Impossible Decisions

This is a poem about living with ME/CFS and the void of any kind of feeling that can strike us during sick days/worse periods and how absolutely devastating and dehuhumanizing it can feel.  💙✏️ My ME/CFS Blog❓What is ME/CFS?👤 My Story📄 ME/CFS Resources🙏 Donate to ME/CFS Research🖼️ My Print Store

I explore the gap in compassion between ME/CFS deaths and sufering and the suffering and death of other people whom the world rallies around, fights for, and supports.  ✏️ My ME/CFS Blog❓What is ME/CFS?👤 My Story📄 ME/CFS Resources🙏 Donate to ME/CFS Research🖼️ My Print Store

A video exploration of the impossible decisions ME/CFS patients have to make, constantly having to decide between two options that will both make our health worse.  And how much more difficult these decisions get when they involve non ME/CFS medical needs.  As well as thoughts on how to process these decisions…✏️ My ME/CFS Blog❓What is ME/CFS?👤 My Story📄 ME/CFS Resources🙏 Donate to ME/CFS Research🖼️ My Print Store

…even when ME/CFS starts taking from your mind, you think there’s some limit - something that’s yours, that is sacred and defines you in some way, or is just you in some core way that nothing, including ME/CFS can touch.  But there isn’t.  ME/CFS keeps going and will keep taking…✏️ My ME/CFS Blog❓What is ME/CFS?👤 My Story📄 ME/CFS Resources🙏 Donate to ME/CFS Research🖼️ My Print Store

Imagining but never doingDreaming but never experiencingLonging but never feelingSeeing but never touchingBelieving but never receivingEnvisioning but never achievingDriven but never accomplishingLoving but always being alone.The experience of living with ME/CFS.  ——————💙 Whitney ✏️ My ME/CFS Blog❓What is ME/CFS?👤 My Story📄 ME/CFS Resources🙏 Donate to ME/CFS Research🖼️ My Print Store

In January this year I spent 3 weeks in the hosptial for a pretty serious infection and related conditions.  My experience there was at once a surprise and a discouraging setback that added to my symptom burden.  In this post I relate my experience and thoughts on what it means for all of us.  ✏️ My ME/CFS Blog❓What is ME/CFS?👤 My Story📄 ME/CFS Resources🙏 Donate to ME/CFS Research🖼️ My Print Store

I had a very serious medical incident happen right after posting my last video about talking again and have been through a lot...I'm ok now, I’m recovering and my body is going through "growing pains" or maybe more accurately "healing pains" adjusting to new meds and a possibly long healing process…✏️ My ME/CFS Blog❓What is ME/CFS?👤 My Story📄 ME/CFS Resources🙏 Donate to ME/CFS Research🖼️ My Print Store

I started eating again in 2024.  After 11 years not eating a crumb of food or even drinking a drop of water.  I got all fluids and nutrition from tubes inserted into my body.  For 11 years.  In 2025 I have another big improvement to announce.  I have started ‼️ TALKING ‼️ again after 12 years of not saying a word to anyone!  What will 2026 bring❓✏️ My ME/CFS Blog❓What is ME/CFS?👤 My Story📄 ME/CFS Resources🙏 Donate to ME/CFS Research🖼️ My Print Store

…every single researcher at Ron’s recent Working Group Meeting - every researcher there said they don’t care if they are the ones to discover the cure for ME/CFS, they just want a cure to be found to end our suffering.  That is unheard of in scientific research or in any field of study - even in the arts…one thing to be grateful for today…✏️ My ME/CFS Blog❓What is ME/CFS?👤 My Story📄 ME/CFS Resources🙏 Donate to ME/CFS Research🖼️ My Print Store

My Jtube broke finally and I have to go to the hospital tomorrow and I’m feeling stressed...It is so hard seeing the real world and really feeling it and then coming back to my room and closing all the doors…The spontaneity that healthy people show so clearly is at once a refreshing reminder of what life is supposed to be like, but also a shocking and profoundly sad reminder of what my life is like…✏️ My ME/CFS Blog❓What is ME/CFS?👤 My Story📄 ME/CFS Resources🙏 Donate to ME/CFS Research🖼️ My Print Store