Under the influence

The 11th episode in my formative sex & relationship series.Fresh in official girlfriend capacity, I throw myself into my new relationship and a role that entails reluctantly giving up my own identity.While adventure is my boyfriend’s language, compromise is not. After unexpectedly risking my life on the Kananaskis River & being humiliated at a family Christmas, I come up against revealing insight: I may be young, but who exactly is the child in this relationship?*Heads up* I use explicit languageIn this series:Episode 14 :: Seeding disenchantmentEpisode 16 :: Petroleum engineering smartEpisode 17 :: Sex and the cityEpisode 18 :: Part of the jobEpisode 19 :: Hawaiian breeze eraEpisode 20 :: Time out (update episode)Episode 21 :: Risky businessEpisode 22 :: That kind of girlEpisode 23 :: Under the influenceEpisode 24 :: Sex therapy (update episode)Episode 27 :: Daddy issuesEpisode 28 :: Man foodCheck out this episode's photos & added contentJoin my Email NewsletterFollow me on Instagram: @sarahhildrethrankinMy Website: arcana-intuitive.comTheme Music: ©The BrowSend us Fan MailSupport the show

The 10th episode in my formative sex & relationship series.Leaning on my newly gained wisdom that youth=value, I actively court the older man I’ve been sleeping with in hopes of something more. After months of dismissal, I finally commit to a new path for myself…a commitment that is quickly reversed with the shiny offer of free rent & the term, girlfriend.*Heads up* I talk about sex & use some graphic languageIn this series:Episode 14 :: Seeding disenchantmentEpisode 16 :: Petroleum engineering smartEpisode 17 :: Sex and the cityEpisode 18 :: Part of the jobEpisode 19 :: Hawaiian breeze eraEpisode 20 :: Time out (update episode)Episode 21 :: Risky businessEpisode 22 :: That kind of girlEpisode 23 :: Under the influenceEpisode 24 :: Sex therapy (update episode)Episode 27 :: Daddy issuesCheck out this episode's photos & added contentJoin my Email NewsletterFollow me on Instagram: @sarahhildrethrankinMy Website: arcana-intuitive.comTheme Music: ©The BrowSend us Fan MailSupport the show

The ninth episode in my formative sex & relationship series.After years of demoralizing male encounters, an older man unexpectedly opens the floodgates to a new paradigm. As I start to equate safety with an older crowd, the universe delivers tenfold as older men start coming out of the woodwork-whether I like it or not.*Heads up* I talk about sex in generalIn this series:Episode 14 :: Seeding disenchantmentEpisode 16 :: Petroleum engineering smartEpisode 17 :: Sex and the cityEpisode 18 :: Part of the jobEpisode 19 :: Hawaiian breeze eraEpisode 20 :: Time out (update episode)Episode 21 :: Risky businessEpisode 22 :: That kind of girlEpisode 23 :: Under the influenceEpisode 24 :: Sex therapy (update episode)Check out this episode's photos & added contentJoin my Email NewsletterFollow me on Instagram: @sarahhildrethrankinMy Website: arcana-intuitive.comTheme Music: ©The BrowSend us Fan MailSupport the show

An update on what the past few months of life have brought through the ups & downs of chronic illness as new information & diagnoses show up. I recognize I’m still holding back in sharing from a fear of being seen and revelations about my next steps come after a good cry. Check out this episode's photos & added contentListen to my Mistress McFeely Playlist Join my Email NewsletterFollow me on Instagram: @sarahhildrethrankinMy Website: arcana-intuitive.comTheme Music: ©The BrowSend us Fan MailSupport the show

Exploring the theme of disempowerment, I comb through my confusing history with ego-driven bosses who tested my intuition and made me question my self worth.In this episode, I revisit the year I spent working for a shadowy doctor with a plan to save the world. After months of chaos, I found his “suitcase of secrets” and started putting the pieces together.For photos & added content visit: arcana-intuitive.com/divine-interruption-podcast/whos-the-boss-dr-gSupport the Show: buzzsprout.com/2602328/supporters/newWebsite: arcana-intuitive.comMy Spotify Playlists: open.spotify.com/user/21tw3u3p4oyenajqjlnrjx4cy?si=pCpLoVmiRn2ptPgJoeYxlwInstagram: @sarahhildrethrankinTheme Music: ©The BrowSend us Fan MailSupport the show

A few months after sharing a big chunk of my sexual & relationship history on this podcast, I find myself ready to explore sex therapy…again.  Over the past 10 years I’ve sought support as I explore my sexuality, trying to answer the question of what actually is sex & how do I make it work for me? From sex therapy, EMDR & somatic therapies to burlesque dance, energetic work & womb healing, I’ve tried many ways to move the needle in this area of my life. Most recently, talking openly & honestly about my lived experiences has been the gamechanger. And doing that with a new therapist unearths more pieces of the puzzle for me, even if my brain freaks out a little along the way.*Heads up* I talk about sex in general (nothing graphic)In this series:Episode 14 :: Seeding disenchantmentEpisode 16 :: Petroleum engineering smartEpisode 17 :: Sex and the cityEpisode 18 :: Part of the jobEpisode 19 :: Hawaiian breeze eraEpisode 20 :: Time out (update episode)Episode 21 :: Risky businessEpisode 22 :: That kind of girlEpisode 23 :: Under the influenceFor photos & added content visit: arcana-intuitive.com/divine-interruption-podcast/sex-therapySupport the Show: buzzsprout.com/2602328/supporters/newWebsite: arcana-intuitive.comMy Spotify Playlists: open.spotify.com/user/21tw3u3p4oyenajqjlnrjx4cy?si=pCpLoVmiRn2ptPgJoeYxlwInstagram: @sarahhildrethrankinTheme Music: ©The BrowSend us Fan MailSupport the show

Welcome to my first Choose Your Own Adventure Reading! I'm reading the energies of your year ahead in these personalized readings. Listen to the intro, choose which of the 4 symbols calls to you and find your reading in the time stamps below. These readings are timeless and relevant to your next 12 months regardless of when you're listening.(00:00) - Intro(04:04) - Group 1 - Owl(17:46) - Group 2 - Phoenix(29:27) - Group 3 - Unicorn(43:07) - Group 4 - Python(54:50) - ExtroIf you'd like to receive a mini reading on the podcast please submit your question via the link below.Submit your question to the podcast: arcana-intuitive.com/reading-room-submit-questionSupport the Show: buzzsprout.com/2602328/supporters/newWebsite: arcana-intuitive.comInstagram: @sarahhildrethrankinTheme Music: ©JupyterSend us Fan MailSupport the show

The eighth episode in my formative sex & relationship series.My life quickly unravels after starting a new job. I tread murky boundaries with a seemingly harmless colleague and the consequences leave permanent damage.*Heads up* I use graphic language and describe multiple sexual experiences & a sexual assault.In this series:Episode 14 :: Seeding disenchantmentEpisode 16 :: Petroleum engineering smartEpisode 17 :: Sex and the cityEpisode 18 :: Part of the jobEpisode 19 :: Hawaiian breeze eraEpisode 20 :: Time out (update episode)Episode 21 :: Risky businessEpisode 22 :: That kind of girlFor photos & added content visit: arcana-intuitive.com/podcast/under-the-influenceCheck out my Sacred Rage playlist: open.spotify.com/playlist/3xRsy7tesmJkNXQHuqLPrk?si=527e459636bc4ebdSupport the Show: buzzsprout.com/2602328/supporters/newWebsite: arcana-intuitive.comInstagram: @sarahhildrethrankinTheme Music: ©The BrowSend us Fan MailSupport the show

The seventh episode in my formative sex & relationship series. Disempowerment reigns supreme as I navigate various sexual situations that end up with humiliating consequences. Shame & danger now replace sex & men in my young brain.*Heads Up* I describe multiple sexual experiences.IN THIS SERIES: Episode 14 :: Seeding disenchantmentEpisode 16 :: Petroleum engineering smartEpisode 17 :: Sex and the cityEpisode 18 :: Part of the jobEpisode 19 :: Hawaiian breeze eraEpisode 20 :: Time out (update episode)Episode 21 :: Risky businessFor photos & added content visit: arcana-intuitive.com/podcast/that-kind-of-girlSupport the Show: buzzsprout.com/2602328/supporters/newWebsite: arcana-intuitive.comMy Spotify Playlists: open.spotify.com/user/21tw3u3p4oyenajqjlnrjx4cy?si=pCpLoVmiRn2ptPgJoeYxlwInstagram: @sarahhildrethrankinTheme Music: ©The BrowSend us Fan MailSupport the show

The sixth episode in my formative sex & relationship series. Trying to keep up with the party culture around me, I throw myself right into the chaos unsure of what I want or who I am. Precarious situations become normalized with hangovers & regrets abound.*Heads up* I describe an act of violence, detail multiple sexual acts and discuss alcohol & drug use.IN THIS SERIES: Episode 14 :: Seeding disenchantmentEpisode 16 :: Petroleum engineering smartEpisode 17 :: Sex and the cityEpisode 18 :: Part of the jobEpisode 19 :: Hawaiian breeze eraEpisode 20 :: Time out (update episode)For photos & added content visit: arcana-intuitive.com/podcast/risky-businessSupport the Show: buzzsprout.com/2602328/supporters/newWebsite: arcana-intuitive.comMy Spotify Playlists: open.spotify.com/user/21tw3u3p4oyenajqjlnrjx4cy?si=pCpLoVmiRn2ptPgJoeYxlwInstagram: @sarahhildrethrankinTheme Music: ©The BrowSend us Fan MailSupport the show