behind the scenes on only f@nz

This is a free preview of a paid episode. To hear more, visit jessiecave.substack.comI am going to be doing weekly “behind the scenes on only fans” videos, with a bit of writing too. Here’s my first one. Much love xxxDAY 570It can’t be that many days?I’ve checked only fans and posted on only fans for 570 days straight?How?I am genuinely staggered that I’ve lasted this long on the platform that is largely known for porn. I have calmed down in the last few months as I’ve come to accept that my subscribers will come and go - and they sometimes come back again repeatedly after unsubscribing, which is always flattering AND detrimental to my mental health :)

The kids are back at school and I got a period. It's been a big week. This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit jessiecave.substack.com/subscribe

in this one i talk about my 3yo's attachment to Lego figurines, so much so he has to fall asleep clutching one, going to see The Witches, my online jealousy and desire to be a bodybuilder xxx This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit jessiecave.substack.com/subscribe

I'm back. In this episode I talk about trying to stop breastfeeding my tiny 21 month old and dealing with my sleep apnea. This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit jessiecave.substack.com/subscribe

In this one I talk about my spontaneous social media detox, my toddler’s displacement addiction of milk from squash. This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit jessiecave.substack.com/subscribe

In this one I talk about some loud parenting in the playground (again), the end of the summer holidays and my anxieties about balancing breastfeeding and work  This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit jessiecave.substack.com/subscribe

In this one I talk about some unfortunate epiphany's I've had about my personality; my fears that the kids will inevitably be influenced by other kids/sugar/technology, our family trip to Edinburgh festival and my toddlers new "hobby" of BITING EVERYONE AND EVERYTHING.  This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit jessiecave.substack.com/subscribe

In this one I talk about the serious issue of my toddler's addiction to kitchen utensils and Peppa Pig, my 7yo's addiction to Minecraft and my lack of disciplinarian skills as a mother.  This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit jessiecave.substack.com/subscribe

In this episode I talk about a spontaneous Edinburgh trip to see Alfie because the baby (I) missed him too much, how having a baby impacts a relationship, Edinburgh festival nostalgia, and most importantly a EBF CONSTIPATION UPDATE.... thanks to everyone who sent me wonderful advice on Instagram on how to get things going!  This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit jessiecave.substack.com/subscribe

In this one I talk about how our holidays are going with various summer camps... I continue to battle sleep deprivation and wonder if it's time to stop EBF'ing my giant baby. it's world breastfeeding week so I TALKED A LOT ABOUT BREASTFEEDING!   This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit jessiecave.substack.com/subscribe