Chapter 13- Too Much Too Soon

Too much too soon, at the tender age of 7 I was sitting on my living room floor watching a music video by k7 entitled come baby come, If you’ve seen the music video then you’d know that it’s pretty explicit. My young mind was blown, I saw the pretty girl laying on the car bonnet while the guy was licking her bare stomach. I couldn’t explain it! All I know is that while I was watching it, it felt good, but at the same time it felt wrong. It was around this time that I began to see the opposite sex as objects. I didn’t plan for life to take this turn, but no foundation was laid for me in regards to sex, relationships, and the opposite sex, so the bad guys got there first! I was involved in explicit things from way too early, it was too much, too soon. As a child I needed relief, I needed to feel good, girls made me feel good, doing things with girls made me feel good! It’s sad but true, my home life was a mess! I was simply looking for a way out, so I found a way out, it just wasn’t a good one, it was a way out that would land me right back into the pit of pain! This early exposure would mess me up real bad in my later years.