ⁠https://marinayt.com/trigger-2-rooted⁠⁠Follow me on Instagram:⁠ ⁠www.instagram.com/marina.y.t⁠⁠ Subscribe to YouTube: http://www.youtube.com/@marinatriner Top Episode Quotes:“There is very real burnout that comes from carrying the nervous systems of other people.” “Fixing doesn’t feel like work—until your nervous system breaks down.” “Letting go of emotional responsibility isn’t easy. It’s grief, growth, and radical rest.”“Your life doesn’t have to feel hard to be valid. Ease is not a betrayal—it’s a birthright.”“The transition from fixer to free is messy, heartbreaking, and completely worth it.”emotional burnout, somatic healing, fixer in relationships, nervous system healing, emotional labor, boundaries, rest and recovery, personal growth, healing childhood trauma, over-responsibility, somatic coaching, Marina Yanai Trainer, deep within podcast

In this raw and deeply validating conversation, I sit down with Nadine Zumot—Certified Money Coach and Somatic Practitioner—to explore how emotional spending, undercharging, and money shame are often survival responses rooted in trauma. Nadine’s journey from financial chaos to embodied wealth wisdom is not only inspiring but incredibly relatable for anyone who’s ever felt like they were “bad with money.” We talk about the nervous system’s role in our financial decisions, why traditional budgeting advice doesn’t work for trauma survivors, and how to begin cultivating a more compassionate and powerful relationship with money. If you’ve ever hustled for safety, overspent to feel worthy, or stayed small in your business out of fear—this episode is for you. You’ll leave feeling seen, empowered, and ready to rewrite your money story.Connect with Nadine:https://www.saveamillioncents.comhttps://www.instagram.com/nadinezumot/https://www.saveamillioncents.com/empoweredspender❥❥1:1 Coaching with me: https://docs.google.com/forms/d/e/1FAIpQLSfWcZM5s9c2OjOLwoGMI5jE6rh_JAzjN2d_vCtuVe7e3pVGxw/viewform❥❥❥Stay or Go Course: ⁠https://marinayt.com/stay-or-go⁠ ❥❥❥❥ FREE RESOURCE: a step-by-step process of working with your triggersTRIGGERED TO ROOTED: A ROADMAP TO CREATE TREASURES FROM YOUR TRIGGERSThis powerful step by step process will walk you through how to somatically move through a trigger, ground yourself, allow the emotions to come up and experience massive growth in your lifeDownload here:⁠ ⁠https://marinayt.com/trigger-2-rooted⁠⁠Follow me on Instagram:⁠ ⁠www.instagram.com/marina.y.t⁠⁠ Subscribe to YouTube: http://www.youtube.com/@marinatriner Top Episode Quotes:“Emotional spending isn’t a character flaw—it’s a nervous system trying to regulate.”“Money trauma isn’t just about not having money—it’s about what you had to do to survive without it.”“You can’t budget your way out of a trauma response.”“True financial empowerment begins when you stop bypassing your body’s wisdom.”“You’re not irresponsible with money—you’ve just never been taught to feel safe with it.”money trauma, emotional spending, money mindset, somatic healing, nervous system regulation, money coaching, financial trauma, undercharging, worthiness, holistic money healing, somatic practitioner, Nadine Zumot, nervous system and money, trauma-informed finance, financial empowerment, healing money wounds, podcast for women, money podcast, financial wellbeing

What if pleasure wasn’t something to be ashamed of—but a powerful, healing force that reconnects you to yourself and your body?In this raw and empowering conversation, I’m joined by Certified Holistic Sexuality Educator and Embodied Intimacy & Relationship Coach, Lauren Elise Rogers, whose pain-to-purpose journey has shaped her deeply compassionate and trauma-informed approach to sexuality and relationships.We explore how cultural conditioning, purity culture, and childhood messaging have impacted our ability to feel safe in our bodies, ask for what we need, and express desire without guilt. Lauren offers a grounded, embodied take on everything from non-monogamy and long-term relationships to body image, queer identity, and reclaiming pleasure in midlife.If you’ve ever felt disconnected from your body, unsure how to voice your needs in intimacy, or weighed down by shame around sexuality—this episode is your permission slip to come home to yourself.Connect with Lauren:www.sexedforyou.comwww.sexedforyou.com/freeconsulthttps://www.instagram.com/sex_ed_for_you/❥Join HeartSpace monthly community with a free trial: ⁠⁠https://marinayt.com/community⁠⁠❥❥1:1 Coaching with me: https://docs.google.com/forms/d/e/1FAIpQLSfWcZM5s9c2OjOLwoGMI5jE6rh_JAzjN2d_vCtuVe7e3pVGxw/viewform❥❥❥Stay or Go Course: ⁠https://marinayt.com/stay-or-go⁠ ❥❥❥❥ FREE RESOURCE: a step-by-step process of working with your triggersTRIGGERED TO ROOTED: A ROADMAP TO CREATE TREASURES FROM YOUR TRIGGERSThis powerful step by step process will walk you through how to somatically move through a trigger, ground yourself, allow the emotions to come up and experience massive growth in your lifeDownload here:⁠ ⁠https://marinayt.com/trigger-2-rooted⁠⁠Follow me on Instagram:⁠ ⁠www.instagram.com/marina.y.t⁠⁠ Subscribe to YouTube: http://www.youtube.com/@marinatriner Top Episode Quotes:“Pleasure is not a luxury—it’s a birthright, and a vital part of healing.”“Shame can’t survive in the presence of compassion and curiosity.”“Embodiment is the process of remembering your body is a safe place to live.”“There is no one ‘right’ way to do relationships—only what’s aligned with your truth.”“The journey isn’t about being perfect at intimacy, it’s about becoming more present to yourself in the process.”sexuality healing, embodied intimacy, relationship coaching, non-monogamy education, pleasure without shame, trauma-informed relationships, healing through pleasure, body-based intimacy work, holistic sex education, reclaiming desire, purity culture recovery, LGBTQIA+ healing, safe intimacy practices, somatic sex therapy, women’s sexuality coach