Episode 5~Finding Peace, my Solution

A lot of the time the dreams we desire are surrounded by deep rooted sub conscious beliefs & fears, if we aren't willing to commit to the journey of who we want to be, which involves a lot of unraveling all the fears that cause the self sabotage and behavioural patterns that keep you from achieving your hearts desires then it is FEAR that will DEFINE us and our reality in the end, not Love because love when turned inwards frees us from our fears.Once we learn about our own heart which is who we are, we can start to learn when it is deceiving us and what is really true to our core.

Without being prepared to go to war with our limited beliefs ,ego and inner child it's difficult to find a peaceful grounding within ourselves; When we decide to face each and every battle that arises within us rather than void or run, we decide to commit to the relationship with ourselves. And just like any relationship there will be disagreements between our mind, heart and soul or between our higher self our ego and our inner child. Its so important to heal from the things that have hurt us over time, inner child wounds have such an impact on our relationships, coping mechanisms and our limited belief system. here's my perspective so far on finding my peace.

"Until we truly know ourselves, who we aren't will forever be what holds us back"~Sadie GibbsPeople who aren't able to communicate see every disagreement as an argument, people who lack accountability see every bit of feedback as an attack, people who have little to no self awareness see every boundary as betrayal.all you can do is keep being a person your proud of keep communicating, stay accountable and honour your boundaries; The right people will aswell.

This episode is me trying to some up the last four years, in a 35 minute podcast, (which was very difficult) as you will hear so much has happened, since I begun my journey in my wrestling ventures, and its been one hell of a path up to this point, a path with so many detours and obstructions, a path that has allowed me to learn that no matter what life throws your way, heartbreak, loss and grief its the journey that creates you. The process of becoming can't be planned as everything is uncertain, and just as life shifts and changes so do we, so we can't let the setbacks be what defines us, instead let the journey of becoming REMAIN UNDEFINABLE.

We can do all the healing & shadow work but it isn't until we are faced head on with a situation that truly tests the inner work we've been doing, do we know how far we've actually came.The inner conflict we often face is between our ego, inner child and our higher self /authentic self.The inner child wounds assist in the egos desires and needs, which often leads to the cycles of toxic relationships & patterns in your adult relationshipsIn this episode I speak about core wounds and how being a people pleaser has the same core wounds as someone who may be narcissistic, both need and want to be loved.In this episode I speak about unmasking; Masking is common with ADHD,When I first started to unmask I started experiencing panic attacks in social environments, feeling extremely overwhelmed, I lost the person I had built through being in a constant state of survival mode.In the up and coming episode I will be talking about the household I grew up in , more about my journey from living in survival mode to learning to self regulate, understanding and recognising when I'm triggered and working through what arises through the inner child response (involving shadow work). Along with making the ego an ally rather than an enemy, and how stepping more into my authentic self and committing to the relationship with myself has completely changed my life and my relationships with others.

The reason I've decided to start the remain undefinable podcast with the subject of self worth is because everything about remaining undefinable for me has been built of not being defined by the thoughts in my head,or the ways I may feel about myself at that moment of time, such as undeserving or fearful. Remaining undefinable for me is understanding that when we are bridging the gap between who we are now & where we are now to who we want to become and where we want to be in our lives; We must build and create the depth of character required to acquire that reality. Its about stepping into a new timeline of self belief, but first you have to feel worthy truly of the things you want to manifest. It’s easier to escape the life you hate than build a life you love that doesn’t require escaping it’s easier to hate on others be judgemental off others whilst you sit back and avoid what stares back at you in the mirror it’s easier to make excuses for all the things you didn’t become or didn’t try and change than accept the failures and setbacks that come with trying  It’s easier to submerge in fear than it is to risk it all and trust in a life built around love.  Its always those whom have given up or grown complacent with a expanded level of apathy  Who say it’s not possible or it’s rare or what’s your plan be like you should plan TO FAIL ! you don’t plan to fail but you will ! You will fail you will meet obstacles you will meet setbacks but you never ever FAIL BACKWARDS YOU FAIL FORWARDS ! So you fail on to a new Plan A! Not B   That’s why those who have plan Bs always end up on just that a lower frequency a lower vibration because they planned a life less happier than there plan A!  We fail forwards onto a new plan A !  It’s what separates the WINNERS AND THE LOSERS  winners know they willl encounter losses occasionally but either way it’s a win  Losers plan to either win or walk away  Losers have more ego than heart  WINNERS HAVE JUST HEART!  So you keep failing onto the next plan A !  And don’t you ever plan for anything else other than what your hearts telling you at that time!

I wanted to start my podcast with talking about something that has allowed me to be in a place within myself where I feel confident enough to start finally podcasting and exploring my ambition and passion in public speaking. Self worth is a used so much in throw away comments, such as "have some self worth" when the reasons behind why people put them selves in situations where their self worth is questionable in the first place is through usually some form of trauma which has impacted their self esteem & self worth over time, and lead to destructive patterns to continue into their adult life through pain and fear. This is part 1 of my self worth journey, I hope you can resonate with my journey and join me for the up coming episodes of self worth to me; Finding out all the things I've done to regain and build my self worth and how I've overcome or how im still overcoming all the self destructive patterns that followed from having no sense of self by that I mean a poor relationship with myself.

How many times have you let your past or who you think you are define and limit who you want to become ? Undefinable Living is an integrated wellness podcast with real life stories; Talking about the struggles and challenges that come up when bridging the gap between who we are now and who you want to become. We will be giving away all the secrets to changing your narrative and making sure the new story you tell, starts with nothing that defines or limits who you are becoming.