What I’m carrying this lifetime
Dear Guild Members,
This message will touch right into the heart of why we do what we do here. If you have a blog or social and any part of this resonates, feel free to quote and share. Perhaps it will spark something for you.
I am in Portual on a pilgrimage and this message for us about why I do what do and how it works with Intentional Creativity came forward.
What I am carrying this lifetime. Why it matters. How I share it. And why you don't see me posting about everything that happens. Because I know my call and it is to call you towards your call in a more conscious embodied way.
Many of us search our entire lives to find the deepest medicine that we carry. I know what mine is, and everything you see and hear from me is an extension of that knowing. (link in comments if you would rather listen)
I sat down this morning in the sun for cafe, guided by heart visions to draw an illustration of what it is that I'm carrying this lifetime. What I'm carrying is designed to shed light on what you are carrying.
By carrying, I mean medicine that you came in with this lifetime and living in such a way that this medicine gets expressed.
Until we bring this sacred medicine within each one of us forward, it's as if we're looking for it in every face, in every culture, in every tradition, in every march. Your sacred medicine, what you are carrying is actually at the root of our pursuit for equity and justice. Yet if we don't know what really matters to us, and that we really matter, and that what we're carrying actually matters, it strangely makes us focus more on ourselves.
If we don't know who we are, we're actually more obsessed with ourselves. When we know who we are, then we can begin to express it and live it. And that usually happens at the level of community and organization.
I'm going to make the sharing of this medicine I am carrying as simple as possible.Then for those of you who feel called, I'll be offering an intensive training that is my magnum opus that's called Stardust Bones. That's coming soon. And it's for people who want to become absolutely present and conscious and clear about who they are and what they're doing in this lifetime. It's guided by my heart vision, meaning the intelligence of my heart in relationship with my mind, my gut, my vulva, my hands and my feet, and my identity, all inside of a space called Soul.
You ready to hear what I am carrying? It may spark what you are carrying. Maybe stop what you're doing. Maybe you've heard it all before. Maybe it's your first time. Listen.
There are outside influences that shape the story that happens inside of you, which ends up equaling your Voice. Your Voice is how you speak to yourself from within, the narrative. The narrative that you're running from within, is running your life, period. So when we are aware that the outside influences on consciousness BECOME inside story, that equals Voice. Then we become aware of how family and culture, how economics and media, how politics and health, how education and myth, that equals 'a default identity'
Default identity is what ends up happening when outside influences come and shape us. All of these influences, well meaning or otherwise equal a sort of default identity “Who you ended up being” as a result of these outside influences that you weren't aware of ingesting. Plus how you experience them and how you are shaped by them.
The culture that you live within yourself is often based on the outside influence stories until you choose otherwise. Usually that's when we're rebellious teenagers. But it takes a lot of consciousness and embodiment in order to rescue ourselves from those outside influences. A lot of them were positive, yet even those positive influences were shaped by the often invisible operating paradigm that those adults heaved upon us without their full knowledge or ours.
For most of us, it's not intended to be a solid indoctrination, but that is what it ends up being. A solid indoctrination that we are not aware that we are operating WITHIN that shapes every part of our lives. Take that in.
This influence impacts every relationship we have with lovers, with money, with food, everything. Every relationship we have has been shaped by the story we create from our default identity. When we realize it's up to us to rescue our own Self from the outside influences and the impact on our inside story on identity, then we realize that who we've ended up being was a weaving of a pattern created by influences outside of ourselves without our known consent. And this is actually normal.
This is the human existence. It's not all negative. The outisde influences become negative when we're unconscious of it and when it's in charge of us. Then we bring in... how stories of love and trauma then influence the perspective we have on that inside story. As well as the worldview that we project around us about what's actually going on.
The story of ourselves and the story of the world around us is often shaped unconsciously. I'm here to tell you, you can influence your own consciousness and it does require a cycle of rescue.
How we do make the shift into curating our own consciousness and WHY it works. In our community, we beome conscious through meditation, movement and metacognition. We experience this usually within the framework of a teaching technology, a curriculum, and a pretty giant painting.
There's something that happens when you're confronting these ideas, not as an abstraction in the mind, as a thought, as an energy form, but actually make it in matter.
You're asking the question while moving the brush...How has the media shaped me? And you move the brush and listen.
What stories have I taken on from my parents? And you make dots and listen.
What hidden grief am I carrying about the health, of my family, and my world? And you splash colored paint everywhere.
What are the hidden myths that are secretly operating in my unconscious, all these hidden rooms? And you make little shapes that represent the rooms.
You externalize the internalized narrative. This is Intentional Creativity. During the creative process, you're meditating on it because you're in a flow state. You are being metacognitive because you are observing yourself, observing yourself, right? Metacognition is thinking about thinking. Metacognitive drawing and painting is thinking about thinking with a pen or a brush. And then the movement. You're moving your body across the canvas, selecting the paint, moving the brush, making giant strokes, stepping in, stepping back, turning the canvas. Seems like it's not a lot of movement, but if you've ever done it with me or another IC Teacher for a day, you know that it is.
These three things, meditation, metacognition, and movement. Bringing externalized movement to the canvas brings the the internal narrative and makes it visual. This allows change because the neuroplasticity of the brain and the intelligence of the heart, the healing power of the hands, the power of the feet which move you back and forth without you even thinking about it, because you're in flow state.
The systems of intelligence, the heart, the brain, the gut and the groin brings a space of coherence. Clarity can come in a way that it hasn't come before. Because all of your systems begin to align.
I share this with you today, guided by my own heart vision. That my heart vision is to catalyze those who choose, into your heart vision. For you to see, feel clearly, for you to know and be clear in who you are this lifetime. Even with that amount of trauma that you've had, right alongside the chaos and the undoing, there's this thing called curating consciousness that's guided by the vision of the heart. And it works.
Choosing to Curate your Consciousness, consciously brings you closer into presence, into embodiment. Brings you closer to your sensuality and the highest level of consciousness that's available to you. Brings you closer to your calling.
I've given my life force bringing this sacred technology of self-expression called Intentional Creativity forward. When I express Life Force... then my Life Source, the deep nourishment, then my creative fire gets fueled.
When we work in form, like at a canvas or on the dance floor or in the gardens, we give energy and mind an opportunity to be expressed in matter. This is a very specific chosen happening. It's what I'm here to bring. This is my sacred medicine which is all about your sacred medicine. That's what makes it sacred.
I'm not here to report on politics and the media. I'm not here to make a poster for everything that matters to me. I'm here to focus. This is my focus because I know that those of you who are focused can come into your own sense of self and shape your own identity and curate your own consciousness and hear your own voice clearly. When you can do this you will take action on what matters to you.
A personal story… I remember a long time ago after I had finished domestic violence advocacy training, something happened with a student in one of my onlines classes. I took the training because I was committed to ending violence against women in any way that I could in my lifetime. Then this medicine that I'm carrying now started coming so powerfully. I started working with bigger groups virtually. I remember working with the head of stalking in one of the states here in the United States. And I said to her, I feel like I'm neglecting my station by not working directly with the women who are in survival.
And she said, The leaders who are in survival need you to teach us. I can't do my work to support women in stalking and safety one-on-one if you don't do what you're doing. I need you to do what you're doing so I can do what I'm doing.
This was such a meaningful moment for me. She studied with me for years and shaped the way that she worked within her stalking department. Being stalked was one of my most harrowing experiences in my 20s. So I'm not always on the front lines of whatever thing is going on in the world in the way that people might think I should be. I'm using my gifts in other ways.
Sometimes I reach a thousand, sometimes ten thousands, and sometimes one grandmother calls me. Someone I don't know that I've never met. Someone who sent me clothes, and socks when I was in a fire evacuation. They had just had a shooting event in a place where her grand children were educated and she couldn't think of anything that would make her feel better than just to call me and maybe I might answer and maybe she might hear my voice. And maybe she could paint with me that day and maybe she could then talk to her grandchildren in a different way. I am so glad I picked up the phone.
So it may not always seem like I'm directly addressing all the harm and war and violence that's happening. It's not that I'm spiritually bypassing. It's that I know what my call is. And my call is to guide and support those who are called in hearing their calling.
I love you more than you could ever imagine. It's quantum, yet it's tangible. That is why I am speaking these words. Holding this frequency with you, for you, by you, with earth, for earth, by earth, in earth, with stars, in stars, by the stars. We do have stardust bones, you know, and our bones remember.
May we all remember more. Right now, this lifetime.
With love
Curate Shiloh Sophia
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