Washed Up Loser

Starting a new job out of college can be stressful and encompass a whole new amount of responsibility. We have bills to pay on time, 401k to contribute to so we can eventually retire 40+ years down the line, new work responsibilities, and a life to look forward to. But, how different is this lifestyle from the one we have been living these past four years? As I take my first step into the world of the young professional, I am curious to find out what this "real world" is like and if it is any different from the one I have been living for the past 22 years. I am happy to be back too! I've missed you my fellow hopeless romantics! 

We've all been warned, yet we all have likely done it at some point. Dating your best friend can be the most comfortable feeling in the world because you end up being able to share everything with them, but if you end up finding yourself not ready to share everything...well, that's where the heartbreak may settle in. It's tough to admit when you want separate lives because that means ending the relationship, and for the folks out there who don't quite have the skills to stay friends, you end up losing your best friend too. And that sucks. 

For anyone who has been heartbroken, you can understand the confusion I am sitting in right now. It is most certainly a process in healing a broken heart, but the bittersweet serenity you can find in this journey does wonders in understanding yourself. The lingering memories bring tears to my eyes as I long for more moments with him. But, that life, the one we built together, is gone and the only thing I can do to move forward is to accept that we were just not meant to be. 

Come for the Miami stories... stay for the whole life realization and therapy session to make you feel better about not knowing what the f**k to do with your life. Towards the end of the episode, I speak about how hard it is to make any sort of career decision in this day and age which I think is something we should be more open and honest about. Enjoy!

I hate you. I love you. I hate that I want you. To remind me that some people like my face. And also show me all the others living way cooler lives than me. :/ I know I can't be the only one who feels this way about social media, right? 

Join me as I conclude my last assignment of college ever. A daunting thought, but also one that lingers with endless possibilities. I have learned many things in my college career, but the most important thing I can take away from these four years is free thought. I was able to explore myself along with the many classes I took, and I as inched closer to my graduation, I became more willing and able to explore my mind. I wanted to learn about people and understand their nuances which brought me to take a Masculinities class in my last semester of college (this blog taught me that I knew nothing about men). Unfortunately, attending college also opened my eyes to how common sexual violence is and how deep-rooted rape culture is in American society. While I may not have all the answers at this young age of 22, this episode is certainly my jumpstart in attempting to understand sexual violence from a sociological perspective. Please be aware that I discuss very heavy topics and triggering issues about sexual violence, rape, and domestic abuse so please be mindful if those topics are especially triggering. Thank you. 

We put a whole lot of pressure on figuring out our careers and don't act like we have a lifetime to figure it out. So, let me remind you that it is okay if it takes longer to figure out what inspires and drives you because everyone has their own timeline. I just kinda wish my timeline wasn't finishing college so soon... this shit is fun! 

Of course, the ultimate hopeless romantic tries to understand what the journey of love means. Too bad we're all to toxic for this shit anyway. 

Unpopular opinion but I hate Disneyland and it’s all thanks to my high school boyfriend… Hahha just kidding. But, seriously, young love is a dangerous game to play.

Family. Excessive drinking. Going back home. What could even go wrong? Well, I know I'm not the only one who falls short of depression during the holidays so here's to trying to lift ourselves back up and realize we are worthy. Sending lots of love to my lonely hearts and fellow hopeless romantics this year!