Gap Year S7E3 | Identity in the In Between - the Who the Fck Am I? Stage of Evolution

It's been a long time between eps, and a lot has happened. After a whirlwind trip home to Australia, we're now in Chiang Mai, and a dream a few nights ago cracked something wide open for me: I've been feeding the hungry ghost.In Buddhist tradition, the hungry ghost has a vast belly and a mouth the size of a pinhole, so no matter how much she consumes, she's never full.In this episode:- Why nine back-to-back launches were my way of feeding a hungry ghost (and how burnout finally made me stop)- The four ways we feed the hungry ghost in business, from overgiving and resentment to choking on the sale- Why another program, client or $10,000 more a month will never fill the hole- The flip that changes everything: your hunger was never the problem, it's sacred appetite fed the wrong fuel- The way home: tending the parts that created the hunger, and being held in communityQuestions to sit with:- Which hungry ghost have you been feeding lately?- What conditions are you putting on what you truly value?- What's your true sacred appetite underneath it all?Mentioned in this episode:Gabor Maté, In the Realm of Hungry Ghosts---Big love from warm Chiang Mai,Kylie x __Over trying to feed the hungry ghost in your business? Come sit by the fire and learn to lean into your sacred appetites inside H E A R T H.Hearth is an intimate five-month self devotion circle for rebel and revolutionary healers and helpers who are ready to break free from a lifetime of self-sacrifice, proving their worth and holding everyone else, and say yes to the revolution of choosing themselves first.It's not a program, a course, a framework or a strategy. It's a place to be warmed, welcomed and witnessed. Each week, we gather by the fire for fireside wisdom circles and receiving portals, moving through the five elements of Traditional Chinese Medicine, so you can rest, receive and finally be held, instead of always doing the holding. This is where the hungry ghost finally gets fed.We begin on 23 November, and there are just seven seats by the fire.If you'd like an early invitation, email me at [email protected] and tell me which hungry ghost you've been feeding. I'll send you the link. Early invitations are open until 1 November. Come join us by the fire. Come Say Hi on InstagramDownload your FREE T...

Recorded pre-sunrise on a beach in Da Nang, five days before a quick trip home, before we're back out again for Thailand, Cambodia and Laos.It's been two months since the last episode. Because I made a decision back in Bali to stop doing things out of "should," full stop. Not just the podcast. Business. Life. All of it.114 days since we left Australia, and I'm on the other side of the fear that nearly stopped me from leaving at all. What's waiting there isn't some dramatic transformation. It's been a slower. More spacious. Way softer unfolding into a version of me that doesn't need to fill every hour to feel worthy of it.For the most part, I don't have the words yet to capture this recalibration - of identity, of values, or self devotion so this is a pre-sunrise rambling heart to heart.in this episode:- what happens when you stop doing things out of "should" in business, relationships and life overall- 114 days on the other side of fear, and the slower, more spacious way of living I found there- going unmedicated ADHD cold turkey and what my nervous system had to say about it (the happy surprises and the truth on the emotional ebbs + flows)- my new love for Zumba, my re-united love of weights, and the sand burying ritual the local ladies swear by (it works)- why I'm done 'good girl' performing for anyone, on this podcast or off it __Over trying to feed the hungry ghost in your business? Come sit by the fire and learn to lean into your sacred appetites inside H E A R T H.Hearth is an intimate five-month self devotion circle for rebel and revolutionary healers and helpers who are ready to break free from a lifetime of self-sacrifice, proving their worth and holding everyone else, and say yes to the revolution of choosing themselves first.It's not a program, a course, a framework or a strategy. It's a place to be warmed, welcomed and witnessed. Each week, we gather by the fire for fireside wisdom circles and receiving portals, moving through the five elements of Traditional Chinese Medicine, so you can rest, receive and finally be held, instead of always doing the holding. This is where the hungry ghost finally gets fed.We begin on 23 November, and there are just seven seats by the fire.If you'd like an early invitation, email me at [email protected] and tell me which hungry ghost you've been feeding. I'll send you the link. Early invitations are open until 1 November. Come join us by the fire. Come Say Hi on InstagramDownload your FREE T...

Walking the streets of Da Nang at 7am, two days into acupuncture at the Da Nang Traditional Medicine Hospital, and I can feel my nose again. I can rotate my neck. I haven't been able to do that in years.Turns out a lot of what I thought was just who I am... was a story I'd stopped questioning.This episode is about identity, labels, and what happens when someone quietly tells you the field of possibilities is much larger than you thought.in this episode:- EDS, chronic neck pain, daily headaches - and the unconscious identity I'd built around all of it- What the doctor at Da Nang Traditional Medicine Hospital said that cracked everything open for me, and what it's got me questioning as a result- The nectar - and what it actually feels like when your nervous system finally lets go- Why TCM has no label for EDS or ADHD - and what that made me think- What I noticed watching Da Nang locals at 7am and why we've got it completely back to front- The question I've been sitting with - and taking into client calls ...Which label are you just taking as the full story that could change your life if you let it go? Pick it up. Look at it from every angle. Ask yourself who you'd be without it. __Over trying to feed the hungry ghost in your business? Come sit by the fire and learn to lean into your sacred appetites inside H E A R T H.Hearth is an intimate five-month self devotion circle for rebel and revolutionary healers and helpers who are ready to break free from a lifetime of self-sacrifice, proving their worth and holding everyone else, and say yes to the revolution of choosing themselves first.It's not a program, a course, a framework or a strategy. It's a place to be warmed, welcomed and witnessed. Each week, we gather by the fire for fireside wisdom circles and receiving portals, moving through the five elements of Traditional Chinese Medicine, so you can rest, receive and finally be held, instead of always doing the holding. This is where the hungry ghost finally gets fed.We begin on 23 November, and there are just seven seats by the fire.If you'd like an early invitation, email me at [email protected] and tell me which hungry ghost you've been feeding. I'll send you the link. Early invitations are open until 1 November. Come join us by the fire. Come Say Hi on InstagramDownload your FREE T...

I recorded this one in Ubud on our last day before flying to Vietnam, and I'll be honest - I was procrasta-recording. My brain did not want to do the thing I was supposed to be doing, so I just hit record and let it flow.Thirty days in Southeast Asia. Off Vyvanse cold turkey. Weaning off estrogen at the same time. I genuinely didn't know how this was going to go. Turns out, more okay than I expected - but not without the good, the bad, and the genuinely ugly.why I couldn't bring stimulant medication into Southeast Asia and what I decided to do about itthe 47th birthday breakdown that finally cracked open my ADHD and autism diagnosisthe estrogen-dopamine connection and why perimenopause hit so differently unmedicatedwhy Bali's overstimulating chaos has actually felt more manageable than home didthe push-pull between autistic routine needs and ADHD novelty hunger - and what happens when you feed the starving onesleep, movement, and what a genuinely rested brain feels like after years of not having onethe emotional waves - grief, homesickness, midnight catastrophising - and learning to let them move through without grippinglinks mentioned:Tune in to S3E15 Riding the Perimenopausal + ADHD with Adele Wimsett -> Listen here  Tune in to S5E25 Cosmic Weather Forecast (True Sidereal Solar Return Human Design for Kylie) with Etai Nahary -> Watch on YouTube here or Listen here __Over trying to feed the hungry ghost in your business? Come sit by the fire and learn to lean into your sacred appetites inside H E A R T H.Hearth is an intimate five-month self devotion circle for rebel and revolutionary healers and helpers who are ready to break free from a lifetime of self-sacrifice, proving their worth and holding everyone else, and say yes to the revolution of choosing themselves first.It's not a program, a course, a framework or a strategy. It's a place to be warmed, welcomed and witnessed. Each week, we gather by the fire for fireside wisdom circles and receiving portals, moving through the five elements of Traditional Chinese Medicine, so you can rest, receive and finally be held, instead of always doing the holding. This is where the hungry ghost finally gets fed.We begin on 23 November, and there are just seven seats by the fire.If you'd like an early invitation, email me at [email protected] and tell me which hungry ghost you've been feeding. I'll send you the link. Early invitations are open until 1 November. Come join us by the fire. Come Say Hi on InstagramDownload your FREE T...

I recorded this Gap Year Chronicles episode on the rooftop in Ubud on our final day before flying out to Vietnam, and it came out a level of real + raw I didn't plan. Between an ear infection that kept me out of the water for a week, some big conversations with clients, and a fair amount of my own unravelling, I find myself sitting with a question I haven't been able to shake: who are we when the old version of you stops fitting?If you've ever felt caught between who you were and who you're turning into, gloopy, unmoored, not quite there yet, this one's for you.in this episode:- why identity is never just one thing: genetics, epigenetics, conditioning, and the macro and micro systems that shape who we learn to be- the jar of pickles analogy and why you can't read the label from inside the jar- the natural identity threshold points for women, including puberty, motherhood and perimenopause, and the invitation to be both radically self-responsible and deeply gentle with yourself in those moments- the realisation I had in the shower that I am not a lone wolf at all, and what leaving Australia without my pack has actually felt like- the two trapezes: why the free fall between old identity and new is terrifying and necessary at the same time- why the dissolving, the grieving, and the letting go of old identities is just as valid a part of evolution as the wins __Over trying to feed the hungry ghost in your business? Come sit by the fire and learn to lean into your sacred appetites inside H E A R T H.Hearth is an intimate five-month self devotion circle for rebel and revolutionary healers and helpers who are ready to break free from a lifetime of self-sacrifice, proving their worth and holding everyone else, and say yes to the revolution of choosing themselves first.It's not a program, a course, a framework or a strategy. It's a place to be warmed, welcomed and witnessed. Each week, we gather by the fire for fireside wisdom circles and receiving portals, moving through the five elements of Traditional Chinese Medicine, so you can rest, receive and finally be held, instead of always doing the holding. This is where the hungry ghost finally gets fed.We begin on 23 November, and there are just seven seats by the fire.If you'd like an early invitation, email me at [email protected] and tell me which hungry ghost you've been feeding. I'll send you the link. Early invitations are open until 1 November. Come join us by the fire. Come Say Hi on InstagramDownload your FREE T...

Recorded live on a beach in Candidasa, East Bali.It started as a conversation with a client about magnetism. That feeling when everything is effortless and you're not trying to attract anything, it's just happening.Somewhere on this walk I had a bit of a chiropractic adjustment of the soul.In this episode:Why magnetism isn't a skill you turn on and off, it's a state you're inThe equation that shifted everything: well-resourced = life force energyHow grind culture has us treating self-care as the reward after the work, when actually it IS the workWhy choosing not to move, rest, eat well or play isn't just a wellness miss, it's a "no thank you" to life force energyWhat this looks like for neurodivergent people when effortless magnetism + rejection sensitivity dysmorphia collideA question I want to leave you with on your True Sky HD and effortless magnetismIf you relate to that feeling of effortless radiance, I want to hear from you. __Over trying to feed the hungry ghost in your business? Come sit by the fire and learn to lean into your sacred appetites inside H E A R T H.Hearth is an intimate five-month self devotion circle for rebel and revolutionary healers and helpers who are ready to break free from a lifetime of self-sacrifice, proving their worth and holding everyone else, and say yes to the revolution of choosing themselves first.It's not a program, a course, a framework or a strategy. It's a place to be warmed, welcomed and witnessed. Each week, we gather by the fire for fireside wisdom circles and receiving portals, moving through the five elements of Traditional Chinese Medicine, so you can rest, receive and finally be held, instead of always doing the holding. This is where the hungry ghost finally gets fed.We begin on 23 November, and there are just seven seats by the fire.If you'd like an early invitation, email me at [email protected] and tell me which hungry ghost you've been feeding. I'll send you the link. Early invitations are open until 1 November. Come join us by the fire. Come Say Hi on InstagramDownload your FREE T...

What does it really take to completely change your life? Host Kylie shares the full story of selling up, leaving the country, and slow travelling the world with Mr P, including the fear, the tears, and the moment in an airplane bathroom mirror that made it all real.In this episode:The full behind the scenes of a huge leap of faithWhy the good girl nearly talked her out of the whole thingOff ADHD meds and overstimulated in Bali, and what that actually looks likeWhat the good girl in your business is actually costing youWhy waiting for life force to speak beats creating from "I should"The squirrel incident (yes, really)Ready to rip off the good girl gag? Join me for Good Girls Don't Lead Revolutions __Over trying to feed the hungry ghost in your business? Come sit by the fire and learn to lean into your sacred appetites inside H E A R T H.Hearth is an intimate five-month self devotion circle for rebel and revolutionary healers and helpers who are ready to break free from a lifetime of self-sacrifice, proving their worth and holding everyone else, and say yes to the revolution of choosing themselves first.It's not a program, a course, a framework or a strategy. It's a place to be warmed, welcomed and witnessed. Each week, we gather by the fire for fireside wisdom circles and receiving portals, moving through the five elements of Traditional Chinese Medicine, so you can rest, receive and finally be held, instead of always doing the holding. This is where the hungry ghost finally gets fed.We begin on 23 November, and there are just seven seats by the fire.If you'd like an early invitation, email me at [email protected] and tell me which hungry ghost you've been feeding. I'll send you the link. Early invitations are open until 1 November. Come join us by the fire. Come Say Hi on InstagramDownload your FREE T...

This is it folks! The last episode before Mr P and I head off on our Gen X gap year. I'm sharing the story of how the wild, self-trusting part of me went quiet, what it took to bring her back online, and the pinch-me opportunity that landed in our laps as a result.In this episode:- the 2011 cold call to a New York wellness centre that led to an internship, a house sale, and my whole family on a plane in six weeks- how a conversation with a real estate agent four months ago cracked everything open again- how five months caretaking brand new beachfront villas on a tropical island landed in our laps, and exactly how it happened- the difference between affirming you're a magnet for opportunities versus actually being open and safe enough to receive them- what I'm noticing about women in that mid-life "wait, is this really what I want?" seasonAnd finally, how I'm planning to show up for you on the road!The wild one is not gone. She was just waiting in the wings for me to say "I AM READY!!!".Enjoy x  __Over trying to feed the hungry ghost in your business? Come sit by the fire and learn to lean into your sacred appetites inside H E A R T H.Hearth is an intimate five-month self devotion circle for rebel and revolutionary healers and helpers who are ready to break free from a lifetime of self-sacrifice, proving their worth and holding everyone else, and say yes to the revolution of choosing themselves first.It's not a program, a course, a framework or a strategy. It's a place to be warmed, welcomed and witnessed. Each week, we gather by the fire for fireside wisdom circles and receiving portals, moving through the five elements of Traditional Chinese Medicine, so you can rest, receive and finally be held, instead of always doing the holding. This is where the hungry ghost finally gets fed.We begin on 23 November, and there are just seven seats by the fire.If you'd like an early invitation, email me at [email protected] and tell me which hungry ghost you've been feeding. I'll send you the link. Early invitations are open until 1 November. Come join us by the fire. Come Say Hi on InstagramDownload your FREE T...

Most of us place our order with the universe and then quietly cancel it the moment things get hard.Not dramatically. Just... we stop owning it. Stop speaking it. Stop letting ourselves want it as much.This episode is about what it actually takes to place a crystal clear order and hold the identity of someone who receives it, before it shows up in your reality.This is a solo episode and it's a juicy one. Fresh off the back of S6E32 and the "I am my own solid ground" moment, Kylie goes deeper into the inside out identity shifts that actually change what becomes possible in your life and business.Here's what we get into:why most of us are better at holding ourselves through fear than we are at holding ourselves through joy, ease and desirethe ocean of abundance analogy and why so many of us are holding up a thimblewhat placing a crystal clear order to the universe actually looks likewhy identity shifting is the missing piece that no morning routine, mentor or magic pill can replacethe difference between wanting something and being the woman who receives itwhat your values have to do with all of it and where the gaps are hidingStrategy only is not shifting your business or your life. This one is about the inside out work that does. __Over trying to feed the hungry ghost in your business? Come sit by the fire and learn to lean into your sacred appetites inside H E A R T H.Hearth is an intimate five-month self devotion circle for rebel and revolutionary healers and helpers who are ready to break free from a lifetime of self-sacrifice, proving their worth and holding everyone else, and say yes to the revolution of choosing themselves first.It's not a program, a course, a framework or a strategy. It's a place to be warmed, welcomed and witnessed. Each week, we gather by the fire for fireside wisdom circles and receiving portals, moving through the five elements of Traditional Chinese Medicine, so you can rest, receive and finally be held, instead of always doing the holding. This is where the hungry ghost finally gets fed.We begin on 23 November, and there are just seven seats by the fire.If you'd like an early invitation, email me at [email protected] and tell me which hungry ghost you've been feeding. I'll send you the link. Early invitations are open until 1 November. Come join us by the fire. Come Say Hi on InstagramDownload your FREE T...

There's a version of safety that comes from control. From knowing what's coming, staying in familiar territory, not rocking the boat.And then there's the other kind.The kind that doesn't need circumstances to cooperate. The kind that doesn't need the external world to hold still so you can feel okay.This is a solo episode, and it's a personal one. In the middle of one of the biggest life transitions I've made in years, handing back the keys to our family home and preparing to fly out to Southeast Asia for a Gen X gap year, I had a moment in my kitchen that stopped me in my tracks.Heart pounding. Brain spinning. Fear doing its very convincing thing.And then, through the noise, a single clear message: I am my own solid ground.In this episode I share what that moment actually felt like in my body, the stories fear was running to try to keep me stuck, and why your capacity to hold yourself through fear is directly proportional to how much ease, flow and green lights you get to experience on the other side of it.We also talk about:Why fear isn't your enemy, but it will absolutely lie to youWhat happened in the weeks after that kitchen moment (hint: green light, green light, green light)The two "self-care snacks" I keep coming back to when my nervous system is running hotWhat it actually means to be your own solid ground and why that changes everythingThe question I want to leave you with: what would be possible for you if you truly heard that voice?Fear and freedom really are two sides of the same coin. This episode is about learning to hold both. __Over trying to feed the hungry ghost in your business? Come sit by the fire and learn to lean into your sacred appetites inside H E A R T H.Hearth is an intimate five-month self devotion circle for rebel and revolutionary healers and helpers who are ready to break free from a lifetime of self-sacrifice, proving their worth and holding everyone else, and say yes to the revolution of choosing themselves first.It's not a program, a course, a framework or a strategy. It's a place to be warmed, welcomed and witnessed. Each week, we gather by the fire for fireside wisdom circles and receiving portals, moving through the five elements of Traditional Chinese Medicine, so you can rest, receive and finally be held, instead of always doing the holding. This is where the hungry ghost finally gets fed.We begin on 23 November, and there are just seven seats by the fire.If you'd like an early invitation, email me at [email protected] and tell me which hungry ghost you've been feeding. I'll send you the link. Early invitations are open until 1 November. Come join us by the fire. Come Say Hi on InstagramDownload your FREE T...