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113. One Year of Gaslighting & Cyberbullying!

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An anonymous guest was cyberbullied and gaslit by students in his college for an entire year, he shares how this DEEPLY impacted his sense of safety and self!

We also discuss:
fear of eye contact;
understanding trauma response (fight/flight/freeze);
the impact of trauma;
"I am a failure";
self sabotage;
psychosis or gaslighting???;
fear of "going crazy";
PTSD;
sitting with emotions;
coming out after being bullied;
intrusive thoughts;
and SO much more!

Recorded Dec 15, 2020 & Aug 6, 2021.

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