Reactive Abuse

Recorded March 18, 2025 It is what it is.

Recorded March 18, 2025 “I’d rather be dead than afraid.” Martin Luther King Jr. Grounded in reality, I see shades of humanity; may our hearts, minds, and bodies heal for this is the greatest work of all.

We live. We learn. We grow. 

Coming March 14, 2025

Recorded January 30, 2025 I am well acquainted with the grief process, and this is my day of acceptance. My mind is relentless, not to fix him, but for my journey and breaking the cycles of abuse in my family.  We cannot heal that which we cannot label or identify. I needed to understand why we had these experiences for my own healing, protection, and education of my children. This recording gave me the answers I needed to accept what I could not change.  People have not one but two paths on a spiritual journey that is only revealed with age. By the time a person is in their 70s, they are delightful or awful. There is very little middle ground. The multitude of choices you make every single day create the journey. Make better choices. 

Recorded June 6, 2024 I’m not even sure who he is at this point. I was shocked by his lack of memory, clarity of memory, and “new awareness.” He changed the game, but I couldn’t see it yet.

Recorded May 18, 2024 I don’t believe that reactive or justified abuse is acceptable, it’s understandable but not acceptable. I have been working to respond rather than react for over 20 years. I f’ing tried. I tried so hard. The only thing I knew to do is quit talking.

Recorded April 13, 2024 Covert behavior is so difficult to identify. Every conversation is essentially the same. More apologies. More promises that never happen.

Recorded March 16, 2024 Nothing is easy.

Recorded March 14, 2024 This would’ve been our 20th wedding anniversary. March 15, the next day was our one year divorce anniversary. The pettiness… wow. Picking a fight with his daughter. She ignores him. In our home, everyone is responsible for their own laundry. Instigators be instigating. Lol!