Collective Solitude

Hey everyone! It has been a while (I know). I've missed you all. First of, sorry for leaving you hanging. A lot has been going on, and I explain just what in this episode. I talk about how I’ve been feeling in the last few months, and how it has helped me to view loneliness and sadness in a refreshing light. Collective solitude is the idea that we are all alone in this life thing together, a weird source of solace. Again, I hope you see bits and pieces of yourself in my experiences. May this show help you heal, know and love yourself better. Song credits:Intro -  Hautani by Clef JonesOutro - Wreckcollect Kaiyel

I used to think the worst moments of my life were the ones I needed to forget. I was wrong.In this episode, I go back to some of the memories I'd rather not revisit: being snubbed for an award I wanted badly, failing so publicly at something I loved that I nearly quit it for good. I talk about why those moments still sit with me, and why, looking back, I wouldn't erase a single one.This episode is about adversity, the kind that shapes who we become. I talk about a tournament that humbled me, a JFK quote that's stuck with me for years, and why some seasons of life are supposed to hurt.This isn't advice. This is a confession.I hope you find pieces of yourself here.

It took me a year to come back to this. Not because I ran out of things to say, but because I wasn't sure I had anything left worth saying.In this episode, I talk about something I've come to realize has quietly shaped every choice I've ever made: the idea of infinity. Not the math kind. The kind that shows up in the way we love people we know we'll lose, the way we chase goals that stop mattering the moment we reach them, the way we scroll for hours looking for something that was never going to be there.We all have infinities we're chasing, whether we realize it or not. Some of them are worth it. Some of them are quietly wasting our lives. This episode is about learning the difference.This is the conversation I've been sitting with for months. I hope it makes you sit with something too.I hope you find pieces of yourself here.

This is it: the final chapter of Season 1. Nice Knowing You isn’t a goodbye; it’s a pause to breathe and to look back at the words we’ve spoken, and the silences we’ve shared. In this episode, I unpack what it has meant to hold these conversations with myself, and with you, week after week.It’s a reflection on self-discovery. Thank you for listening, for showing up, for hearing the things I never said. This isn’t the end, just the end of a beginning.

In this episode of Things I Never Said to Myself, I talk about a difficult feeling that has taken me on a rollercoaster journey: rejection.From missing out on a sports award after leading my football team for a year to navigating unequal expectations in relationships, I share how these moments shaped my understanding of worth. Over time, I’ve come to see worth as a boundary, one I now fiercely protect. I decide the rules. I decide the value. Because no one should ever have the power to change how much I mean to myself. I hope this helps you heal.Music Credits:Let Her Go – PassengerAn ending - Brian Eno Find it– DYVN

In this episode, I talk about the human tendency to focus on ourselves and believe that everyone else is doing the same. I discuss how we live in our own heads and let our insecurities stop us from trying new things, out of fear that other people are just as aware of our flaws as we are. I share my experience at my previous high school and open up about two toxic traits I developed from being in an environment that punished any attempt to try something new.I hope this episode helps you feel freer to be yourself.

In this episode, I talk about the fear of not being enough.The fear that everyone will find out you’re a fraud: not smart enough, not attractive enough, not wealthy enough. I sit with the tension of experiencing imposter syndrome as a scholarship student and explore the trap of constantly comparing myself to others.I also share a deep analogy my Chemistry teacher once told me about life that has stayed with me.I hope this helps you love yourself a little better 💛This episode was inspired by Marianne Williamson’s poem Our Deepest Fear.Music credits:Intro 🎵 Only by RY XMid ambience – An Ending (Ascent) by Brian EnoOutro – Love Like This by RY X

I hope this helps you, not to let go of your past, but to shake hands with it and move on as a better person 🌱.In this long-overdue episode, I take a trip to the past. As a student at St. Ignatius in 2023, I revisit the memories, experiences, and lessons I acquired during my time there, and express my struggle to accept the fact that, at times, nostalgia has forced me to wish I were still there 🏫. I reflect on what I would do if I had a time machine ⏳ and sit with the acceptance of the mistakes and sacrifices I’ve made in the past to be the person I am today. Song credits: Love Like This – RY X, (outro)Berlin – RY X, (intro)Briano – Ano, An Ending (Ascent) (middle bit)

In this episode, I invite you to take a front row seat in a raw, personal conversation between me and the smaller voice inside me. The inner personality that wrestles with purpose, faith, and calling. I reflect on my ongoing break from social media, my relationship with Jesus Christ, and the divine purpose I believe He created me for.The heartbeat of this episode is Jeremiah 1:5: “Before you were formed in the womb, I knew you.”A special shoutout to my friend Malachi, whose bold writing gave me inspiration to speak from a deeper place today.Check out his piece here: All the Nonsense Ep.3: You Can’t Just be one thing?Outro song by my brother Timanuel: Sound of surrender

In this episode, I explore the complex balance between gratitude and ambition. Can you truly be satisfied with what you have and still crave more? Drawing from my experience at a gap year leadership school filled with overachievers, I unpack the surprising advice I heard there: don’t be too ambitious. I also talk about why I believe ambition shouldn’t be stifled by gratitude. Join me as I share personal stories and reflect on what it means to stay hungry without losing appreciation for the present.