Feeling Free.

Home now from Italy. And I've done some Brave things!

Anxiety is my kryptonite! But I also put up a good fight! We need to be kind to ourselves, thats the most important thing anyone could ever learn! 

First relationships are always hard, but when you have an unworldly amount of self loathing and worthlessness it can be even harder. That doesn't just stop at first realtionships either. But we're all worthy of love and we deserve it.

This subject is terrifying for me, talking about being over weight to anyone scares me, although I know people can see, to me its like a kept secret. 

My journey is long and shit. But what I now know is, i'm the only one who can actually help me!

My trauma doesn't define me, but it is apart of me. I need to take care of me now, for so many years I have neglected my own wants and needs for others, because I felt like I wasn't worthy of having anything. I felt like a useless human who didnt really deserve to have a place on this earth. I felt guilty every day and still do. Anytime I put myself first I have a flood of guilt that I cant cope with. But im trying to prioritise me, and thats all I can do. Try. 

This is something ive wanted to do for a while. Ive never been brave enough.  I'm airing out my secrets. Because they shouldn't be a secret. There is no difference between mental health and physical Health.