the mind always plotting

[ ep 10 ] if you are feeling on edge or are the type to feel anxiety simmering in the background, I want to talk about it with you. the mind tricks us into thinking that we need to be vigilant and analyze things all the time, and when we try to practice peace and presence, we quickly go back to plotting. why is that? I want to give us reminders we may need to hear and build more understanding around our inner world. you deserve to live this life at ease and every day we can make room for practicing it

[ ep 9 ] come slow down and check in with yourself. I know I am not the only one who can feel like there is an intrinsic void within. I can feel so desperate to fix this emptiness and the inner turbulence that comes from this feeling of deep lack. we search to fill it. to grasp for control in our life or to distract from uncomfortable feelings. today I want to give us all a reminder about this perceived emptiness and the things we search for to make ourselves feel whole. I also think we search for a medium to release unwanted emotions, whether we do it intentionally or not. I want to bring more awareness to ourselves because we are deserving of peace and flow in our livesI send loving energy right to you. Know that you are protected and guided xx

[ ep 8 ] this one is for the chronically lonely people – like me! friends…this one is confessional… and conversational. if you want to feel like a friend is opening up to you about something real…here it is. typically I never like to spread negativity via “complaining", but it’s for the sake of people needing to feel understood if they’re experiencing something similar (also for the sake of analyzing the human condition as usual, right).do you feel socially frustrated? like you want to have meaningful conversations and connections with people but find it difficult?finding social fulfilment in the modern world can be a struggle. today, we’re gonna break down some of the reasons why. a few examples: people being ingenuine with curated personas, having selfish motives, or being emotionally reactive. feeling the pressure to be entertaining enough to keep someone's attention, the pressure of conforming in order to social signalno wonder we feel like the world is lacking light or why we feel lonely. we are craving authentic relationships and to be honest, a lot of my interactions with people leave me feeling a bit empty.I think another reason why we feel so lonely is because current reality is far from what our brains are socially used to like living on the land and in small communities. let me tell you why I crave that just about every dayI hope you enjoy it :)

[ ep 7 ] HIII FRIEND. okay, I'm tired of operating with an excited nervous system every day and I'm on a journey of rewiring my brain. as an adult, it's challenging to change unwanted patterns that we picked up as children, because humans are very good at repeating their neurological patterns. we must challenge limiting beliefs like "I just have anxiety". we must believe that we can transcend this…and we most definitely can.let's be real with ourselves. if we know what is good for us why aren't we doing it?! and let's ponder the question...how do we actually change ourselves for the better?and FINALLY, I wanna discuss what is on the other side of living in fight or flight. to tap into our natural mode of being. in a state of connection to the self and spirit. to be fully present and at peace and to allow creative flow. to let our minds be a tool to help us instead of hurting us.this episode is a bit different because we are going in with no notes, just the dome.

[ ep 6 ] I used to write “good job” lists to myself when I was in a dark period of my life…getting out of bed, making a healthy meal, helping another person even when I was unsure I had enough energy for myself, having a moment of positivity even when it was difficult, and so on. I don’t do them nearly as often and find that I’ve been overlooking the small things I do everyday. for one, acknowledging the small makes you aware of how far you have come…doing things without hesitation when they would have taken a great deal of effort before. we also can be focused on lack – the disappointment for not getting to the things we “should have” that day. give yourself the credit and acknowledge all that you do in a day, yes the more obvious, but reflect on even the small!!! we will find that we are doing much more than we think whether it be in our internal or external world. we can be so focused on progressing to a greater version of ourselves or our lives that we lose perspective. appreciate how far you have come and the blessing of being where you are right now. comparison to a more ideal life or self deters us from seeing how good we actually have it.

[ ep 5 ] when facing obstacles, it is helpful to find ways to better yourself for the sake of establishing more inner peace. but, efforts for constant self-improvement can become counterintuitive if we never let ourselves have peace in where we are. today we’ll be discussing our need to allow ourselves to simply BE – to exist just as we are and to release all agendas and be immersed in the wonderful world of the present. we are taking rest from productivity within the self but ALSO from our outer world. the pressure we put on ourselves to be productive is the exact thing preventing us from being in a flow state of creation. this practice of “just being” is intentional time we set aside but can be applied in all moments through the art of not rushing. let's get into it :)I love you very much, you beautiful creature

[ ep 4 ] come here. we’re going to group therapy. today I’ll be sharing a particular life struggle and sowing seeds of positivity and growth. I share vulnerable moments so you don’t have to feel alone if you’re experiencing similar times.the other week I had dealt with an utterly overwhelming situation in a better way than I ever had. I'm experiencing utter burn out from being someone’s emotional crutch for far too long. Compared to before, I would have drowned in the emotion and gone to a dark place. I’m going to walk you through my exact process that allowed me to properly process these emotions without supressing nor letting them overrun me. this process included creating space between me and the emotion, intention setting and connecting to the light and love around us. this ultimately allowed me to go to bed in a relative state of peace.more topics include:- worry being your minds attempt to help you but recognizing when it’s counterintuitive.- creating a positive and larger perspective on a situation we see as “negative” in the moment- stillness being the answer- improvement not being linear- being there for ourselves even when it is uncomfortable and not choosing the easy way out - letting go of the need to learn and absorb information, and knowing that we are already equipped to practice or enact the tools we haveI’m here to give you the reminders to support yourself but also to challenge you to discover more strength and wisdom within you[I never mentioned..but to clarify possible concerns, all of my sister's symptoms are a product of panic and extreme anxiety]

[ ep 3 ] I’ve been having invasive social anxiety at work worrying about other people having negative thoughts of me. these consistent worries have been draining me of my energy and I am aware how unnecessary it is. so I have been asking myself…WHY? why do I care so much? how can I stop this? a dream came to answer my question. it took me down a path of looking further into the ego and the way we relate to it and how we must change our relationship with ego to truly be free from caring about other’s thoughts and free as a whole

[ ep 2 ] if you're feeling overwhelmed in thought and emotion right now, you're not alone. today I am sharing the 2 ways I've been rewiring my mind to create emotional resilience and increasing quality of life. if you don't know how to help yourself right now, I think this is a good starting point because they can be applied at any time.let's discuss our ability to challenge negative thoughts, disidentifying with emotion, and creating greater awareness of our mind's patterns.

[ ep 1 ] come for a chat with gentle reminders. today we are talking about getting back into our creative work without so much pressure on ourselves, following nature's flow and the abundant lessons to be gained from observing nature. yes, maybe this was recorded as winter was beginning but it still applies okay !(remember, the only thing that matters is this moment here right now. you're doing a great job. take a deep breath and just be right here. you are exactly where you need to be. if we can have peace in the present then we have everything we need.)