HIDE The HURT

In this episode I discuss my documentary, being a father and letting go of things that make you happy. I also get into how watered down mental health is becoming in the emergency services and the softness that it is creating. Enjoy! Grab My Book "Create Your Own Light": https://www.amazon.com/dp/b0892dp6qj/Follow me on Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/travishowze/Website: www.travishowze.com

In this episode I discuss the consequences to hiding a lifetime of hurt. I go on to talk about people who only want to support you when you're down, not when you're up. Enjoy! Grab My Book "Create Your Own Light": https://www.amazon.com/dp/b0892dp6qj/Follow me on Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/travishowze/Website: www.travishowze.com

I want to start telling more stories from time to time so in this episode, I decided to go off topic and introduce y'all to a man that I am writing about in my next book, my grandfather, D.C. Howze. The toughest of men, D.C. struggled as a family fam and his family resented him for it. No one understood this man like I do now. He simply did the best with what he had at the time. I wish he would have had access to the information and resources that we have today. I'll see you again Grandpa D.C. I love you!I go on to talk about my other grandfather Earl whom I barely knew, naked pictures of your friends' mothers, Barbara Jean Grant the bus driver, cross dressing as a child and more. Grab My Book "Create Your Own Light": https://www.amazon.com/dp/b0892dp6qj/Follow me on Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/travishowze/Website: www.travishowze.com

In this episode I discuss Burnout and Generational Trauma. I go on to talk about the company you keep and Adrenaline fueled Infidelity. Thank you all for being patient with me while I took a much needed six month break. Enjoy! Grab My Book "Create Your Own Light": https://www.amazon.com/dp/b0892dp6qj/Follow me on Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/travishowze/Website: www.travishowze.com

In this episode I discuss the importance of your spouse offering you a soft place to land before you land elsewhere. I also get into self-care, regular wellness maintenance and how exhausting it can be to always be ON. Enjoy!

In this episode I discuss struggling through a heavy depressive episode that won't seem to end. I go on to talk about being human and not having everything figured out but refusing to give up. I also talk about seeking validation from external sources. Enjoy! Grab My Book "Create Your Own Light": https://www.amazon.com/dp/b0892dp6qj/Follow me on Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/travishowze/Website: www.travishowze.comVisit our Sponsor's website www.yourwelder.com or connect with them on social media.facebook.com/yourwelder  and instagram.com/yourwelder

In this episode I talk about the illusion of the First Responder Brotherhood. I go on to talk about the mindset of a young First Responder vs the mindset of a more veteran First Responder and how when you're down, people will rally around you. But when you're up, many of those same people want to see you fail. I also get into the superman vs family man complex. Enjoy! Grab My Book "Create Your Own Light": https://www.amazon.com/dp/b0892dp6qj/Follow me on Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/travishowze/Website: www.travishowze.comVisit our Sponsor's website www.yourwelder.com or connect with them on social media.facebook.com/yourwelder  and instagram.com/yourwelder

In this episode I discuss the feeling of failing when you are winning and the emptiness associated with it. I go on to talk about the harshness of our communication and how it is received by those that are the closest to us. I also talk about the defiant nature of many First Responders and why it's so difficult to simply have fun in life. Enjoy! Grab My Book "Create Your Own Light": https://www.amazon.com/dp/b0892dp6qj/Follow me on Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/travishowze/Website: www.travishowze.comVisit our Sponsor's website www.yourwelder.com or connect with them on social media.facebook.com/yourwelder  and instagram.com/yourwelder

In this episode I discuss the future, being human and changing your path in life regardless of your circumstances. Enjoy! Grab My Book "Create Your Own Light": https://www.amazon.com/dp/b0892dp6qj/Follow me on Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/travishowze/Website: www.travishowze.comVisit our Sponsor's website www.yourwelder.com or connect with them on social media.facebook.com/yourwelder  and instagram.com/yourwelder

In this episode I talk about the optics of life and what people see vs what they dont know. I also talk about why having a fall-back plan is not always the best solution to success. I further discuss being around people that want to see you fail vs succeed and how so many people want to take shortcuts through the very trail that others have blazed vs carving out their own path to success. I go on to explain families experiencing generational trauma and how you're only important to some people when you have something that they want, Enjoy!