“Oh God, I’m a Wh*re” by Caroline Dunphy

This week’s essay is called, “Oh God, I’m a Whore” and is written by Caroline Dunphy. This essay centers around the often-awkward, often-inconvenient, and often-unexpected circumstances of our gay awakenings. In this case, as a sugar-riddled pre-teen at a sleepover watching the movie Dodgeball. Caroline is an emmy-winning Executive Producer. She’s worked with Trevor Noah, Stephen Colbert, Jodan Klepper, Samantha Bee; she built the video originals slate at Crooked Media from the ground up, and is currently building YouTube’s first late-night show, Outside Tonight with Julian Shapiro-Barnum. Content warning for this week’s episode is: religious trauma. Learn more or submit an essay at ⁠⁠⁠https://www.thealphabetclub.co/⁠⁠⁠ Thank you to ⁠TomboyX⁠ for sponsoring this episode. Use code SHANNON for 15% off for any customer (new or returning) for a single purchase. Follow Caroline Dunphy: Instagram: ⁠⁠@moderndunphy⁠⁠ TikTok: @dundundunphy Website:⁠⁠ ⁠⁠carolinedunphy.com Follow Shannon Beveridge: Instagram: ⁠⁠ ⁠⁠/nowthisisliving⁠⁠ ⁠⁠ Tik Tok: ⁠⁠ ⁠⁠/nowthisisliving⁠⁠ ⁠⁠ Website: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.shannonbeveridge.co⁠⁠⁠⁠ Twitter: ⁠⁠ ⁠⁠ /nowthisisliving⁠⁠ Tumblr: ⁠⁠ ⁠⁠/now-this-is-living⁠⁠ Snapchat: ⁠⁠shannonbeverage ⁠⁠Follow Alphabet Club: Instagram: ⁠⁠/alphabetclubpod⁠⁠ TikTok: ⁠⁠/alphabetclubpod ⁠⁠ Website:⁠⁠ ⁠⁠https://www.thealphabetclub.co/ Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

This week’s essay is called, “I Swear I Love Him” and is written by drag queen, writer, standup, singer, and actor, Pissi Myles. We love this essay because it isn’t grandiose. It isn’t based in trauma. It is simply a wonderfully sweet love letter and celebration of queer joy. Something we really need right now. Learn more or submit an essay at ⁠⁠https://www.thealphabetclub.co/⁠⁠ Thank you to TomboyX for sponsoring this episode. Use code SHANNON for 15% off for any customer (new or returning) for a single purchase. Follow Pissi Myles: Instagram: ⁠⁠⁠/pissimyles⁠ TikTok: ⁠/pissimyles⁠ Website:⁠⁠ ⁠pissimyles.com Follow Shannon Beveridge: Instagram: ⁠⁠ ⁠/nowthisisliving⁠⁠ ⁠ Tik Tok: ⁠⁠ ⁠/nowthisisliving⁠⁠ ⁠ Website: ⁠⁠⁠https://www.shannonbeveridge.co⁠⁠⁠ Twitter: ⁠⁠ ⁠ /nowthisisliving⁠ Tumblr: ⁠⁠ ⁠/now-this-is-living⁠ Snapchat: ⁠shannonbeverage ⁠ Follow Alphabet Club: Instagram: ⁠/alphabetclubpod⁠ TikTok: ⁠/alphabetclubpod ⁠ Website:⁠ ⁠⁠https://www.thealphabetclub.co/ Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

Alphabet Club is a queer storytelling podcast where every other week week, Shannon Beveridge will curate a personal essay by someone in our community — stories about desire, heartbreak, gender, sex, friendship, family, and becoming. After the reading, we sit with it together. We talk about what it brings up. What it reflects back to us. Each episode will feature a performance of a personal essay followed by an interview with the author and Shannon. Learn more or submit an essay at https://www.thealphabetclub.co/ Follow Shannon Beveridge: Instagram: ⁠⁠ /nowthisisliving⁠⁠ Tik Tok: ⁠⁠ /nowthisisliving⁠⁠ Website: ⁠⁠https://www.shannonbeveridge.co⁠⁠ Twitter: ⁠⁠ /nowthisisliving Tumblr: ⁠⁠ /now-this-is-living Snapchat: shannonbeverage Follow Alphabet Club: Instagram: /alphabetclubpod TikTok: /alphabetclubpod Website: ⁠⁠https://www.thealphabetclub.co/ Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

I'm so grateful Joy kept going when she felt like quitting.. I don't think this is the end but it is a much needed pause. Thank you if you've been here from the start or if you came somewhere after! -Head to https://Greenchef.com/50SHANNON  and use code 50SHANNON to get 50% off your first month, then 20% off for two months with free shipping -Use code “SHANNON” for 20% off your first purchase, only at https://tomboyx.com  -Go to https://Quince.com/ALPHABET to get free shipping and 365-day returns -https://www.skims.com/shannon #skimspartner Extra content on patreon: https://www.patreon.com/c/nowthisisliving  Call/text +1 (213) 775 6258 to be featured in future episodes! Find Joy: https://linktr.ee/joyoladokunhttps://www.instagram.com/joyoladokun/ Find Vanessa: ⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/v_webs/⁠⁠ ⁠⁠ https://keepuporshutup.tumblr.com ⁠⁠Find Rebekah: ⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/rebekah.swann/⁠⁠ ⁠⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@bootscootinbeks⁠⁠ Find me: Instagram: ⁠⁠http://instagram.com/nowthisisliving⁠⁠ Tik Tok: ⁠⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@nowthisisliving⁠⁠ Website: ⁠⁠https://www.shannonbeveridge.co⁠⁠ Twitter: ⁠⁠https://twitter.com/nowthisisliving⁠⁠ Tumblr: ⁠⁠http://now-this-is-living.tumblr.com⁠⁠ Snapchat: shannonbeverage Spotify: Shannon Beveridge current playlist: ⁠⁠https://open.spotify.com/playlist/1sEcVs7YrWCrCpEOKoLzNz?si=7d1bba338e5c42b9 Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

I'm so inspired by Cameron's comedy!! Watch it here! https://www.dropout.tv/cameron-esposito-four-pills/videos/cameron-esposito-four-pills -Use code “SHANNON” for 20% off your first purchase, only at https://tomboyx.com -Go to https://CALM.com/SHANNON for 40% off unlimited access to Calm’s entire library -Sign up for your $1 per month trial and start selling today at https://Shopify.com/alphabet  -Stop putting off those doctors appointments and go to https://Zocdoc.com/SHANNON to find and instantly book a top-rated doctor today.  Extra content on patreon: https://www.patreon.com/c/nowthisisliving  Coach Jackie: https://www.tiktok.com/@jcubedhaxhttps://www.instagram.com/jcubedhax/ Call/text +1 (213) 775 6258 to be featured in future episodes! Find Cameron: https://www.instagram.com/cameronesposito/ https://www.cameronesposito.com/ Find Vanessa: ⁠⁠ https://www.instagram.com/v_webs/⁠⁠ ⁠⁠ https://keepuporshutup.tumblr.com⁠⁠ Find Rebekah: ⁠⁠ https://www.instagram.com/rebekah.swann/⁠⁠ ⁠⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@bootscootinbeks⁠⁠ Find me: Instagram: ⁠⁠http://instagram.com/nowthisisliving⁠⁠ Tik Tok: ⁠⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@nowthisisliving⁠⁠ Website: ⁠⁠https://www.shannonbeveridge.co⁠⁠ Twitter: ⁠⁠https://twitter.com/nowthisisliving⁠⁠ Tumblr: ⁠⁠http://now-this-is-living.tumblr.com⁠⁠ Snapchat: shannonbeverage Spotify: Shannon Beveridge current playlist: ⁠⁠https://open.spotify.com/playlist/1sEcVs7YrWCrCpEOKoLzNz?si=7d1bba338e5c42b9 Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

Pattie is doing work we all should be following! This episode was such a breath of fresh air to film! Practice love every day with Paired, the #1 app for couples. Download the app at https://www.paired.com/SHANNON Go to https://Quince.com/ALPHABET for free shipping on your order and 365-day returns Stop putting off those doctors appointments and go to https://Zocdoc.com/SHANNON to find and instantly book a top-rated doctor today.  Extra content on patreon: https://www.patreon.com/c/nowthisisliving  Call/text +1 (213) 775 6258 to be featured in future episodes! Find Pattie: https://www.instagram.com/pattiegonia/ https://www.pattiegonia.net/tour https://action.outdooralliance.org/a/reconciliation-public-lands-3 https://www.tiktok.com/@pattiegonia https://www.youtube.com/@thepattiegonia https://open.spotify.com/artist/05KFXGAWQkQv7f5lUGgtVD?si=-lZ3wE5KS7O5gYNos2rCDg Find Rebekah: ⁠⁠ https://www.instagram.com/rebekah.swann/⁠⁠ ⁠⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@bootscootinbeks⁠⁠ Find Vanessa: ⁠⁠ https://www.instagram.com/v_webs/⁠⁠ ⁠⁠ https://keepuporshutup.tumblr.com⁠⁠ Find me: Instagram: ⁠⁠http://instagram.com/nowthisisliving⁠⁠ Tik Tok: ⁠⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@nowthisisliving⁠⁠ Website: ⁠⁠https://www.shannonbeveridge.co⁠⁠ Twitter: ⁠⁠https://twitter.com/nowthisisliving⁠⁠ Tumblr: ⁠⁠http://now-this-is-living.tumblr.com⁠⁠ Snapchat: shannonbeverage Spotify: Shannon Beveridge current playlist: ⁠⁠https://open.spotify.com/playlist/1sEcVs7YrWCrCpEOKoLzNz?si=7d1bba338e5c42b9 Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

If you haven't heard LP's music do yourself a favor and go listen.. truly so talented!! Head to https://Greenchef.com/50SHANNON and use code 50SHANNON to get 50% off your first month, then 20% off for two months with free shipping Go to https://Calm.com/SHANNON for 40% off unlimited access to Calm’s entire library. Calm.com / SHANNON Practice love every day with Paired, the #1 app for couples. Download the app at https://www.paired.com/SHANNON Call/text +1 (213) 775 6258 to be featured in future episodes! Find LP: https://www.instagram.com/iamlpofficial/ https://www.iamlp.com Find Rebekah: ⁠⁠ https://www.instagram.com/rebekah.swann/⁠⁠ ⁠⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@bootscootinbeks⁠⁠ Find Vanessa: ⁠⁠ https://www.instagram.com/v_webs/⁠⁠ ⁠⁠ https://keepuporshutup.tumblr.com⁠⁠ Find me: Instagram: ⁠⁠http://instagram.com/nowthisisliving⁠⁠ Tik Tok: ⁠⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@nowthisisliving⁠⁠ Website: ⁠⁠https://www.shannonbeveridge.co⁠⁠ Twitter: ⁠⁠https://twitter.com/nowthisisliving⁠⁠ Tumblr: ⁠⁠http://now-this-is-living.tumblr.com⁠⁠ Snapchat: shannonbeverage Spotify: Shannon Beveridge current playlist: https://open.spotify.com/playlist/1sEcVs7YrWCrCpEOKoLzNz?si=7d1bba338e5c42b9 Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

If you haven't seen Catherine's show Pretty Gay you are missing out! Highly recommend it!! Resources: https://secure.actblue.com/donate/ggrapidresponse https://secure.qgiv.com/for/2025immigrantbondfund/ -Stop putting off those doctors appointments and go to https://Zocdoc.com/SHANNON to find and instantly book a top-rated doctor today -Sign up for your $1 per month trial and start selling today at https://Shopify.com/alphabet -For a limited time go to https://VEGAMOUR.coms/SHANNON, and use code SHANNON to get 20% off your first order -Get your summer savings and shop premium wireless plans at https://MINTMOBILE. com/ shannon Upfront payment of $45 for 3-month 5 gigabyte plan required (equivalent to $15/mo.). New customer offer for first 3 months only, then full-price plan options available. Taxes & fees extra. See MINT MOBILE for details. Call/text +1 (213) 775 6258 to be featured in future episodes! Find Catherine McCafferty: https://www.instagram.com/catherine_mccaff/ https://www.patreon.com/c/PrettyGay Find Rebekah: ⁠⁠ https://www.instagram.com/rebekah.swann/⁠⁠ ⁠⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@bootscootinbeks⁠⁠ Find Vanessa: ⁠⁠ https://www.instagram.com/v_webs/⁠⁠ ⁠⁠ https://keepuporshutup.tumblr.com⁠⁠ Find me: Instagram: http://instagram.com/nowthisisliving⁠⁠ Tik Tok: ⁠⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@nowthisisliving⁠⁠ Website: ⁠⁠https://www.shannonbeveridge.co⁠⁠ Twitter: ⁠⁠https://twitter.com/nowthisisliving⁠⁠ Tumblr: ⁠⁠http://now-this-is-living.tumblr.com⁠⁠ Snapchat: shannonbeverage Spotify: Shannon Beveridge current playlist: ⁠⁠https://open.spotify.com/playlist/1sEcVs7YrWCrCpEOKoLzNz?si=7d1bba338e5c42b9 Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

My episode on Trevi's podcast Six Feet Above: https://youtu.be/u7r_CmxgHSQ?si=hY5_HjBmLhGV5aNX -Start your initial free online visit today at https://forhers.com/SHANNON Individual Results may vary. Compounded products are not FDA-approved or verified for safety, effectiveness, or quality. Prescription required. Price varies based on product and subscription plan. See website for full details, restrictions, and important safety information. -Get 40% off a Calm Premium Subscription athttps://calm.com/SHANNON -Practice love every day with Paired, the #1 app for couples. Download the app at https://www.paired.com/SHANNON Call/text +1 (213) 775 6258 to be featured in future episodes! Find Trevi Moran: https://www.youtube.com/@TreviMoran https://www.instagram.com/TreviMoran https://stem.ffm.to/TreviMoran https://x.com/TreviMoran https://www.tiktok.com/@trevimoran?lang=en Find Vanessa: ⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/v_webs/⁠⁠ ⁠⁠https://keepuporshutup.tumblr.com⁠⁠ Find Rebekah: ⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/rebekah.swann/⁠⁠ ⁠⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@bootscootinbeks⁠⁠ Find me: Instagram: ⁠⁠http://instagram.com/nowthisisliving⁠⁠ Tik Tok: ⁠⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@nowthisisliving⁠⁠ Website: ⁠⁠https://www.shannonbeveridge.co⁠⁠ Twitter: ⁠⁠https://twitter.com/nowthisisliving⁠⁠ Tumblr: ⁠⁠http://now-this-is-living.tumblr.com⁠⁠ Snapchat: shannonbeverage Spotify: Shannon Beveridge current playlist: ⁠⁠https://open.spotify.com/playlist/1sEcVs7YrWCrCpEOKoLzNz?si=7d1bba338e5c42b9 Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

Anj Persad has the best laugh and best vibe, I'm so lucky I got to spend the day with her!! Use code “SHANNON” for 20% off your first purchase, only at https://tomboyx.com Head to https://greenchef.com/50SHANNON and use code 50SHANNON to get 50% off your first month, then 20% off for two months with free shipping Get your summer savings and shop premium wireless plans at https://MINTMOBILE.com/shannonUpfront payment of $45 for 3-month 5 gigabyte plan required (equivalent to $15/mo.). New customer offer for first 3 months only, then full-price plan options available. Taxes & fees extra. See MINT MOBILE for details. Call/text +1 (213) 775 6258 to be featured in future episodes! Find Anj Persad:https://www.instagram.com/anjali.persad/https://www.tiktok.com/@anjalipersaddhttps://www.instagram.com/roundtablegameshow/ Find Vanessa: ⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/v_webs/⁠⁠ ⁠⁠https://keepuporshutup.tumblr.com⁠⁠ Find Rebekah:  ⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/rebekah.swann/⁠⁠ ⁠⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@bootscootinbeks⁠⁠ Find me: Instagram: ⁠⁠http://instagram.com/nowthisisliving⁠⁠ Tik Tok: ⁠⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@nowthisisliving⁠⁠ Website: ⁠⁠https://www.shannonbeveridge.co⁠⁠ Twitter: ⁠⁠https://twitter.com/nowthisisliving⁠⁠ Tumblr: ⁠⁠http://now-this-is-living.tumblr.com⁠⁠ Snapchat: shannonbeverage  Spotify: Shannon Beveridge current playlist: ⁠⁠https://open.spotify.com/playlist/1sEcVs7YrWCrCpEOKoLzNz?si=7d1bba338e5c42b9 Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices