Sobriety isn't soft

In this episode, I sit down with my half sister Jessica, the one I didn’t know I had until 23andMe connected us. She shares what it was like growing up with our biological father, and together we unpack the eerie parallels in our childhoods. I may have dodged one bullet, but I took another and somehow, our personalities still mirror each other in ways that feel both genetic and trauma-born. This conversation is raw, enlightening, and full of grace. We talk about childhood abuse, the tools Jessica uses to process her trauma, and why comparing pain never helps because trauma is trauma, and every story deserves space.

In this episode, I share the journey of discovering the man who raised me wasn’t my biological father—and how that truth reshaped my understanding of our relationship. I talk about finding my bio dad through 23andMe, connecting with a half sister, and why the experience brought clarity more than chaos.

I’ve built, fought, and survived — but that voice still whispers “you’re not enough.” This episode dives into imposter syndrome, where it shows up in my life, and the tools I use to shut it down. Remember what works for me might not work for you, but I would love to hear what does work for you when that evil voice pops into your head.

In this episode, I unpack why balance is a myth—and how chasing perfection nearly cost me my health and peace. I share the tools that help me navigate chaos, the priorities I choose daily, and why letting my kids take their time matters more than a spotless house or being on time. If you’ve ever felt behind or messy, this one’s for you.

In this episode, my husband joins me to talk about what it’s really like building a business together, our relationship and navigating the fighter/coach dynamic. We dive deep into how communication—raw, honest, and sometimes messy—has kept our relationship strong through chaos, conflict, and growth.

In this episode, I share the final phase of my recovery—what it took to stay sober, face my trauma, and channel my addictive energy into fitness, nutrition, and self-defense. It’s about owning my triggers, choosing myself, and being proud of the messy, powerful path that got me here.

In this episode, I go deeper into the roots of my addiction—from the verbal abuse I grew up with to the relationships that kept me small. I also share how I met my husband, and how his own sobriety became a lifeline for mine. He joins me to speak on his journey, and the ways we’ve helped each other heal. This is about pain, partnership, and the kind of love that shows up when everything else falls apart.

In this first episode of Embracing the Chaos, I share my story as a recovering alcoholic and why I’m done hiding. This podcast is my space to speak loudly, live messily, and connect with others who are navigating their own chaos. If you’ve ever felt like your truth was too much, this one’s for you.