Why a meditation retreat gave me an existential crisis

and so you know what they say... it's all about the journey xx on today's episode: why life is a constant balancing act and why we'll never really feel like we "made it" - so might as well enjoy the ride, with all its ups and downs, knowing that this is exactly what the fabric of life is made of || for updates, questions and eveything else, follow @heartfeltpod on instagram ୨୧

but i do it nonetheless... a life update, what's been on my mind and where do i find myself these days || for updates, questions and eveything else, follow @heartfeltpod on instagram ୨୧

i could start by saying "i've always been a sensitive child..." but that wouldn't hold entirely true. my soft interior has long been overshadowed by my unwavering ambition and short temper. however, some soul-searching allowed my sensitive self to emerge - and i'm afraid she's here to stay. this episode dissects all aspects of heightened sensitivity: the good, the bad, and the teary-eyed; from overthinking to socialization & navigating life in a world with a very tough exterior.

having lived in the iconic british capital for three years, i observed its evolution, from a lockdown-struck city to one with steeply rising gas bills and a famously unforgiving flat-hunting market. despite the harsh nature of metropolia, i did my best to make myself feel at home. yet, as time went by, i saw myself falling out of love with london bit by bit, until little affection remained. in this episode i weigh the pros and cons of living in the city, ultimately concluding that it might just not be the city for me...and that's okay :) || for updates, questions and eveything else, follow @heartfeltpod on instagram ୨୧

often said in a casual manner, the good old saying reveals some undeniable truth about how we perceive our lives: always lacking something and never as great as we would hope it to be. we fall into the false narrative of believing that everyone else has it better than us. we come up with a long list of "if only"s that stand in the way of our happiness. well, i hate to break it to you but the grass will always SEEM greener on the other side. so, instead of turning our heads around, let's get to the bottom of things and see how you can start appreciating all that you already have | for updates, questions and eveything else, follow @heartfeltpod on instagram ୨୧

a well-rounded debate around the topics related to jobs & one's professional path. answering your questions on choosing what you want to do, pursuing a masters degree, and defying societal expectations. making a case for why you don't need to be passionate about your job (but an interest in it is necessary), nor change lives while doing it (but also, don't work for the likes of shein) | for updates, questions and eveything else, follow @heartfeltpod on instagram ୨୧

you've heard right! taking a break from discussing Important Matters of the Heart & Soul to casually chat about my recent obsessions: from sourdough and pilates to youtubers and great reads...because life has been feeling too goddamn serious these days x

inspired by a recent read of oliver burkman's "4000 weeks" i ponder about the concept of wasting time, what it tells about our relationship with time and how to make peace with the fact that we are bound to miss out on the majority of experiences that life has to offer | for updates, questions and eveything else, follow @heartfeltpod on instagram ୨୧

here's a bitter pill to swallow: when you decide to stop, everyone else keeps on moving. it's just one of those episodes where I had to get things off my chest. being in-between things, having to "wait around" with too much time to think & realising how impermanent EVERY stage of your life is (though transitional periods like to play time tricks, making you believe they're gonna last forever). it's certainly not my most cheerful one but I would not dare to leave you without some words of comfort & a piece (or two) of unsolicited advice! || for updates, questions and eveything else, follow @heartfeltpod on instagram ୨୧

the title does the episode justice so... i'm just gonna leave it be | for updates, questions and eveything else, follow @heartfeltpod on instagram ୨୧