S2 Episode 18 - Making sense of my pervasive drive for autonomy (PDA)

In this episode, I share what I have learned about the links between AuDHD and Personality Disorder and ask questions based on experiences from my own life.

In this episode I share some sense I am making about the nature of emotional dysfunction in my family, and particularly how this impacted my relationships with my parents.

In this episode, I talk about the pitfalls and benefits of being an autistic leader, based on my own experiences.

In this episode I talk about my body as a source of expression, awe, distress and pleasure. 

Today I share a lot more about how I experience PDA as an adult, what triggers it and how I am learning to manage it day to day.

I share the story of why I didn't have children, even though I always thought I would.

I share key aspects of different types of policy roles and organisations, and some potential pros and cons of this type of work, from an autistic perspective.

In this episode I talk about the concept of the mother wound, and share some realisations about what is needed for healing.

In this episode I share why I believe my most confusing and destructive experiences and behaviours as an undiagnosed autistic child and adult can be explained by internalised PDA (pathological demand avoidance / pervasive drive for autonomy).

This week I talk about how complicated it was seeking an assessment for autism as an adult, why I did it and why it took so long to find what I was looking for.