The Boy in the Field

People use your time without valuing it, and today I’m talking about that. 

Some people talk like they’ve lived a thousand lives… but when you look closer, none of it is real. This episode breaks down the Unlived Mentor..the person who gives advice they’ve never practiced, repeats wisdom they’ve never earned, and tries to guide your life because they can’t get control of their own. I share the moment I realized someone in my world was performing growth instead of living it, and how that realization forced me to choose alignment over attachment. If you’ve ever taken advice from someone who wasn’t living what they preached, this one will hit home.

This episode goes straight at the one thing most believers avoid: confronting their own patterns. Not other people.Not situations.Not disrespect.The patterns inside you that keep you stuck, comfortable, predictable, and unchanged.I break down why staying the same is more dangerous than anything you’re afraid to face, why God won’t change what you keep excusing, and how your old habits try to show up in moments your new self is supposed to handle.This episode is real, direct, and uncomfortable in the best way.If you’ve been praying for change but protecting the same patterns, this one is going to hit you hard.Growth requires confrontation.Comfort keeps you stuck.

Nobody believed her until it was too late.

The Black Tapes is where faith meets real life and real darkness. This podcast confronts the patterns you avoid, the habits you protect, and the excuses you hide behind. It also dives into true crime, real stories, and the human moments people pretend don’t exist.I don’t sanitize the world.I don’t separate faith from reality.I don’t avoid the uncomfortable.If it’s real, I talk about it.If it’s dark, I shine a light on it.If it’s messy, I confront it.This intro sets the tone for everything that follows. Raw truth. Real stories. Spiritual weight. Honesty most people run from.

Jesus Wasn't Soft cuts straight through the fake, polished version of Jesus people like to push. This episode breaks down the real Christ the one who confronted hypocrisy, corrected His own disciples, flipped tables, and refused to let disrespect slide.This isn’t a soft message.This isn’t a quiet episode.This is a call for believers to stop hiding behind silence, stop pretending to be perfect, and stop confusing passivity with holiness.I talk about real life, real moments, real correction, and why strength is just as spiritual as gentleness.If you’ve ever felt pressured to “stay quiet” or “let it go” just to look holy, this tape is going to hit you right where you’ve been shrinking.Jesus wasn’t soft.And real believers can’t be either.

In this episode of The Black Tapes, Horace speaks directly about something we all deal with but rarely admit: worry. Not the fake “everything will be fine” talk, but the real kind that keeps you up at night, sits heavy on your chest, and grows when you try to ignore it.Horace shares how years of silent worrying, grief, depression, and self‑neglect pushed him to a breaking point. After losing his mother and child, he stopped caring for himself and carried the weight of everyone else’s problems. One moment of honesty changed everything. Through discipline, self‑reflection, and a refusal to keep lying to himself, he lost over 100 pounds and reclaimed his life mentally and physically.This episode explores the truth that the real battle is in your mind, and you cannot win it until you confront the enemy inside yourself. Horace talks about rejecting titles, cutting off dead weight, and standing out as a black sheep in a world full of fakes, false prophets, and people who hide behind religion instead of living in truth.Worry With Purpose is a raw and unfiltered reminder that worry is not your enemy. Staying silent is. When you face your problems head‑on, you take back your power.

A boy disappears in a quiet town, and the truth hiding in the field changes everything...

Growing up, we learned how to work hard, not how to make our money work for us. This episode breaks down HYSAs in plain English and shows how easy it is to start saving smarter.

In this tape, I open up about one of the hardest seasons of my life — a season marked by loss, confusion, and heartbreak. I share the story of my daughter Aya, the challenges my wife and I faced during her high‑risk pregnancy, the chaos of her early birth, and the pain of losing her shortly after bringing her home. I talk about the anger, the numbness, the questions I had for God, and the moments when I felt completely alone.But even in the middle of all that pain, God was calling me. Calling me to speak. Calling me to heal. Calling me to share a story I never wanted to tell, because someone else might need it.This tape is for anyone walking through grief, heartbreak, or a season that doesn’t make sense. It’s a reminder that God is close to the brokenhearted, that He meets us in the mess, and that even when life breaks you, He still holds you.