Being Present: Why It Doesn't Work

This is a unstructured and unedited episode.I discuss my cultural upbringing and why feminism mattered to me growing up. How moving to the east coast interacting with rich "feminists", a create your own feminism took over and how basically the women with a mega phone are serving only themselves rather feminism no how they frame it.

Hello Listeners, I am doing a series called "Diary of Downward Mobility" this is unstructured personal and confessional stories about my experience with growing up experiencing downward mobility from South Bend, Indiana as an Xiennal. The stories hurt too much to write so talking them out is the best I can do. Leave comments and let me know how or if this format works. Not posting to Youtube because I don't want to deal with censoring topics or words.

In this episode, I explore the connection between parental alienation and the political climate we’re all drowning in.Growing up between two hostile parents taught me the nervous system of a divided nation long before cable news existed. Loyalty tests, narrative control, manufactured fear — these weren’t political concepts. They were my childhood.Now, I see the same dynamics everywhere: in media, in activism, in friendships, in the gym with two TVs playing two different realities.This is a video-essay about political homelessness, emotional survival, and what happens when a country becomes a child of divorce.Topics include:• emotional manipulation in families and politics• how media mirrors abusive parenting tactics• the nervous system of a divided nation• why outrage culture destroys trust• what “quiet connection” offers instead• how to heal the internal wound of alienationIf you grew up with parental alienation — or if our politics feel like one giant custody battle — this episode is for you.

What happens when the comedies that once made us laugh now make us ache? In this essay, I revisit National Lampoon’s Christmas Vacation and Planes, Trains and Automobiles — two holiday classics that once celebrated middle-class comfort — and see something different. The decline of stability, the disappearance of family gatherings, and the quiet heartbreak of realizing that Cousin Eddie was never really the joke.

"My life was built on someone else’s loss, and nobody would let me talk about it." - from "The Girls That Went Away" In this episode, host Katie Madonna Lee explores the haunting history of baby scoop era homes for unwed mothers—and how their echoes linger today.Through Witchcraft for Wayward Girls by Grady Hendrix and The Girls That Went Away by Anne Flesser, Katie examines how shame, secrecy, and control shaped generations of women—and how those same forces still shape our culture’s view of motherhood, morality, and choice.

Cillian Murphy gives a breathtaking and heartbreaking performance in Small Things Like These, watch next https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SScFWkkxAig V I D E O S T O W A T C H N E X T : Limerence & The Parasocial Relationship: A personal video essay: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jwdnPrFxYPM Sinead O'Connor: Joan of Arc as a Pop Star: A Video Essay, https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SScFWkkxAig Irish Catholic - Feature Film Movie Trailer •. https://youtu.be/R-_rRfmP2Wk?si=2W_zhXp-nUJohx2S 👉 Watch the crusty punk feature film, "Irish Catholic" full movie https://youtu.be/YrEobhdZXyQ?si=icrKDr4mzaGDpegn 👉 Listen to "Confess Yourself Podcast" on Spotify https://open.spotify.com/show/2leLL8ssPFB5UIGbEdd5zd?si=8e53a0805b2b42e6

When life is hard, staying present may not be sage advice. In fact in my experience, being present during life's worst moments has not helped me. Has being presented helped you? Let me know in the comments!

Contains spoliers for the film "Lee" It's not just what you leave behind; it's who you leave it with Why do we know who Vincent Van Gogh is since he never sold a painting? Lee Miller hid her legacy in boxes and was not famous until her son archived her work for the public. On this episode, I discuss how lucky both Van Gogh and Miller were. Leaving their artwork in the hands of people who would care and cultivate a public image. There are spoilers for the movie "Lee" starring Kate Winslet.

CONTAINS SPOILERS: The Substance is a must-see body horror film starring Demi Moore. The film will make you laugh and scream! Think the darkest depths of "Death Becomes Her" to exist!