Things Fall Apart: The Wisdom of Collapse, Grief Magic, and the 9 of Swords

What if crashing out is exactly what your soul needs to transform?In this episode of Moonbeaming, Sarah Faith Gottesdiener explores the Nine of Swords, one of the tarot’s most intense cards of collapse, grief, shadow work, and transformation. If you’re navigating grief, facing an identity shift, or feeling like you’ve hit rock bottom, this conversation will help you reframe what it means to be in the “crash out” moment.In this episode you’ll learn:Why grief and collapse can be portals to spiritual growthHow the Nine of Swords reveals what is no longer sustainableWhy identity dissolves in the wake of trauma healing—and what comes afterHow to work with ego death, shame, and shadow during rock bottomThe collective and personal implications of unprocessed griefThis episode is a compassionate guide for anyone moving through crisis, deep grief, or major life change — offering permission to pause, process, and allow transformation to unfold.To Note: If you are struggling with suicidal thoughts or feel unsafe, please know you are not alone and there is support available.United States: Call or text the National Suicide & Crisis Lifeline at 988 for free, confidential support, 24/7.Canada: Call Talk Suicide Canada at 1-833-456-4566 or text 45645, available 24/7.Domestic Violence (U.S. & Canada): If you are experiencing domestic violence, you can reach out to the National Domestic Violence Hotline at 1-800-799-7233 (SAFE) or chat online at thehotline.org. In Canada, you can also contact the Assaulted Women’s Helpline at 1-866-863-0511 or text 1-866-863-7868.Moon Studio workshop reminder:June 29th: The Constellation of the 9's: The Hermit, The Moon, & the 9's: https://moon-studio.co/products/the-constellation-of-the-9s-the-hermit-the-moon-the-9sJoin the Moon Studio community:Join the Moon Studio Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/themoonstudioBuy the 2025 Many Moons Lunar Planner: https://moon-studio.co/collections/all-products-excluding-route/products/many-moons-2025Subscribe to our newsletter: https://moon-studio.co/pages/newsletterFind Sarah on Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/gottesss/

Do you need to return to yourself, your joy, your desires, and what really matters?Well, you’re in luck, because the Solstice, which arrives this week, is the perfect time for a reset!In this very special episode of Moonbeaming, Sarah Faith Gottesdiener offers a powerful tarot reading for the collective and reflects on the energy of summer—a time of renewal, eroticism, and heart-led living.In this episode you’ll learn:Why the solstice is a potent time for reflection, recommitment, and transformationWhat a “full circle moment” might be trying to show youWhy trusting your timing is the ultimate power moveHow to gently end cycles of isolation and perfectionism, and open up to connectionHow to use tarot archetypes as seasonal anchors for real-life growth and changeThis episode will guide you how to use this midpoint of the year to reassess our priorities and gently pivot towards what truly matters.Moon Studio workshop reminder:June 29th: The Constellation of the 9's: The Hermit, The Moon, & the 9's: https://moon-studio.co/products/the-constellation-of-the-9s-the-hermit-the-moon-the-9sJoin the Moon Studio community:Join the Moon Studio Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/themoonstudioBuy the 2025 Many Moons Lunar Planner: https://moon-studio.co/collections/all-products-excluding-route/products/many-moons-2025Subscribe to our newsletter: https://moon-studio.co/pages/newsletterFind Sarah on Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/gottesss/

What does it mean to treat birth as a portal: one of transformation, intuition, and magic?This week on Moonbeaming, Sarah Faith Gottesdiener is joined by Natasha June, a doula, herbalist, and longtime member of the Moon Studio community, for a conversation about preparing for birth and all of its emotional, spiritual, and intuitive dimensions.In this episode you’ll learn:Why birth is a transformational portal—even for those who don’t give birthHow to cultivate and trust your intuition during pregnancy and parenthoodThe emotional and spiritual layers of preparing for birthWhat doulas really do (and why their support matters)The importance of informed care and advocacy, especially for BIPOC birthing peopleNatasha June is a Los Angeles–based Certified Full Spectrum Doula, Vaginal Steam Facilitator, Herbalist, and Placenta Specialist. She found her way to birth work after becoming a mother herself. Natasha works in both private practice and through the AAIMM Doula program, supporting birthing people across Los Angeles County. Her work focuses on reproductive justice, informed care, and the need for strong support before, during, and after birth—especially in response to the disparities that impact BIPOC and Black maternal health. She believes our perinatal care system must evolve to fully honor the mind, body, and spirit of those bringing new life into the world.Moon Studio workshop reminder:June 29th: The Constellation of the 9's: The Hermit, The Moon, & the 9's: https://moon-studio.co/products/the-constellation-of-the-9s-the-hermit-the-moon-the-9sJoin the Moon Studio community:Join the Moon Studio Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/themoonstudioBuy the 2025 Many Moons Lunar Planner: https://moon-studio.co/collections/all-products-excluding-route/products/many-moons-2025Subscribe to our newsletter: https://moon-studio.co/pages/newsletterFind Sarah on Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/gottesss/ Learn more about Natasha June:https://www.rarebreedhealer.com/IG: @[email protected] Book mentioned in this episode:The Fourth Trimester by Kimberly Ann Johnson — kimberlyannjohnson.com/the-fourth-trimester

What if the thing you’ve been wishing for is already on its way—would you know how to receive it?In this episode of Moonbeaming, Sarah Faith Gottesdiener explores the deep, emotional layers of the Nine of Cups—known in Tarot as the wish card. But this isn’t just about getting what you want. It’s about learning how to receive what you want, how to trust that you're worthy, and how to hold joy even when it feels unfamiliar.In this episode you’ll learn:The real Nine of Cups tarot meaning (beyond surface-level interpretations)Why the wish card might show up during moments of doubtHow to build self-worth through daily spiritual practiceWhat it means to receive without guilt or self-sabotageTools to deepen your intuitive guidance and emotional resilienceThis episode is an invitation to open your heart to the good that’s already trying to reach you. Moon Studio workshop reminder:June 29th: The Constellation of the 9's: The Hermit, The Moon, & the 9's Join our community:Join the Moon Studio Patreon.Buy the 2025 Many Moons Lunar Planner.Subscribe to our newsletter.Find Sarah on Instagram.

Why is it so hard to feel safe even when you’re no longer in danger? In this episode of Moonbeaming, Sarah Faith Gottesdiener speaks with somatic healer Ifé Mora about the Nine of Wands archetype and what it means to live in a body that’s been shaped by stress, trauma, and survival. They explore:The biology of burnoutThe impact of chronic stress on the nevous systemHow to heal through presence, education, and somatic practiceAnd powerful tools for regulating the nervous system.This is an episode for anyone feeling worn out, stuck in survival mode, or ready to rebuild.More on our guest:Ifé Mora is a Somatic Experiencing Practitioner, Spiritual Buddhist teacher, and trauma-informed educator, as well as the founder of One Soma LLC, a healing organization focused on trauma education and social justice. She specializes in helping individuals resolve trauma, regulate their nervous systems, and build resilience through embodied, mind-body-spirit practices. Her work draws on Somatic Experiencing and neurobiological tools to foster deep healing and holistic well-being. Rooted in spiritual traditions, Ifé integrates personal development with trauma healing to support lasting transformation. She believes that trauma-informed education can help create a more just and compassionate society. Her mission is to help people reconnect with their authentic selves and unlock the body’s natural ability to heal.Connect with Ifé:WebsiteInstagram--- Moon Studio workshop reminder:June 29th: The Constellation of the 9's: The Hermit, The Moon, & the 9's---Join the Moon Studio community:Join the Moon Studio Patreon.Buy the 2025 Many Moons Lunar Planner.Subscribe to our newsletter.Find Sarah on Instagram.

Do you feel emotionally drained? Are you just trying to make it through the week without falling apart? You might be in a Nine of Wands moment.In this fiery deep dive Tarot episode, Sarah Faith Gottesdiener dives deep into the Nine of Wands archetype—unpacking its teachings through the lenses of trauma, nervous system rewiring, burnout, creative resilience, and sacred rage. She breaks down the difference between boundaries and ego armor, why burnout isn’t failure, and what it means to face the “crisis of success.”In this episode you’ll learn:What the Nine of Wands is asking you to examine in your lifeHow to tell the difference between anger that empowers you versus anger that exhausts youWhat we can learn from burnoutWhat it means to spiritually compost your rageWhy boundaries, ego healing, and vulnerability are all Nine of Wands medicineThis episode is a love letter to anyone who’s tired—but still trying. It’s for creatives, business owners, survivors, and sensitive souls navigating a brutally beautiful world. You’re not alone. You’re not broken. And you’re definitely not done.--- Moon Studio workshop reminder: June 29th - Upcoming Workshop: The Constellation of the 9's: The Hermit, The Moon, & the 9's--- Join our community: Join the Moon Studio Patreon.Buy the 2025 Many Moons Lunar Planner.Subscribe to our newsletter.Find Sarah on Instagram.

This week, we've got another relationship episode, complete with the support of Tarot and some spiritual maxims. We are here to remember that relationships are sacred, and sometimes, staying sacred means making hard choices. Sarah tackles questions from the Moon Studio Patreon about:How to handle friend break-ups ethically What to do when you are poly but want to have good spiritual hygiene but want loveFeeling like your spiritual growth and your romantic relationships are in oppositionSarah ends this episode in a Tarot reading, see what cards come up around spiritual growth and relationships! Take $9 off Our Hermit Year Workshop with code PODGIFT until May 31. MOON STUDIO WORKSHOP LINKSOur Hermit Year.The Highly Sensitive In RelationshipMystic Vision Workshop.Future Self Workshop.Join the Moon Studio Patreon.Buy the 2025 Many Moons Lunar Planner.Subscribe to our newsletter.Find Sarah on Instagram.

Want more depth from your relationships? Feeling lonely and aren't sure what to do about it? You aren't alone, beloved. In a very special episode, we are very excited to welcome author, professor, and organizer Dean Spade! Dean breaks down why he felt called to write his latest amazing book, Love in a F*cked Up World: How To Build Relationships, Hook Up, and Raise Hell Together. This episode explores:Why we are conflict avoidant, and why it's not your faultHow to build deeper relationshipsSimple ways to check yourself How honesty can strengthen all your relationships, including the one with yourself This is an episode you will take notes from, listen to numerous times, and forward to friends. Dean Spade Bio: Dean Spade has been working to build queer and trans liberation based in racial and economic justice for the past two decades. He is a professor at the Seattle University School of Law. He has written 3 books, his latest is Love In A F*cked-Up World. Find Dean here and here. Links mentioned: Creative Conflict Mariame Kabatransformharm.orgTake $9 off Our Hermit Year Workshop with code PODGIFT until May 31. MOON STUDIO WORKSHOP LINKSOur Hermit Year.The Highly Sensitive In RelationshipMystic Vision Workshop.Future Self Workshop.Join the Moon Studio Patreon.Buy the 2025 Many Moons Lunar Planner.Subscribe to our newsletter.Find Sarah on Instagram.

In part 4 of our deep dive into the nuances of the Hermit archetype, Sarah Faith Gottesdiener and some members of our Moon Studio community—our Patrons!—join in on an expansive, intimate exploration around what living the Hermit archetype has given them, so far this year. Tune in to be delighted, affirmed, and expanded by open and intimate shares from our patrons! Take $9 off Our Hermit Year Workshop with code PODGIFT until May 31. MOON STUDIO WORKSHOP LINKSOur Hermit Year.The Highly Sensitive In RelationshipMystic Vision Workshop.Future Self Workshop.Join the Moon Studio Patreon.Buy the 2025 Many Moons Lunar Planner.Subscribe to our newsletter.Find Sarah on Instagram.

In part 3 of our deep dive into the nuances of the Hermit archetype, Sarah Faith Gottesdiener explores some of the challenges that come with being an intuitive, mystical, sensitive person wanting to have healthy relationships of all kinds. In this episode, Sarah discusses the different challenges intuitives and sensitives face trying to find right-fit relationships in a numbed out, often cruel world. Plus, we have the delightful author of Love in Fucked Up World, Dean Spade, on the show to answer listener questions! Tune in to learn about: Why you got so exhausted masking and why it is better to unmask Why you attract people who don't understand youHow to know if you are ending past life contracts with othersWhat soul friends are and why it's so important to look for them How to find new, healthy, intimate relationships The questions Dean and I answer are these: Can someone who is committed to spirituality and growth be friends with folks who have no interest in personal growth and change? How to know when a friendship has run its course, or when it is white supremacy influenced disposability? What to do when beloveds have very different political beliefs as you—to stay or to go? If you want to feel affirmed and less lonely, tune in for today's episode! Take $9 off Our Hermit Year Workshop with code PODGIFT until May 31. MOON STUDIO WORKSHOP LINKSOur Hermit Year.The Highly Sensitive In RelationshipMystic Vision Workshop.Future Self Workshop.Join the Moon Studio Patreon.Buy the 2025 Many Moons Lunar Planner.Subscribe to our newsletter.Find Sarah on Instagram.