Mars Rx: Bookends

shay takes the stage in part two of our "return of the circus queens" episode with some amazing wisdom around avoidant attachment style relationships and untangling the motherwound, plus a magical sidequest about a gift she received from THEE mother, Earth!00:00 intro00:13 - shay's update: avoidant attachment style insights18:38 - emotional maturity & compatibility29:21 - untangling the motherwound44:43 - synchronicities and gifts from mother earth57:53 - nature's ambassadorsfollow kk on ⁠tiktok⁠ and ⁠instagram⁠shay on ⁠tiktok⁠ and ⁠instagram⁠follow kk's new project "⁠tending the soil and the sou⁠l" on youtubecheck out 'the midnite diner' ⁠archive⁠join 'the midnite diner' livestream on ⁠twitch⁠

did you miss us?? we missed you! the circus queens are back for our first episode since september, and boy did we go through some massive upheavals! in part one we go into a broader collective energy update about navigating the in-between and divine masculine activations, and then kk explains what's been happening in her world (hint: there's a first mate aboard the galactic pirate ship!)recorded may 25, 202600:00 - intro07:08 - becoming masters of limitation15:52 - sometimes YOU are the lesson18:51 - navigating the in-between & crumbling patriarchal systems28:43 - no more invisibility cloaks44:39 - kk's update: tending the soil & the soulfollow kk's new project "tending the soil and the soul"check out 'the midnite diner' archivejoin 'the midnite diner' livestream on twitchfollow kk on tiktok and instagramshay on tiktok and instagram

the circus queens are back to check in on the energies of this amped up eclipse season that also coincides with the fall equinox and the 9-9-9 portal - lots of volcanic unearthings going on right now! we are wrapping up those karmic stories we've spent so much time closing out these past few years and the endings are really loud this month. there's a big focus on clearing out wounds of not-enough-ness and fears of 'waiting for the other shoe to drop' - going forward we get to keep the nice things and the dream life. we're getting closer and closer to the big shift but it's still gonna take the time it needs to take, so it's important to enjoy the small miracles and joyful moments of everyday life along the way.recorded september 19, 2025(timestamps are based on the youtube version and may be slightly different for audio-only)00:00 - intro01:14 - eclipse portal check-in: "don't look back"17:41 - resting, withdrawing & clearing wounds of not enough-ness27:52 - freedom timeline & keeping the nice things 38:40 - astrology of our evolutionary & technological leaps59:23 - critical mass of heart-led awakenings & spiritual technologies1:09:17 - construction zone of the edenic future1:25:15 - recognizing miracles1:33:01 - what even is inner child healing1:41:00 - "dgaf mode" activatedshay tiktokkk tiktokkk youtube cover art by shaymusic by dreadpiratekk

there's still some mercury retrograde-type energy in the air, but also some fresh solstice & freedom energy too! we talk about our most recent journeys of self discovery thru creative projects and studying gene keys, coming out of our hermit caves, needing an external purpose, and "holding the flame" during the revolution.recorded june 19, 2025timestamps00:00 - intro01:00 - mercury rx-feeling energy & standing on business12:05 - solstice/freedom energies & regenerative farming25:59 - self-discovery thru creative projects & the gene keys47:16 - permission slip to be yourself53:48 - resting (again!!!) & big shifts coming in july56:38 - holding the flame & rebuilding during the revolutionshay tiktokkk tiktokkk twitchcover art by shaymusic by dreadpiratekk

The Circus Queens brave the weird mercury retrograde-feeling energies to process our latest epiphanies on this current rebalancing period full of spiritual level ups and volcano energy. we're starting new creative chapters, letting go of perfectionism, and healing our self-worth and divine masculine wounds, all while being triggered to feel and release lifetimes of buried emotions! There may still be some heaviness in the air but we're starting to see more "no ads in your experience" magical glitches in the matrix while we weave our webs of heaven on earth.(recorded june 5, 2025)timestamps00:00 - intro06:47 - last gasps of the old illusion13:11 - triggered to feel the lifetime of buried emotions16:02 - rebalancing period, spiritual levels ups & volcano energy 34:39 - new creative chapters & the end of perfectionism52:11 - divine masculine, self-worth & atlantean cycles1:01:58 - reframing balanced energy exchanges & celebrating wins 1:13:42 - weaving our webs & heaven on earth1:29:33 - customizing your avatar & living your own myth(times are based on the unedited youtube version and may be slightly off for the audio-only)cover art by shaymusic by dreadpiratekkshay on tiktokkk on tiktokkk's 'the midnite diner' on twitch

just as shay predicted last episode, march MOST DEFINITELY gave an "in like a lamb, out like a lion" glow up energy to all of us - reset energy, relationship review, locking in on self-worth...whew this month had it all! we talk about dog energy; timeline heartbeats; titrating from suffering to bliss; the venus sequence in the gene keys; plus inner child healing, self worth and relationship triggers as we reflect on our venus retrograde journeys.(recorded april 4, 2025)time stamp notes for episode (may be slightly off in the audio-only version, timestamps are from the youtube version)00:00 intro music1:14 actual intro2:54 reset energy5:46 dog & divine feminine energy9:01 venus retrograde & self worth11:53 aries-libra eclipse cycle closing out15:50 reset energy & timeline heartbeats23:34 gene keys venus sequence38:30 current astrology & tribal awakenings44:15 weird shit happening53:33 titrating from suffering to bliss timeline1:02:25 personal updates, time loops, & inner child healing1:36:06 outro musicshay on tiktokkk on tiktokkk on twitchcover art by shaymusic by dreadpiratekk

mars has finally gone direct!!! the circus queens are back to bookend our mars retrograde stories - we talk deconstruction energy and tower moments; how pluto in aquarius will bring a collective divestment from the gregorian calendar into a more natural earth-directed seasonal (and personal circadian rhythm) flow; march bringing "in like a lamb, out like a lion" glow ups; allowing magic and healing to be easy; and breaking love out of the box. (recorded february 27, 2025)shay on tiktokshay on twitchkk on tiktokkk on twitchcover art by shaymusic by dreadpiratekk

in this mad hatter-iest mars retrograde in the history of mars retrogrades, the circus queens return for part 3 with death energy and plot twists... and also the start of our new twitch channel adventure! Plus, we have some opinions on what it AKSHULLY takes to build community (hint: are you still looking for an external savior?). (recorded february 17, 2025)link to dr. martha beck instagram video with the sugar cube pyramidshay on tiktokshay on twitchkk on tiktokkk on twitchcover art by shaymusic by dreadpiratekk

we're back with a follow up mars retrograde check in and wow, the worst-fears portal is still in full swing! in addition to the rise of sisterhood partnerships coming online, we talk about the boss battles we've been facing as well as the trickster energy afoot this year.(recorded february 10, 2025)shay on tiktokkk on tiktokcover art by shaymusic by dreadpiratekk

the circus queens pop their heads up from the underworld (this mars retrograde got HANDS!!) to catch up on life, the universe and everything. long story short, you are the phoenix rising from the ashes of alchemizing your greatest fears, and be prepared for uranian, out of the blue shifts for the next few years...(recorded january 21, 2025)you can now catch us BOTH on tiktok for juicy downloads and energy updates, and stay tuned for our twitch channel journeys!shay on tiktokkk on tiktokcover art by shaymusic by dreadpiratekk