Retracing

3/3/2011 Some loves are like  summer storms, it arrived without warning, and leaves behind memories that never last Other loves are also like tornadoes, it can shred through your heart and leave pains that never goes away but my love is like a winter sun or the summer breeze, it appears when I need them the most, and their existence warm up my world and cool down my anger, My love is the best love that a boy can have. My love is simple and sweet and is the only thing that I need.

11/16/2019 All these clutters in my mind, Blocking the path I'm trying to find. Like stuck in quicksand with each step, Truly lost in a life I cannot comprehend. Trying to let the smiles carry away the pain, Letting the laughter flush it down the drain. I'm going to walk tall toward the destination, And let my heart roam free with imagination.

2/3/2018 The fluttering of butterflies in my stomach, and the slow burning sensation appearing on my face. Accompany by a sudden loss of breath and the lumps in my chest. The moment I saw her beautiful smile, I knew she is the one. Looking at those hazel black hair, with a richness never seen before. The dimples on her cheek, and the mischievous light in her eyes. The innocence of our joy, and the youth of our time.   When she looked over at me, my heart melted so many thousand times. One day I finally had the courage, to tell her how I truly felt. The loving look in her eyes, is the only the answer I need. Those words she told me  were sweeter than the tastiest treat. As I finally held the hand of my only love, I knew there is no one luckier than me.

9/3/2018 Who is this girl that shine so bright, Bringing emotions that has disappeared long ago? Those moments we shared were truly unforgettable, Your touch and gaze left me in a daze. It’s been many years since I felt this way, How is it possible for you to reignite my light? The times we shared were way to short, You left before I can know you more. Now that I have met you in my dream, ​ I can’t wait to find you in this world.

12/28/2018 ​Just like Christmas without Snow, My life can never be perfect without you. Watching the crystals falling from the sky, I miss the moments I spent with you. I was never the same, Ever since the day we first met. A moment so magical, I could never ever forget. All I could think about since, Was spending another second with you. The sweetness of the touch, Your beauty so pure. My heart was stolen by you, But I never want it back. I am grateful for all the memories, ​Even if its just a midnight dream.

1/12/2020 I would love to hold your hand as we gaze at the stars, Lying by your side as we count down to forever. Feeling the moments slowly passing by, Holding on to the magic flowing between us. I would love to hold your hands as we feel the seasons. Seeing the world as it age year by year. Smiling sheepishly as I look into yours eyes, Grateful to spend my time on earth with you. I would love to hold your hands as I spend eternity with you, Counting each seconds as the clock ticks by. Cherishing the time we have created for two, Lost in the beauty we see in the love we share. I would love to hold your hands, But it's not yet possible. Maybe one day when the time is right, When the stars are bright, I would find you in my world, And finally hold your hands.

5/10/2020 I travelled the world and searched among the stars, ​looking for the one I would love with all my heart. After all these years of seeking, I finally have you here by my side. Now I look forward to travelling the world with you, searching the stars with you, laughing, crying, and smiling with you. I look forward to loving you, and spending my life with you.

2/25/2021 I just can't get you out of my mind, No matter how hard I seem to try. There are moments I wish I can turn back time, Before the days I could call you mine. But I know if I could turn back time, I would still choose to love you, To cherish you And spend forever with you. I know if I could turn back time, I will work to make everything right, To avoid the mistakes that I made, To not say those hurtful words I said. I know if I could turn back time, I will wait longer for you, To give you the time to heal, To support you more from near and far. I know if I could turn back time, I will travel further back. Back before those time you got hurt, To take away those pain and grief. I know if I could turn back time, I will remove the obstacles between us. Regardless of what is ideal or not, I will make them right again. I know if I could travel in time, Maybe this time I won't make you mine. If my presence cause you strife, I will step away from your life. I know if I can travel back in time, I will always love you. I will still do what I can, To make you the happiest person ever. I know I can't travel in time, To fix those mistakes I made. All I can hope for is a second chance, A chance to make amend. This time I won't travel back in time, But I will choose to wait. To grow, to be better, so when the time comes again, We can both be grateful that we don't need to travel back in time.

2/26/2021 I listened to the wind, I searched among the stars. Looking for the answer, That can take me back to your heart. I cling desperately to what remains, Not wanting to lose this magic again. I finally found you after all this time, I don't want to lose you again in this life. Praying for a miracle to change this fate, I clung desperately to what remains,

3/7/2021 As I began retracing the path of my past, It's surprising how long memories truly last. I still remember those kisses I stole in the dark, Reminiscing the laughter we shared in the park. Those places we visited together, The promises we made to each other. As those memories slowly turns into years, It now also brings me so much tears. As the promises we made remains unkept, The pain and bitterness makes me wept. I am now no longer young as I once was, No longer the one to hold your hand on the bus. The sourness of life taste bitter like lime, It will forever haunt me until the end of time.