Manic in Miami

Saul Adamczewski is a British guitarist + singer songwriter (Fat White Family, Insecure Men, The Coward) and fellow sufferer who addresses mental illness, music, and making sense of chaos using the rawness, poignant sincerity, and sardonic humor that make him the colorful character he is today. Timestamps 00:00 backstage: testicular augmentation, big baby porn, et. al.04:28 welcome to manic in miami! new single "alien" 06:35 happiness + morning despair10:26 "core wounds" early life 12:10 ten thousand apologies: pete's cat, edward the hamster, books16:28 diagnosis of mental illness 18:42 gift of intensity + dark moments21:51 saul's psychosis last year 24:34 a whole new world: stealing, addiction, psychedelic cures29:01 crazy musicians33:12 "we're f-ked, Holly, but at least we're beautiful."37:44 Syd Barrett39:40 other people42:50 goodbye + clips from saul's fat white family pub reunion Listen to his new single "Alien" by Insecure Men:https://open.spotify.com/album/61AruJ...  / insecure__men   Manic in Miami Podcast hosted by Holly Hurricanewatch on YouTube if you preferhttps://youtu.be/lHK69SPP6Ic?si=1rkpXXi22nqnVpZ5

republished PART 1 of my 3 part PSYCHOSIS SERIES. Jordan was a successful young dude in Manhattan taking risks and living the dream and somehow straddling the aspiring artist crowd and the aspiring Patrick Batemans. He shares openly about his traumatizing psychotic breaks, so severe that they mimic the psychedelic ego death sought after by aspiring Patrick Batemans in rustic luxury resorts in Latin America. He eventually left all his invaluable possessions in New York for Miami and the rest is...history covered in this podcast...

This is a great episode!!! *yes...sorry, I posted this yesterday, but I couldn't move beyond the tiny glitch at the beginning. I replaced it with a reel, and everyone can deal. and cheel. Special Guest Dr. Scott Fisher, a South Florida psychiatrist specializing in psychedelic research and the support, psychotherapy, and integration elements of psychedelic healing experiences. I describe my ego death experiences. hehe. One during a suicidal bipolar tropical depression. Dr. Fisher joins me for an in-person video podcast to discuss psychedelics and mental health, healing trauma, progressive thoughts on mental illness + the DSM, the role of psychedelics in mental healthcare and the clinical method for psychedelic treatment, among other things. (to participate in psychedelic clinical trials in South Florida) ⁠⁠https://www.segaltrials.com/⁠psychedelics⁠ (guest) https://instagram.com/drscottfisher/ (host) https://instagram.com/hollyhearingthings/ (Multidisciplinary Association for Psychedelic Support) ⁠https://maps.org/homepage/⁠ (Segal Clinical Trials main page) ⁠https://www.segaltrials.com/⁠ a "cause" tangential to 5-MeO-DMT that I am passionate about: https://tucsonherpsociety.org/sdtf/

Details of my most recent hospitalization (released yesterday). And some thoughts, delivered on the occasion of reflection, on personal accountability and responsibility. We must manage ourselves through acute self-awareness and hard-to-swallow pills in various forms. Manic episode switched into dysphoric suicidal ideation, charged by medication non-compliance and triggers. Bipolar affective/schizoaffective bipolar type lyfe.

Update on that psychotic manic bipolar life + my two spoken word to music tracks: Direct Messages too real sexual + demonic demonizing woman eyes sing Satan’s Goddess Psychedelic Retreat in Transylvania Holly Hurricane in Miami recovering from the flu ready to fly into art basel wearing some crazy ass shit. Oops I entered the wrong version of one of my things in the last one! Sorry. Choose your own adventure. https://on.soundcloud.com/sBwZT https://instagram.com/hollyhearingthings/

EMDR is changing my life and my brain. Following my first EMDR short episode and my lighthearted episode on Fearful Avoidant Attachment, here is a brief in-depth description of the process and neurobiological mechanisms at play during therapy. Topics include preparation for EMDR, specifics of a session and the brain changes happening and why it won't work for some people. I do not have Borderline Personality Disorder, which can be a roadblock with EMDR. I have Bipolar Disorder Type 1 and Complex PTSD. https://youtube.com/@manicinmiami?si=F7Fl4X8UlTmcPLsa previous two are the two episodes below this one lol https://www.instagram.com/hollyhearingthings/

People were asking about fearful avoidant attachment after listening to the EMDR episode. Here you go: rainy day activity 8 minutes including a ridiculous literary quote about hugging FA may "get". One little part is taken from my episode "What is The Cure? Thoughts Upon Discharge From the Psych Ward." because it applies here and that's a good episode (Spotify link below or find it on your own) https://open.spotify.com/episode/1CCf0jBhgevF5okWPk6IUP?si=0dd3364d0b514b67

Details of my first EMDR therapy session: how it works. A bit of philosophical/psychoanalytic analysis of children's fantasy movie The Neverending Story (1984) and its place in my EMDR and life lol Disorganized Attachment/Fearful Avoidant Attachment CBT thought stopping Emotional Neglect + Abuse https://manicinmiami.com https://www.instagram.com/hollyhearingthings/ The Neverending Story free full movie: https://www.dailymotion.com/video/x8gen0y

**Timestamps and links below** The return of the psychedelic psychiatrist, Dr. Scott Fisher. How can psychedelics alleviate the symptoms of depression and what is depression? Find Part 1 if you missed it (June 2023). It's really good! Host Holly (Hurricane) took psilocybin the day before recording. If you're in South Florida you can apply to participate in future trials (link below). Timestamps below. https://www.segaltrials.com/ https://manicinmiami.com https://www.instagram.com/hollyhearingthings/ https://www.youtube.com/@manicinmiami Timestamps: (00:00) intro (01:05) What is Depression? (05:56) "I took psilocybin yesterday." + psychedelic trials (08:39) psychedelic journey + possibilities (16:16) psychedelics + psychotherapy interventions (19:30) upcoming psychedelic clinical trials + ending

There's no catch: I had sex with a bipolar disordered Miami man I met through this podcast. It's a confessional episode sharing the most humiliating psychotic act I've committed in the recent past. not including details that would identify this anonymous guy who was never 100% single lol. music used with permission: Surrealist Temple Band + Insecure Men "Suicide Note #1" It's kind of a funny story unless you're me! triggers: abortion, miscarriage, suicidal ideation, dumb binch on the loose