Spiritual Resilience After Trauma With Stephanie Drury

Stephanie Drury's Introduction and Background 0:01Melanie Weller introduces Stephanie Drury, highlighting her work as a Seattle-based writer and social commentator on American Evangelical culture.Stephanie's platform, "Stuff Christian Culture Likes," offers a satirical yet insightful examination of Christian communities through memes and personal reflections.Melanie shares her long-term admiration for Stephanie's work, tracing their connection back to the early days of Twitter.Stephanie expresses surprise at Melanie's long-term following and reminisces about the transition to Instagram.Religious Trauma and Personal Experiences 1:47Melanie discusses her interest in religious trauma and its evolution, mentioning her background as a physical therapist and her work with patients dealing with suicide ideation.Melanie shares her personal experience of being forced to mouth words in choir and her ongoing connection with Mary Magdalene retreats.Melanie highlights the lack of organized training for professionals in dealing with religious trauma and the incompleteness of somatic-based practices.Stephanie begins to share her own journey, mentioning her emotional breakdown at age 30 and the move away from her family, which included Baptist preachers.Therapy and Spiritual Abuse Dynamics 5:13Stephanie describes her first experience with therapy, which was facilitated by a therapist familiar with spiritual abuse dynamics.She mentions the influence of Dan Allender and the Seattle School of Theology and Psychology on her therapist's approach.Stephanie discusses the natural response to spiritual abuse, which often involves rejecting faith entirely, and her struggle to balance this with maintaining a connection to faith.Melanie and Stephanie discuss the importance of community and the fundamental need for connection, even if it means sacrificing one's essence.Family Dynamics and Emotional Control 14:17Stephanie reflects on her family dynamics, noting the control and emotional abuse she experienced growing up.She describes the difficulty of recognizing dysfunction in peaceful families and the insidious nature of neglect.Melanie shares her own experiences of emotional invalidation by her mother and the impact it had on her ability to express her feelings.Stephanie emphasizes the importance of acknowledging and validating emotions, even if they are not traditionally considered "happy."Spiritual Bypassing and Somatic Bypassing 23:45Melanie and Stephanie discuss the concept of spiritual bypassing and how it relates to somatic bypassing, which involves ignoring or invalidating one's inner authority.Stephanie shares a story about a friend who struggled with emotional validation and the impact of invalidation on mental health.Melanie highlights the protective nature of spirituality and the importance of personal devotion for mental and physical health.They discuss the role of nervous system regulation in religious and secular settings and the shift towards somatic practices for stress management.Community and Healing 30:07Melanie and Stephanie explore the importance of community in healing and the challenges of finding a supportive group.Stephanie shares her experience with Al-Anon meetings and the realization that religion can be treated like a substance.Melanie discusses the benefits of group healing demonstrations and the impact of community on individual healing.They reflect on the difficulty of revealing oneself to close family members compared to strangers and the importance of finding a safe space for healing.The Role of Humor and Satire in Healing 1:13:51Stephanie explains how humor and satire on her Instagram page help her cope with the absurdity of certain religious practices.Melanie and Stephanie discuss the disarming nature of laughter and its ability to reset the vagus nerve and mindset.They explore the power of questions in dismantling the addiction to being right and encouraging a more open-minded approach.Stephanie shares her admiration for Byron Katie's approach to turning thoughts around and the transformative impact it can have.The Vision for Religious Trauma Healing 1:15:00Stephanie envisions a world where religion does not need to control individuals and where love and self-acceptance are the foundation for healing.She emphasizes the importance of starting with oneself and the ripple effect of self-love on the broader community.Melanie and Stephanie discuss the potential for group healing initiatives and the power of creating safe spaces for emotional expression.They reflect on the intergenerational impact of trauma and the importance of addressing spiritual wounds for complete healing.The Role of Astrology and Personal Mythology 1:15:50Melanie shares her journey into astrology and how it helped her understand her life experiences and karmic backstory.They discuss the concept of the lost child in family dynamics and how it relates to Melanie's role in her family.Stephanie and Melanie explore the scientific and metaphysical aspects of astrology and its potential for providing deep insights into one's identity.They reflect on the importance of creating personal rituals and finding meaning in one's story for healing and growth.The Power of Love and Self-Compassion 1:16:24Stephanie emphasizes the transformative power of love and self-compassion in healing from religious trauma.She shares her personal experience of receiving love and how it helped her find a sense of purpose and direction.Melanie and Stephanie discuss the importance of forgiveness, both for oneself and others, in the healing process.They reflect on the challenges of reconnecting with one's inner child and the importance of self-care in fostering self-compassion.The Future of Religious Trauma Healing 1:17:41Stephanie envisions a future where religious trauma healing is widespread and individuals are empowered to take care of themselves.They discuss the potential for community-based healing initiatives and the importance of creating safe spaces for emotional expression.Melanie and Stephanie reflect on the intergenerational impact of trauma and the importance of addressing spiritual wounds for complete healing.They emphasize the ripple effect of self-love and the potential for healing on a larger scale, including family lines, communities, and the world.Instagram: @stuffchristianculturelikesSubstack: https://substack.com/@stephaniedruryListen on Spotify  | Listen on Apple Podcasts

Sandy Silverman's Anti-Aging Journey 0:01Melanie Weller introduces Sandy Silverman, highlighting her extensive experience with various beauty and wellness treatments.Sandy shares her journey, starting with a breast augmentation in her late 20s and progressing to multiple procedures in her 30s and 40s.She discusses the significant changes she noticed in her 40s, leading to a face lift in her 40s, which she found helpful in her 50s.Sandy mentions the importance of lymphatic work and peptides in her 50s, which helped her manage puffiness and reverse aging.The Role of Lymphatic Work and Peptides 4:31Sandy explains how she discovered the importance of lymphatic work during COVID, which significantly reduced her puffiness.She emphasizes the role of peptides in reversing aging, mentioning that she takes different types of peptides for muscle building and skin health.Melanie and Sandy discuss the impact of social media on the beauty and anti-aging industry, noting how it has increased access to various procedures.Sandy highlights the importance of counting calories and weight training in her routine, which has been crucial for her overall health and appearance.Internal Work and External Enhancements 7:29Sandy talks about the holistic approach she takes, including supplements, lymphatic work, and peptides, which are more affordable than surgical procedures.She emphasizes the importance of looking natural and maintaining a youthful appearance without resorting to extreme measures.Melanie and Sandy discuss the desire to look younger and the impact of local and collective consciousness on beauty standards.Sandy shares her experience of moving to Miami, which motivated her to step up her self-care routine to fit in with the local culture.Misconceptions in the Anti-Aging Industry 11:21Sandy addresses common misconceptions, such as the effectiveness of laser machines and miracle creams, which she believes are temporary fixes.She stresses the importance of internal work, proper nutrition, and supplements for achieving lasting beauty and health.Melanie and Sandy discuss the role of structure and boundaries in maintaining longevity and health, drawing parallels to astrological influences.Sandy shares her daily routine, including taking supplements, doing lymphatic work, and weight training, which she follows religiously.The Importance of Self-Care and Intuition 22:15Sandy talks about the support she received from her psychic, Priscilla, during a difficult time in her life, which provided comfort and guidance.She emphasizes the value of intuition and the importance of having a person who can validate and support your inner voice.Melanie and Sandy discuss the role of spiritual healers and life coaches in providing valuable insights and support beyond conventional therapy.Sandy shares her experience with other spiritual healers, such as Wendy, who communicates with spiritual guides, providing unique perspectives and guidance.Balancing Internal and External Beauty 30:01Sandy discusses the importance of a balanced approach to beauty, combining internal health with external enhancements.She highlights the benefits of proper nutrition, supplements, and exercise in maintaining a youthful appearance and overall well-being.Melanie and Sandy discuss the challenges of social media and the pressure to achieve unrealistic beauty standards.Sandy emphasizes the importance of self-compassion and accepting the natural changes that come with aging.Embracing Aging and Self-Acceptance 31:56Sandy shares her perspective on aging, acknowledging that it is unrealistic to maintain the same appearance as in one's 20s.She emphasizes the importance of self-acceptance and maintaining a positive outlook on aging.Melanie and Sandy discuss the impact of genetics and external factors on one's appearance and the importance of loving oneself at any age.Sandy talks about her decision to stop weighing herself, recognizing the fluctuations and the unhealthy relationship with the scale.The Impact of a Balanced Approach on Life 36:54Sandy observes that women who embrace a balanced approach to beauty, both internally and externally, are happier and more confident.She shares her experiences with older women who take care of themselves and maintain a youthful appearance through self-care.Melanie and Sandy discuss the benefits of good nutrition, proper exercise, and self-care in improving overall well-being and confidence.Sandy highlights the importance of sleep, proper diet, and avoiding substances that disrupt sleep, which contribute to better health and appearance.Sandy's Book and Its Purpose 40:52Sandy explains the purpose behind her book, "From Bullshit to Botox," which aims to provide practical advice and step-by-step instructions for various beauty and wellness treatments.She mentions the inclusion of affordable alternatives to expensive procedures, such as the Jesner Serum and body peels.Melanie and Sandy discuss the importance of making beauty and wellness accessible to everyone, regardless of financial constraints.Sandy emphasizes the goal of empowering women with knowledge and options to achieve their desired look without breaking the bank.Final Thoughts and Encouragement 41:13Melanie encourages listeners to get Sandy's book, highlighting its practical and grounded approach to beauty and wellness.Sandy shares her motivation for writing the book, which was to help others by sharing her extensive knowledge and experience.Melanie expresses gratitude for Sandy's fearless presence and the impact she has on empowering women.The conversation concludes with a reminder to subscribe to the podcast for more inspiring stories and information on stepping into one's fearless presence.Links:Book: https://www.barnesandnoble.com/w/from-bullshit-to-botox-sandra-lena-silverman/1146426001Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/sandralenasilverman/Listen on Spotify  | Listen on Apple Podcasts

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John Murphy and Dennis King transformed their lives by selling their Nashville house and buying an 1850s plantation farmhouse, where they now host retreats and events. John's deep connection with Mary Magdalene began in his Catholic confirmation class, leading him to explore her story extensively. He transitioned from the music industry to energy work, influenced by his experiences with Reiki and other modalities. John and Dennis host retreats in France, focusing on Mary Magdalene's legacy and the sacred feminine. They emphasize self-forgiveness, self-love, and the importance of fostering intuitive and mindful qualities in children.Website: kingmurphys.comRetreat Instagram: @kingmurphysretreatCrystal Instagram: @kingmurphysstonesOutlineJohn Murphy's Journey with Mary MagdaleneMelanie Weller introduces John Murphy, highlighting his transition from the music industry to hosting retreats and events at his 1850s plantation farmhouse.John Murphy shares his early connection with Mary Magdalene, starting from his Catholic confirmation class in junior year, where he wanted to choose her as his patron saint despite being told to pick a male saint.John discusses his identification with Mary Magdalene's outsider status and his journey of understanding her role in the Catholic Church and society.He recounts his career shift from fashion stylist to energy worker, influenced by his experiences with Reiki and other modalities, and his decision to quit drinking with the help of an energy practitioner.Transition from Music Industry to Retreat OwnershipJohn Murphy describes his transition from the music industry to hosting retreats and energy work sessions, influenced by his experiences with Reiki and other modalities.He shares the impact of COVID-19 on his career, leading to a shift in focus and the decision to purchase the current property with Dennis King.John discusses the financial challenges and opportunities during COVID-19, including hosting live sales of crystals and minerals to support their new venture.He reflects on the emotional and physical toll of his previous career in the music industry and the relief he found in his new path.The Role of Mary Magdalene in John's LifeJohn Murphy elaborates on his deep connection with Mary Magdalene, influenced by various books and online searches about her.He highlights the importance of Mary Magdalene's archetype in his personal journey and the significance of self-forgiveness and self-love.John discusses the misconceptions and misunderstandings surrounding Mary Magdalene, particularly the label of her as a prostitute by Pope Gregory.He emphasizes the role of women in the early Christian church and the importance of the sacred feminine in spiritual practices.The Impact of Mary Magdalene on John's Spiritual JourneyJohn Murphy shares his belief in the transformative power of Mary Magdalene's teachings, particularly in the areas of self-forgiveness and self-love.He discusses the significance of the gospel of Mary Magdalene and its focus on the seven aspects of self that need to be overcome.John reflects on the importance of fostering intuitive and mindful qualities in children and the need for a mindfulness camp for children.He emphasizes the role of the sacred feminine in creating a more compassionate and loving world.The Mystery and Legacy of Mary MagdaleneJohn Murphy delves into the various stories and legends surrounding Mary Magdalene, including her possible role in Jesus's resurrection and her journey to France.He discusses the significance of the Languedoc region in France, where many of these stories are centered, and the importance of the chakra trail on their property.John shares his experiences of leading retreats to France, including visits to significant sites like the Basilica of Mary Magdalene and the Grotto of Mary Magdalene.He reflects on the transformative power of these pilgrimages and the importance of creating one's own spiritual journey.The Role of Spirituality in Modern LifeJohn Murphy discusses the importance of spirituality in modern life, particularly in fostering self-love and compassion.He reflects on the challenges of living with fear and the importance of overcoming these fears to live a more authentic life.John shares his personal experiences of making significant life changes, such as getting an ear piercing, and the importance of self-acceptance.He emphasizes the need for a return to the sacred feminine and the importance of nurturing intuitive and mindful qualities in children.The Power of Archetypes and Spiritual TraditionsMelanie Weller and John Murphy discuss the role of archetypes in spiritual traditions and the importance of understanding these stories in a modern context.John reflects on the significance of the Garden of Eden and the importance of creating a Garden of Eden within oneself.He discusses the impact of astrology and the Zodiac on understanding the human body and spiritual anatomy.John emphasizes the importance of inner work and self-baptism in fostering spiritual growth and self-acceptance.The Role of Religion and Spirituality in SocietyJohn Murphy discusses the role of religion and spirituality in society, particularly in fostering compassion and self-acceptance.He reflects on the challenges of living with fear and the importance of overcoming these fears to live a more authentic life.John shares his personal experiences of making significant life changes, such as getting an ear piercing, and the importance of self-acceptance.He emphasizes the need for a return to the sacred feminine and the importance of nurturing intuitive and mindful qualities in children.The Importance of Self-Love and CompassionJohn Murphy discusses the importance of self-love and compassion in fostering a more compassionate and loving world.He reflects on the challenges of living with fear and the importance of overcoming these fears to live a more authentic life.John shares his personal experiences of making significant life changes, such as getting an ear piercing, and the importance of self-acceptance.He emphasizes the need for a return to the sacred feminine and the importance of nurturing intuitive and mindful qualities in children.The Role of Spiritual Practices in Personal GrowthJohn Murphy discusses the role of spiritual practices in personal growth and self-discovery.He reflects on the significance of the gospel of Mary Magdalene and its focus on the seven aspects of self that need to be overcome.John shares his experiences of leading retreats to France and the transformative power of these pilgrimages.He emphasizes the importance of creating one's own spiritual journey and the role of the sacred feminine in fostering compassion and self-acceptance.Listen on Spotify  | Listen on Apple Podcasts

Learn more about Marguerite Rigoglioso & her offerings:🌟 Purchase Marguerite’s book, The Secret Life of Mother Mary🌟 Sign up for the free masterclass, "What's a 'Mary' Priestess? What's a 'Magdalene' Priestess? And Is This a Path for YOU?" 🌟 Registration open for the Mary & Magdalene Priestess Training🌟 Learn more about Seven Sisters Mystery School🌟 Find Seven Sisters on Facebook🌟 Follow Marguerite on Instagram @margueriterigoglioso🌟 Join Our Monthly Mother Mary Love & Empowerments Circle🌟 Book a mentoring session with MargueriteMarguerite Rigoglioso and Melanie Weller discuss the themes of loss, healing, and restoration through the lens of the divine feminine, specifically Mary Magdalene and Mother Mary. They emphasize the need to reconnect with the mother figure for healing and restoration. Melanie and Marguerite explore the concept of divine feminine power, addressing its importance for women, humanity, and the planet. They discuss the exclusion of inner discovery and spiritual healing in the Bible and highlight the significance of honoring the sacred womb power of women.OutlineMary Magdalene and Mother Mary's significance in healing and spiritual paths.Melanie discusses her personal connection to Mary Magdalene and how it has influenced her work in healing and spirituality.Marguerite shares her experience of losing her mother at an early age and how it has impacted her life and work.Melanie: Mary Magdalene movement gaining steam, restoring her as high priestess.Marguerite: Mary's unveiling newer, scholarship and channeled materials revealing her true nature.Mother Mary's divine feminine power for personal healing and planetary awakening.Marguerite shares personal stories of Mother Mary's presence in her life, including a memorable encounter with a prayer card on a house purchase.Melanie interviews Mary Hanlon, an artist who creates beautiful Black Madonna statues and shares her story of addiction recovery.Melanie shares personal stories of synchronicities involving Mary, highlighting the importance of paying attention to signs and filtering less relevant information.Marguerite emphasizes the personal healing and spiritual acceleration that can be experienced through working with Mary as a mentor, rather than simply worshipping her as a historical figure.Melanie: Divine feminine power is missing from traditional religions, leading to personal, spiritual, and global healing.Marguerite: Reawakening human potential through connection to inner divine feminine power, restoring angelic template.Feminine power, spirituality, and Mary Magdalene's role in empowering women.Melanie and Marguerite discuss false idols of feminine power, including hyper-sexualized media images.Marguerite discusses how society has missed the boat in empowering the feminine, citing examples of oppressive attitudes towards women.Melanie shares research on the benefits of spirituality for mental health, highlighting the importance of connecting with something bigger than oneself.Melanie explains how Mother Mary was protected and trained from birth for her divine role.Melanie discusses the importance of a good upbringing for spiritual growth and healing.Healing through mantras and spiritual practices.Expert emphasizes importance of early childhood bonding for independence and brain development.Colette Shuar, a Hindu saint from India, shared ancient palm leaf manuscripts with US followers, revealing spiritual practices for accessing the Holy Womb chakra.Practices involving mantras and cleansing the womb chakra can lead to healing and spiritual growth.Mary Magdalene and Mother Mary's healing power.Melanie and Marguerite discuss mother line healing and its connection to Hindu tradition.Exercises and reflection questions are provided in the book for readers to connect with the topic.Melanie ponders timeless relevance of Mary Magdalene and Mother Mary, exploring her lineage and symbolism.Marguerite discusses the stream of Divine Feminine nourishment, healing, and empowerment through Mary Magdalene and other Marys, offering a prismatic perspective.Goddess archetypes and spiritual growth through mythology and personal experience.Melanie and Marguerite discuss similarities between goddess systems in different cultures and religions.Steiner claims Mary Magdalene was reincarnation of ISIS, offering model for spiritual ascension.The symbolism and healing power of Mother Mary in various contexts.Isis and Osiris story parallels Mary's death and disciples' gathering, revealing cosmic archetypes.Melanie shares how she used Marguerite's insights to help a long-term client in a powerful and meaningful way.Marguerite appreciates the impact of her conversation and the new medicines that emerge from it.Margaret encourages listeners to buy her book and leave reviews.Links:Marguerite's Book: Secret Life of Mother MarySeven Sisters Mystery School Website: sevensistersmysteryschool.comListen on Spotify  | Listen on Apple Podcasts

You won't find Mary Henlin's extraordinary addiction recovery story anywhere else. From federal arrest and massive physical wounds to getting clean, you will be inspired and in awe of how Mary Magdalene showed up every step of the way. It will leave you asking how Mary Magdelene is alive in your life.Connect with Mary on Instagram @MaryHenlin Shop in her Etsy shopShow Notes:Art, spirituality, and personal growth with an artist.Mary Henlin creates beautiful Black Madonna and dark goddess statues and figurines.Melanie Weller and Mary Henlin reflect on their transformative journey through India, sharing stories of resilience and spiritual growth.Art, addiction, and recovery.In the late 90s, the Mary started their art journey by creating a controversial piece on Mary Magdalene, which led to attention and a scholarship.Mary moved to the Bay Area to study fine art photography at Academy of Art University, where they lived above a DIY music venue and collaborated with artists and musicians.Mary Henlin recounts a harrowing experience at a metal festival in Germany, where they fell off a platform and was rushed to a hospital without their passport or ID.Mary Henlin hitchhiked back to the festival and later learned that the tour promoter had died in a car crash on the autobahn.Mary Henlin describes their experience with opioid addiction, starting with a fractured spine and subsequent surgery, and how they became addicted to prescription painkillers and eventually turned to illegal drugs.Mary Henlin's addiction led to a decline in their academic performance and photography career, and they eventually became bedridden due to their addiction.Addiction, rehab, and recovery.Mary describes their addiction to prescription medication and rehab experience.Mary describes feeling lost and depressed after moving to a new house in a remote area, with numb limbs and a lack of interest in life.Mary's symptoms improve after months, with their hands suddenly pouring sweat in the kitchen.Addiction and recovery in Portland, Oregon.Mary describes feeling numb and disconnected from their 20s due to addiction, leading to feelings of loneliness and isolation.Mary moves out of their parents' house and back into the city, where they face new temptations and old habits.Mary describes their experience with addiction in a small town, including the availability of drugs and the impact on their family.Mary moves to Portland, Oregon to escape their past and find new opportunities, citing the city's reputation for vice and debauchery.Addiction and mental health in Portland, Oregon. Portland, OR has become an "open air asylum" with untreated mental health issues and drug abuse, despite making money from these issues.Melanie Weller asks Mary Henlin about their experience in rehab and the gap between what was offered and what they needed.Addiction, loneliness, and spirituality.Mary Henlin describes their home as "a hoarder house of antique statues and roses" and how it became overtaken by their collection during a time of loneliness and addiction.Mary Henlin shares experiences of being robbed and kidnapped multiple times during this period, highlighting the dangerous and unpredictable nature of their situation.Kidnapping, addiction, and self-harm.Mary Henlin describes being kidnapped and held captive by a man who was a gambling addict, who would force them to give him money and take their business.Mary Henlin eventually escaped and barricaded themselves in their house, feeling traumatized and scared of everyone.Mary Henlin describes experiencing severe foot wounds that were not healing properly, causing intense pain and discomfort.Mary Henlin tried going to the hospital but was unable to receive proper treatment due to lack of insurance and being openly judged for their drug use.Loneliness, addiction, and near-death experiences.Mary struggles with personal issues, interprets crow's death as omen of impending doom.Melanie Weller shares her experience with loneliness and isolation, feeling trapped and unable to ask for help.Arrest, medical care, and legal proceedings.Mary Henlin was arrested by marshals and taken to a federal courthouse, where they were told they faced 10 years in prison.Mary Henlin was taken to a hospital due to their poor health, and was handcuffed to a bed.Melanie Weller describes being handcuffed to a bed and facing federal conspiracy charges, feeling trapped and scared for her life.Mary Henlin recounts being chained and monitored 24/7 in a hospital, feeling violated and traumatized by the medical treatment.Mary Henlin describes being shackled to their hands while in the hospital for a drug overdose, with wounds on their arms and legs that were caused by the shackles.Mary Henlin talks to marshals in the hospital, who are older retired men paid to guard people, starting on day 9 or 10 of their hospitalization.Addiction, recovery, and incarceration.Mary Henlin was advised to resist temptations and turn off human instincts to succeed in a difficult situation.Mary Henlin was placed in a medical ward of jail after 10 days in the hospital, where they experienced pain and discomfort due to a bad back and constant light exposure.Medical care in jail, mental coping mechanisms.Inmate describes challenges with wound care and hygiene in jail.Mary Henlin describes being taken to a dermatology appointment in shackles and jail outfit to receive treatment for bleeding wounds.Mary Henlin found solace in reading "Woman Who Run with Wolves" by Clarissa Pinkola Estes in the jail library.Experiences of meditation and spirituality in solitary confinement.Meditation and reentry into society after prison.Mary Henlin describes their experience in a halfway house after being released from prison, feeling like they were "entering a new world" with people who had been incarcerated for 20 years or more.Mary Henlin found solace in a particular book during this time, which they describe as a "treasure" that helped them feel more grounded and comfortable in their new surroundings.Life in a halfway house after prison.Mary Henlin describes their experience in a halfway house after being released from prison, including the challenges of finding employment and navigating the city while being closely monitored.Mary Henlin struggled to find jobs due to a gap in their employment history and physical limitations caused by a back injury, leading to feelings of defeat and hopelessness.Mary Henlin describes their experience in a halfway house after being released from prison, including the challenges of living with many people and the importance of learning time management and discipline.Mary Henlin meets someone from a recovery group who offers them an affordable room to rent and a week later receives a check for over $5,000 from the auctioneers who had sold their possessions.Loneliness and adapting to life in a halfway house.Mary reflects on their experience in a halfway house, feeling isolated and lonely despite being surrounded by others.As a defendant, Mary describes the challenges of pretrial proceedings, including constant therapy sessions and traveling to the courthouse for UA tests.Addiction, recovery, and legal struggles.Mary Henlin describes their experience in a haunted house job, feeling alive and connected to the Portland community after years of addiction and instability.Mary Henlin mastered a call center job for environmental nonprofits, overcoming employment challenges and rising to the challenge every day to keep their job and support their freedom.Mary Henlin describes their experience with the criminal justice system, including their guilty plea and the emotional impact on their family and relationship with their partner.The judge in Mary Henlin's case was impressed by their perfect attendance and work ethic, and gave them a more lenient sentence than expected.Trauma, art, and probation after a felony conviction.Survivor of traumatic event feels stuck in the present, unable to think about the future.Melanie Weller creates art while on home confinement and probation, finds solace in creativity.Art, spirituality, and personal growth.Mary's art and spiritual practices are intertwined with their living situation, leading to unexpected reunions with past creations and landlords.Mary Henlin discovered Head Tn's work on Instagram and was inspired by her art and connection to goddesses, leading to a shift in how they saw the world and their art.Mary Henlin was passionate about making merry figures and connecting with the world through their art, even while on home confinement and after a year ended, they started walking everywhere in Portland looking for sacred spots to leave their figures.Portland's nickname, roses, and sensory experiences.Mary Henlin describes the city of Portland as having a "magical" atmosphere, with vibrant colors and a sense of community.Mary Henlin reflects on the cultural significance of death rituals and floral displays in a historic cemetery, highlighting the importance of honoring the dead.Healing, creativity, and spirituality after escaping probation.Friendship forms between Mary Elizabeth and Beth, born on same day, share similar birth charts and personalities.Mary Henlin describes feeling watched and judged after leaving a toxic work environment, even after finding freedom and quitting smoking.Mary Henlin creates art and a studio in their closet, inspired by black Madonna statues from around the world.Mary Henlin's Black Madonna figures became popular after they were posted on Instagram, leading to requests for purchases and collaborations with other artists.Mary Henlin started an Etsy shop to sell the figures, but had to balance work as an administrative assistant with creating and shipping the figures.Creating art, trading materials, and mold-making.Melanie Weller shares her passion for creating sculptures and her journey of learning to make larger, more intricate pieces.Mary Henlin received a box of materials from Amber in trade for a pink marry statue, including vintage charms, rhinestones, and dried roses.Mary Henlin created a mold of a vintage Cali statue that Amber had randomly sent them, and used it to make black clay replicas.Art, spirituality, and personal growth.Mary creates sculptures of Mary Magdalene and Santa Muerte, receives commissions and publishing opportunities.Mary was asked to create 30 Santa Muerte statues for a special deluxe edition of a book. They initially felt intimidated by the task but ultimately decided to do it after meditating on it and finding the experience to be encouraging and transformative.Mary’s neighbors unexpectedly wanted to move out, leaving them with a dirt cheap two-bedroom apartment right next door to their old place, allowing them to finally have their own place and art studio after years of renting rooms and struggling to make ends meet.Mary Henlin describes feeling content and happy in their apartment, with a sense of community in Portland, before their job was unexpectedly relocated to Colorado.Mary Henlin decides to pursue their art full-time after a period of stability through Etsy income and commissions, despite initial concerns from their partner and family.Creativity, mental health, and business growth.Melanie Weller appreciates the thoughtfulness and care put into her packages by Mary Beth, which has improved her mental health and ability to focus on her craft.Collaboration with partner and friend leads to business growth and thriving.Healing through creativity and rituals.Mary Henlin values walking and the freedom it provides, having overcome weight gain and mobility issues.Mary Henlin and friend Mary Beth have drying rose operations in their homes, finding it healing and good for their mental health.Melanie Weller highlights the significance of rituals in her creative process, citing their ability to help her stay disciplined and focused.Mary purchases a vintage Mary statue mold from a stranger in Seattle despite reservations about trusting them, driven by an intense dream-like obsession with the mold.Mary Henlin and Mary Beth experimented with making statues using plaster and concrete, but encountered challenges such as mold damage and broken statues in transit.Mary Henlin's dad helped them figure out a better system for making smooth statues, including a stand to hold the mold upside down and a perfect smooth white stone mix.Branding, art, and personal growth.Melanie Weller describes Mary Henlin as a "real-life Mary" and an embodiment of mythological figures like Isis and Osiris, highlighting their personal growth and transformation.The guest's business evolution reflects their inner journey, with Melanie providing a "fly on the wall" perspective.Moving from Portland to Eugene and facing financial challenges.Feeling unsafe in Portland due to drug use and crime.Mary Henlin expresses relief at leaving Portland and gratitude for Mary Beth's continued support.Mary Henlin and others in the art community experienced financial struggles due to slow sales and increased Etsy fees, which caused them to worry about affording a trip to India.Spirituality, healing, and connection with Mary Magdalene.A story of spiritual pilgrimage in India, including encounters with a woman named Tatiana who gifted her a Mary Magdalene doll, and two women who helped her navigate the trails and find her way to her car after an injury.A dream about Mark 15, leading her to reflect on the intersection of Mary Magdalene and Christ's crucifixion.Mary shares her personal story of healing and connection through her dreams and conversations with Melanie Weller.Mary thanks Melanie for holding space for her to share her story and for providing healing before her 43rd birthday.Listen on Spotify  | Listen on Apple Podcasts

Qigong as a nervous system regulation tool.Melanie Weller and Scott discuss Qi Gong as a nervous system regulation tool, with a focus on energy channels and their function in modern exercise. Melanie Weller discovers parallels between her nervous system regulation teachings and traditional Chinese energetic practices, despite politics and cultural shifts in China. Melanie Weller and Scott discuss how art and meditation can become a threat to those in power, citing examples from history.Exercise and its role in modern society. Exercise may not solve the underlying problems of modern society, despite being good for mental health. Scott highlights the importance of exercise for those who are not moving much, citing the potential negative effects of a sedentary lifestyle on the human body. Scott expresses surprise at the high cost of some exercise classes, such as a cycling class in San Francisco, and questions the value of paying for a structured exercise session when a gym membership can provide similar benefits at a lower cost. Idolizing a 20-year-old coach on a bicycle, revealing a lack of connectivity in society.Exercise, loneliness, and vision with a focus on nervous system regulation. Exercise and nature connection can alleviate loneliness and improve mental health. Melanie Weller reflects on the impact of her surroundings on her vision, wondering if living in a different environment would have affected her need for glasses as she ages. Weller's husband's classmate creates makeshift glasses for people in Africa, highlighting the accessibility issue for those without proper vision care. Exercises impact five sensory systems: visual, vestibular, proprioceptive, somatosensory, and interoceptive.Dantian and joint mobility in Qi Gong and Tai Chi. Dantian is a concept in Qi Gong and Tai Chi, referring to a storehouse of qi in the body. Melanie Weller discusses the importance of joint mobility in maintaining body health, citing examples from her visceral mobile mobilization training. Scott explains that stuck qi in joints can cause pain and limit the body's functioning, and provides examples of joint mobility exercises to open up the chi flow.Body movement and energy flow in Chinese philosophy and meditation.Melanie Weller explains how Tai Chi movements can help treat trauma by increasing shock absorption and resolving stuckness in the body. Master Zhang's response to his students' concerns about training after retirement is to continue doing circles, which involves moving the body in various planes to keep the energy flowing. Melanie Weller explains how the Chinese philosophy views the body as consisting of different planes, including the coronal plane, which is involved in movement and posture. Scott discusses the microcosmic orbit meditation practice in the secret meditative tradition, which involves moving awareness up and down the body's energy channels for optimal health and awareness. Weller finds geometric patterns in body & cosmos, connecting alignment to cosmic rhythms.Vedic philosophy and alignment with spirit.Scott discusses alignment with self, family, community, nation, world, and spirit as key to achieving bliss and well-being. Guru's plea for people's rights leads to his death by boiling. Enlightened state is achieved when one aligns with spirit, losing desire for external things. Melanie Weller discusses the concept of contrast in our lives, how it can be both positive and negative, and how it affects our ability to find meaning and pleasure. Weller and Scott explore how seeking pleasure can sometimes lead to more painful experiences, and how finding healthy contrast can help us enjoy life more fully.Spirituality, contrast, and nervous system regulation.Scott suggests that contrast and the contrast of the collective can be soothing to the nervous system, potentially reducing drama in one's life. Scott and Melanie discuss the idea that karma can be manifested in the body and soothed through actions that promote relaxation and reduce stress. Melanie Weller discusses how solar in space weather affects the Earth's electromagnetic field, which can be measured in the vagus nerves, and how this relates to medical astrology and nervous system regulation.Listen on Spotify  | Listen on Apple Podcasts

What we bring to what we see and why. Libra and Aries are opposite energies in one way, but in another way, they are very similar astrologically. Astrology has been so valuable in terms of helping with pattern recognition. There is an interplay between the pattern and what the pattern is doing over and over again. Everything is energy. The fundamental difference in yin and yang is not a pattern.How do you shift your perspective on your story?We are all wired for what is familiar, not what is right for us. Aries and libra are associated with the cingulate gyrus and the amygdala. Chinese medicine associates the kidneys with fear and the interplay between initiating something different and doing what is safe for you. Aries and Libra bring us to two major turning points in our earth's relationship with the rest of the universe and with our sun and the universe. Astrology of the West. Aries and Libra are very different, but they are also very alike. At each equinox, we are moving towards the light or the darkness of the great mystery. Libra is full of baggage.Aries libra interplay and balance.Aries and libra interplay and how they show up in her life and how she is seeing it in her charts right now. The cultural myth that Libra is the one who makes things happen. Letting go of vision boards and manifesting strategies to focus on doing something. Justice is a big word right now. Justice is a puzzle. It's a paradox. As a libra, aries feel like they are often in the balance equally with all the people they care about. Native americans had a strong principle of reciprocity in their culture.Astrology of the West vs. Vedic astrology.Sometimes things can come back into reciprocity or balance if at the moment one side is doing more than the other side. Egyptian and Vedic astrology The parallel energy structures that are held in different patterns by different gods like Jupiter, vishnu, shiva and Dionysus. The astrology of the west and the western way of thinking. If one wants to change the world, they have to change themselves. Astrology can help us do that. Every person on earth goes back to one mother, the mitochondrial eve.High contrast trauma.Our nervous systems are always seeking contrast, but the nervous system will not let you live a boring story story, one without contrast. The universe is always whacking you upside the head with a two by four. War can take people to a different and yet similar kind of edge. Dionysus and the age of terror.Libra scales.For a set of libra scales, there would be four platforms on it versus two, because all humans experience change through alertness, awareness, reward and rest. Nerve firing is a contrast. Aries and libra are the two spots in the zodiac where there are two times of equal balance, the equinox and the full moon. The path to wellness at all levels.The sun is associated with the thalamus. The sun is associated with the thalamus, the center of the brain, and is the relay station for everything. The sun fuses together two elements, hydrogen and helium. Nerve cells in the thalamus are associated with the water that is in all of the cells and that fills all of us. Neurotransmitters break down into water when fired. Full moons are the only two celestial bodies that are here on the earth without the moon to stabilize orbit and regulate the waters.What happens when the neuron fires? A full moon is a chance for everything to have a different stimulus and to clean house and release patterns that have been holding on to. 10 neurotransmitters do 99% of all functions, but it's more about how they cycle through them than how they live statically. Being present with the cycle is what being present is. The hardest thing as a parent is letting the child live out their own karmic journey and not trying to intervene in it. Holding the tension of the opposites is a contrast.Listen on Spotify  | Listen on Apple Podcasts

Pisces rules the feet and foot pain.How saturn moved into pisces and aquarius, and how it caused her mother to come down with foot pain.Which one of the pisces is a stronger one.Every birth chart is designed so that life on earth is designed to be always breaking new ground. Breaking something gets broken in every breakthrough.The challenge is to be both grounded in the mother line and individually added from it, not a state.The importance of finding joy and pleasure in darkness.The new story about darkness is that black holes are the most luminous structures in the universe, that your darkness is your light, and that the darkness isn't scary.The story of the womb of darkness.Darkness is a story that gives enormous power to a very small group of people. It is the womb of light of our birth.Darkness and light became the thing.There is more love in the dark than in the light. Too much light scorches everything, dries everything up, and things become too brittle.Darkness is the space where people rest.Where the darkness showed up as a gift, and where it showed up with opportunity in ways that she used it well or didn't have to repattern later.How she discovered her fascination with darkness.Seeking out the dark. Seeking out the dark in childhood, feeling alone with the universe, retreating to her room with the shades drawn.The pluto signature in the third house of astrology.Our brains live in a little black box and only know the information that it gets from our bodies, eyes, ears.The myth of Persephone, both kidnapped and rescued by Pluto.Being rescued from the story that has mesmerized us for so long about light only light and how that leads to working 24/7 and never being able to rest.Melanie shares her story.Rescuing us from disempowered, disembodied bodies.Isis and osiris, the story of how the stars moved and how Osiris got chopped into pieces as the king of egypt, but came back together.Medicine as an institution has the worst osiris wound.The earth is having its dark night of the soul, and that we are all participating and experiencing that with the earth.The gift of astrology and mythology.Zooming out to the 60,000 foot view is anxiety inducing and inspires purpose. It has been transformative for her own mental health and physical health.Trauma has a creative role in the world.The dark goddesses that are all transformers of trauma, and how they do not try to heal their own trauma.The trauma-free life.The importance of owning our traumas.Trauma is something that comes inside of us and wants to transform us so that we are not the same person we were before it happened.The two primary traumas in her life.The purpose of a doula is to wake us up from thinking we are nouns, not verbs, and to support the birth process.Melanie is a trauma doula.Astrology has been a magic elixir for her, and the stories that go with it have been a framework to help understand what's happening.The black Madonna tarot deck.The power of the dark goddess. Every birth chart is full of darkness. Life is filled with darkness, and the dark goddess invites us into it.The first use of satan in the old testament.Marsha defines darkness as a bigger being over time, but she loves how she redefines darkness and how it is fundamentally held in the nervous system.Dutch teaching systems hold the stories we know and the ones that we haven't yet discovered. Story lives epigenetically in our bodies.Listen on Spotify  | Listen on Apple Podcasts

Exploring the meaning of life.Chronic regional pain syndrome crps, is a leading cause in health crises and trauma, seeing them as messages, not random or divine punishment. The role of purpose in the health crisis. The astrologer Caroline Casey used the phrase, "My dangerous, beautiful assignment," in a conversation with Sophie Strand over a year ago. Setting the stage for the diagnosis. Every life is a compromise with the understanding at the time and the larger understanding of who one is moving into. One day near Christmas, a long cashmere scarf knocked her off balance.How did you become aware of your physical health?She was 55 years old and had broken her right arm four times since she was six, the fifth and last time she broke it. She was working for a private university. She was finally diagnosed with a complex regional pain system called reflex sympathetic dystrophy, or RSD, which is a misfiring of the nervous system. RSD is very mysterious and can start in one part of the body and then spread to others. It is unpredictable. She was fired from her job in her mid 50s.How did you know you needed help?She went to every major medical center in the south face and was all the same thing, a sad diagnosis. She started working with an herbalist and neurofeedback. The first several times she went over a period of months twice a week, she was fascinated by the brainwaves. The flare-ups continued to get more and more infrequent. The four transits beginning at 50 and ending around age 62, beginning with the chiron return and ending at 62 with the chariklo return. Being in the window of the second saturn return. The four transits that are our guidepost and initiators through our 50s, which is the journey when we realize we are on the track. The four yin yang pairs.Connecting back to the bigger picture.As a woman in her early 50s, she relates to how this is unfolding in her own life right now. When she stops thinking about herself, things flow the best. The last time he had a flare-up was in 2010, and only in the last few years has he begun to realize she had lost everything. The framework of how she lives her life. The most devastating betrayals are the ones where the person always knew, but pretended they didn't know. We can't get enough of what we don't really want.Numbing yourself to pain. We live inside a pain body where the payoffs are so large, comfortable and generous that we believe we just have to learn to live with this pain. Success is a way of numbing. The process of breaking her arm five times to avoid her own healing process around her complicated relationship with holidays and holidays. The pattern of breaking one's right arm three times or four times, and how this pattern was fundamentally threatening to her. Broken arms lead to an opening of space for the left hand pass in the right hand. A book of Greek myths, persephone and her journey to the underworld.How do elbows and forearms relate to saturn? The earth rotates one degree on the ecliptic every 72 years, and the Earth rotates by one degree. The average carrying angle of 90 degrees is 72 degrees. Bones, crystals and rocks hold the oldest memories, and there is a whole physiology about how bones connect to the brain. The astrology of her foot fracture was so hilarious. We are all here to see these things and how they happen for us and for the collective vs. to us. Black holes are the most luminous structures in the universe.Listen on Spotify  | Listen on Apple Podcasts