Episode 15 - Bipey Fox - The Final Episode

This is the penultimate episode.There is swearing.There is a mention of suicidal thoughts and ideation.It’s never goodbye.

Episode 14 - MMHello world and welcome to Bipey Fox.I have planned this. The third and last podcast I’ll ever plan. And I’m reading this podcast completely verbatim.So here goes. NOT A DROP OF BLOOD.A scientist wanted to test a theory. I needed a volunteer to get to the last consequences. Finally found him, he was a death sentence who would be executed in the electric chair.The scientist proposed to the convicted, which is the following: He would participate in a scientific experiment that consisted of a small cut in his pulse, with the purpose of his blood slowly dripping to the last drop. He explained to him that he had minimal chances of survival, but that anyway, his death would be without suffering, or pain; he wouldn't even notice.The convicted man accepted, because dying in this way, was preferable to dying in the electric chair. They placed him on a stretcher and tied his body so he couldn't move. Then they made a small cut on his wrist and placed a small aluminum vessel under his arm.The cut was superficial, just his first layers of skin, but it was enough for him to believe he had actually cut his veins. Under the bed, a serum jar was placed with a small valve regulating the passage of liquid, in the form of drops falling into the vase. The convicted man could hear the drip and counted every drop of what he believed was his blood.The scientist, without the convicted person seeing him, was closing the valve, so that the drip would diminish, with the intention of him to think his blood was ending.With the minutes passing his face was losing color, his heart rate speeded up and he lost air to his lungs. When despair reached its peak, the scientist completely shut down the valve and then the convicted man went into cardiac arrest and died.The scientist managed to prove that the human mind strictly meets everything he perceives and that the individual accepts it, whether positive or negative, acting on our entire psychic and organic part.I've always thought that the mind has no limits when deceiving itself. Worse even when you don't understand things and manufacture what you can to understand, like when we see things we take them as supernatural but that really aren't.Many times in our life problems that seem to be disastrous. Possibly there is someone who tells us that there is a small or small possibility of reversing that situation, but we decide to believe only what we are able to perceive and imagine.′′ Who thinks of failing, already failed ′′′′ Whoever thinks of winning takes one step forward ′′Life is hard.You never know what goes through anyone’s head.Love the ones that love you in abundance.Care.Smile.Hug.Connect.Love.Love and love some more.To whoever wrote this.Thank you.I read it as grief. Grief is hard. To Pop, DanDan, Grannie and Grandma. I miss you everyday. This ones for my family. Keep smiling.Stay good.

TRIGGER WARNING - Discussions of suicide.Episode 13 - Bipey Fox - Save Minds Clinic with Dr Rajalingam YadhunanthananChat wih Dr Rajalingam YadhunanthananConsultant Intensive Care Medicinehttps://saveminds.co.uk/

TRIGGER WARNIG - Suicide ChatDuality Ian Timmings He has Bipolar 2Carl JungFreudSynchronisityStephen FryKurt CobainBipolar CelebritiesMozartBipolar Disorder - The Ultimate Guide - BookPaul Abbott - WriterSuicide AttemptSuicide Attempt 2WomenHomeland Grandiose IdeasKanye West Donald TrumpNarcissistic Personality DisorderSuicide PreventionConspiracy TheoriesCovid Medication - Lithium

Reversing Bipolar & Depression by Lynn Marie Jacksonemail: [email protected]: 07879208832https://www.amazon.co.uk/Lynn-Marie-Jackson/e/B07BJBCSQ7%3Fref=dbs_a_mng_rwt_scns_shareFunnyRecipesIntro to BipolarHow Lynn lives wellFoodHealingDetoxingKetamine experiences Healthy body, healthy mind

A chat with a school friend that includes:Bullying Social AnxietyADHDHyperactivityMental Health at SchoolExerciseTouch on Dyslexia

We talk:DestressingCheese SandwichesLow Alcohol AlcoholWe laughWe bond.Enjoy.Keep smilingStay good

Hello world and welcome to BIPEY Fox Lynn Marie Jackson Written a book Called Reversing Bipolar and DepressionA guide to reverse chronic physical and mental health illnesses Buddhism Ketamine Spirituality Healthy eating Exercise Meditation Therapy Alcohol Creativity Adrenal System Brain Chemistry Lies about medication Kelly Brogan - Books/ Work/ YouTube videosDiabetes from wrong treatmentToxicity’s Chemical overload Mind pelletsPsychiatry with Hitler America put fluoride in water Anger Who do you believe - professional wiseWithdrawal from medications Gaslighting Western world Hamster wheel Keep pushing to get all the things we need Coffee affects the adrenal system SaunasSwimming Dopamine - running - hit Bipolar - yoga meditation art painting World of yes people People pleasers Not a gift Social anxiety Not fitting in Curse Can’t live in your body Inner child Hated going to school - was like a prison Free - lived on a farm as a youth Troubled relationships with family NarcissistsEmpaths Family’s are dysfunctional Caterpillar and the butterfly  Confidence Used to be hyper anxious Everything was uncomfortable Lucky Medicated without ECTcame off benzodiazepines Long term harm of medications Uncomfortable sides to medications Science of medication Lot of anger NHS did a lot of harm to Lynn Share your truths too much Never going to please everyone Different tribes on this planet Others who have recovered Ignorant about some things, clever about othersPeer support Inspiring without medication Truly well Alcoholics, heroin addicts Psych meds needed to be weened off slowly Detoxification of the body Nutritionalist Yoga Guide Ambition to have a retreat to learn about healing in North Norfolk Get better quicker and get truly well Ignored the illness Playing the victim is part of your inner child Lynn wants to help other people to teach them to learn to heal Tools to build yourself Lack of information Heal yourself Western world 2 rivers in the body - blood and lymph Full of filth non judgementally Internal toxic environment Cleaning the blood up Herbs and anti virals everyday Can’t live in Chernobyl because it’s too chemically effected B12 vitamins Replacement Ice cream away from a child Societally programmed for capitalism Healed because Lynn has gone the distance Reversing Bipolar - Lynn Marie Jackson Music - Chymes - Bob DylanKeep smiling Stay good

⚠️ TRIGGER WARNING - SUICIDE AND SUICIDAL THOUGHTS ARE DISCUSSED⚠️If you are having thoughts of suicide please consult the NHS suicidal thoughts webpage.https://www.nhs.uk/mental-health/feelings-symptoms-behaviours/behaviours/help-for-suicidal-thoughts/NOTES:Thoughts of a suicidal thinker #2Hello world and welcome to Bipey FoxThoughts of a suicidal thinker mark 2This should hopefully be slightly less heavy than the first episode. This was written the day after the last recited piece was written on the 28th December 2019And it’s called the joker.The JokerHe is vicious violent veracious and unkind, he pokes his head from round the unlit corners of doom that fill the entirety of the entity you call life. He laughs and cries and poses the question why. It’s dark for days, he lets the light in and before you wake you know the pain regains. They will see the improvement followed by the darkened innards, it’s not plain sailing, you’re good, you’re bad, you can’t laugh but then it comes, the smile as rye as microwave meals, you can’t see me inside, you never have, if you see positivity know that it’s strength, making everything ok is not the change, the change is consistency, remember that the push and pull is a greater fate than suicide. That would be the easy way believe me. That would end the pain, strain, complaints of feeling this way. Just one step in front of the train switches off the brain. Just one jump from the hill makes it all still. Just one shot and everything is forgot. I promise you the strength is there to not do it. You see strength in a smile but know that it’s ripped to shatters on the inside. You can’t hide. You can’t fly away. You can’t just feel better. If I could I would. The strength comes in fighting it. That black filthy beast is strong, long and powerful. It seeps the light from your soul, leaves you breathless and forces you to the dirtied ground of which you stand. To smile is a victory but it’s not the best of me, consistency brings the light back that you’ve lost for months, it’s coming, but the beast plays before it’s feast. Once it’s bored your back to the norm. It’s coming. I can feel it, but the true feeling is yet to be felt, these were the cards you’ve been dealt. Get on with it. Most psychiatric disorders - symptoms can be something that causes significant suffering/distressHaving just experienced England losing the Euros final,Clear to see Lot of people distressedThose who maybe don’t suffer mentally still felt a sense of lossHave a heart for those who may have been feeling so low that the result last night made them even lowerPain is incomparable Remember that no one can walk in anyone else’s shoes so always be compassionate, kind and understandingNone of us know what anyone else is going through Keep smiling Stay good

I have my last cigarette at 4:50pm on the 13th June 2019. I begin the long 41 day and 41 night journey of being sectioned and everything it entails.This is a small section of what it is like to be sectioned.This includes me recalling the walk I did in the summer of 2019. Keep smiling 😊 Stay good 💙