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he was on an armpit bender and i was obsessed with giving him sneaky therapy, and his story, which though taboo in the nature of his interests, his path is one many have walked in following dangerous curiosity at the expense of loved ones. despite creating a safe space for his anonymous confession, i do not condone any of this. SO here we have a person whose lifestyle is unique because of a fetish. this episode is for entertainment purposes only, and for that purpose I think you may enjoy it. sincerely sorry for the audio quality. personally I think it makes this episode kinda precious. when editing this I kept replaying the text convo between he and his gf at the like 23 minute mark and absolutely howlingggg. TW: addiction, abuse, BDSM, drug use, sooasidal ideation. I do not condone, support, or identify with anything discussed in this episode; treatment of other people, habits, and behaviour mentioned are worth recording and sharing because they are hilariously out of the norm and might be better staying that way, though each being having their own freak is wonderful as long as it's not harmful to others. Sex Addicts Anonymous: 800-477-8191. Substance Abuse and Mental Health hotline (incl porn addiction services) 800-662-4357.

What’s up here’s me and this babe absolutely covering it. Ur gonna get some juicy juicy from. Thx. @alphagoodgirl

Ok so hear me out tho. This episode is kinda jank cause I recorded it papa style in a taxi but it is just bursting with pure gold. I am certain Jesse was placed before me to speak on behalf of my passed mother and think many ears could benefit from what is said here. Relatively short and calm but explosive conceptually. Touch on destiny, privilege , feminism, how to give back, life in the appreciative lane. Love you Vinita. TW suicide mentions

Here is Adam Cathey and I getting down and deep on the wild streak within us all, constructive rebellion, spiritual mosh pitting, surrendering, creating from a flow, church raving, and a variety of positive and destructive ways to channel our wildness, while waiting for Ableton to load. I think we briefly touch on sobriety stuff but mostly are finding methods of transmuting our wild side in a spiritual and connective way. Love you

Having a conversation with myself about substance use, breaking hearts, asexuality, antidepressants, taboos, dating one's self, analog love, Papa the product, being a vessel for others' sexual projections, psylocybin, losing my virginity real late like madddd late dawg, romantic ethics, caring for others more than the self looking like an eating disorder, morning pages and cold dips and personal anti-suicidal protocol, weed simply not slapping anymore, and falling in love 40 times a year. This season we tacklingggggg

Adam and I break into an abandoned library to record this discussion about living one's beliefs. Sweet dreams baby Hymn to Chance - opening song by Adam Cathey Flowers for Persephone - closing song by Adam Cathey

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Call me a flâneur. I have been going to places alone and with an open mind and heart and meeting strangers as a hobby for much of my life. Recently I decided to integrate a main component of my events: radical love and acceptance, into these interactions. I enjoy leaving people better than I found them. Taylor happened to burst into the bathroom at my favourite dive bar while I was fixing my lip liner. She began gushing over me, and I noticed this appreciation of me - the swelling celebration of femininity between us - could be diverted back into her own self love. We spent some time in the mirror complimenting ourselves, and generally gushing. As a being of healing and a creature that radiates love, perhaps because I naturally love all creatures without judgement, I have grown to understand sometimes people fall into my path to gain love for themselves. Here is a gentle example of what we can do together in bathrooms

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I puked part way thru. Every time I talk to Kali on the phone it's some dramatic journey well hereEnjoy 😘 ft e_transfer