Eidolon DISCO #49: Life During Wartime

I was sitting and waiting Just thinking, contemplating My life when I heard the phone I picked up the receiver And I did not believe her When I heard a voice say you're not alone When I am down and I am blue All I have to do Is close my eyes and think of you And the world is new Oh, life was getting hectic And things were unexpected When I first received your call But now it is the best thing That filled up what was missing And now my life is envied by all When I am down and I am blue All I have to do Is close my eyes and think of you And the world is new CREDITS: Iris Christianson as Haley Holst, RIGHTFUL KING THAT REJECTED HER THRONE Maxie Knightley as Solaris Apogee LVII 4th House, DIPLOMAT TO HUMANITY AND KEEPER OF SACRED LEGENDS Mike Painter as Bob McGovern, ROYAL EMISSARY TO THE LAND OF THE DEAD Zoe Tunnell as Charlie O'Neil, HEIR TO THE USURPER KING AND ROYAL SCRIBE Tyberius Wilson as Maurice Bailey, SECOND WIZARD Crystal Zaslavchik as Naomi Shirogorov, ABDICATING PRINCE Luke Varner as Jordan Rogers, CONQUERING KING AND CONQUERED KING Crystal Zaslavchik as Jack Bailey, HE'S JACK BAILEY Lexi Waltner as Kacey Chambers, ROYAL MAGISTRATE Molly Rhinebeck Regina Rosenthal, SELF-EXILED QUEEN Fabby Garza as KC Cardenas, CAPTAIN OF THE KNIGHTS AND QUEEN CONSORT Crystal Zaslavchik as Jacob Shirogorov, CORONATED PRISONER Tyberius Wilson as Evangeline Bailey, PRINCESS OF THE NEW TOMORROW Luke Varner, Iris Christianson, Fabby Garza, Maxie Knightley, Mike Painter, and Crystal Zaslavchik as The GMs MUSIC BY MAXIE KNIGHTLEY SEASON 3 EDITING BY LUKE VARNER, MOLLY RHINEBECK, MIKE PAINTER, CRYSTAL ZASLAVCHIK, AND IRIS CHRISTIANSON BASED ON EIDOLON: BECOME YOUR BEST SELF, SECOND EDITION, BY LUKE VARNER AND MOLLY RHINEBECK AND THUS, THE FINAL PAGE OF EIDOLON DISCO/EIDOLON SKA HAS BEEN REACHED. THE BOOK HAS NOT BEEN CLOSED, FOR IT HAS NO BACK COVER. WORDS AND SENTENCES, INK AND WOOD PULP, SPIRAL ON INTO INFINITY, STRETCHING EVER FURTHER INTO THE DARKNESS, OBTAINING MEANING THROUGH CONTRAST AGAINST THE ENDLESS VOID, WHICH CANNOT FOR ALL ITS OPPRESSIVE DARK AND COLD ENCROACH UPON THE LIGHT OF OUR CAMPFIRE WE SIT AROUND TO TELL THE STORIES OF OUR LIVES. THE ENDLESS WORDS THAT EXTEND BEYOND THE END OF THIS BOOK ARE NOT, HOWEVER, FOR US TO READ. INSTEAD, A NEW NARRATIVE EMERGES FROM THE VOID...

It took all the strength I had not to fall apart Kept tryin' hard to mend the pieces of my broken heart And I spent oh so many nights just feeling sorry for myself I used to cry... but now I hold my head up high! And you see me Somebody new I'm not that chained up little person still in love with you And so you felt like droppin' in and just expect me to be free? Well now I'm saving all my lovin' for someone who's lovin' me! Go on now, go! Walk out the door Just turn around now, 'cause you're not welcome anymore! Weren't you the one who tried to break me with "Goodbye?" Did you think I'd crumble? Did you think I'd lay down and die!? Oh no, not I! I will survive! Oh, as long as I know how to love, I know I'll stay alive! I've got all my life to live, I've got all my love to give, And I'll survive! I WILL SURVIVE! CREDITS: Iris Christianson as Haley Holst Mike Painter as Bob McGovern Fabby Garza as KC Cardenas Tyberius Wilson as Maurice Bailey and ??? Zoe Tunnell as Charlotte "Charlie" O'Neil Molly Rhinebeck as Regina Rosenthal Maxie Knightley as Solaris Apogee LVII 4th House AKA Solo Lexi Waltner as Kacey Chambers Crystal Zaslavchik as Naomi Shirogorov, Jake Shirogorov, and Jack Bailey Jordan Rogers, VOID MOOSE, and Merlin, First Wizard, as The GMs Luke Varner as Jordan Rogers, VOID MOOSE, and Merlin, First Wizard MUSIC BY MAXIE KNIGHTLEY EDITED BY LUKE VARNER CONTENT WARNING: This episode contains existential horror and various depictions of violence.

"I tried to forgive, I tried to live and let live, but..." CREDITS: Crystal Zaslavchik as Jake Shirogorov Molly Rhinebeck as Regina Rosenthal Lexi Waltner as Kacey Chambers Zoe Tunnell as Charlotte "Charlie" O'Neil Maxie Knightley as Solaris Apogee LVII 4th House, AKA Solo Jordan Rogers as the GM Luke Varner as Jordan Rogers MUSIC BY MAXIE KNIGHTLEY EDITED BY MOLLY RHINEBECK AND LUKE VARNER CONTENT WARNING: This episode contains various depictions of violence and body horror.

"Heard of a van that's loaded with weapons, packed up and ready to go..." CREDITS: Mike Painter as Bob McGovern Fabby Garza as KC Cardenas Tyberius Wilson as Maurice Bailey Iris Christianson as Haley Holst Jordan Rogers as The GM Luke Varner as Jordan Rogers MUSIC BY MAXIE KNIGHTLEY EDITED BY MIKE PAINTER CONTENT WARNING: This episode features various forms of violence, including gun violence, knife violence, and vehicular violence.

[Instrumental] CREDITS: Molly Rhinebeck as Regina Rosenthal Maxie Knightley as Solaris Apogee LVII, 4th House Lexi Waltner as Kacey Chambers Zoe Tunnell as Charlotte "Charlie" O'Neil Crystal Zaslavchik as Jake Shirogorov Jordan Rogers as The GM Luke Varner as Jordan Rogers MUSIC BY MAXIE KNIGHTLEY EDITED BY LUKE VARNER AND MOLLY RHINEBECK CONTENT WARNING: This episode contains multiple depictions of suicide and attempted suicide.

"I don't know whether that does you any good, but there's somethin' out there..." CREDITS: Fabby Garza as KC Cardenas Mike Painter as Bob McGovern Tyberius Wilson as Maurice Bailey Luke Varner as Jordan Rogers Haley Holst as The GM Iris Christianson as Haley Holst MUSIC BY MAXIE KNIGHTLEY EDITED BY LUKE VARNER CONTENT WARNING: This episode contains references to suicidality.

"She's an arsonist in her pastime, and I've been burned for the last time." CREDITS: Zoe Tunnell as Charlotte "Charlie" O'Neil Maxie Knightley as Solaris Apogee LVII 4th House AKA Solo Crystal Zaslavchik as Jake Shirogorov Lexi Waltner as Kacey Chambers Molly Rhinebeck as Regina Rosenthal Haley Holst as The GM Iris Christianson as Haley Holst Luke Varner as VOID MOOSE MUSIC BY MAXIE KNIGHTLEY EDITED BY LUKE VARNER CONTENT WARNING: This episode features extensive depictions of heavy relationship drama, as well as indirect references to suicidal thoughts.

“Until we’re back together, I’ll be alone” CREDITS: Tyberius Wilson as Maurice Bailey Fabby Garza as KC Cardenas Luke Varner as Jordan Rogers Mike Painter as Bob McGovern Haley Holst as The GM Iris Christianson as Haley Holst MUSIC BY MAXIE KNIGHTLEY EDITED BY MIKE PAINTER CONTENT WARNING: This episode contains an extended discussion about suicide attempts and suicidal thoughts.

"Why am I never getting lucky?" CREDITS: Lexi Waltner as Kacey Chambers Molly Rhinebeck as Regina Rosenthal Maxie Knightley as Solaris Apogee LVII 4th House AKA Solo Crystal Zaslavchik as Jake Shirogorov Zoe Tunnell as Charlotte "Charlie" O'Neil Haley Holst as The GM Iris Christianson as Haley Holst MUSIC BY MAXIE KNIGHTLEY EDITED BY MOLLY RHINEBECK AND LUKE VARNER

"Now I'm leaving you for the both of us." CREDITS: Mike Painter as Bob McGovern Tyberius Wilson as Maurice Bailey Luke Varner as Jordan Rogers and VOID MOOSE Fabby Garza as KC Cardenas Haley Holst as The GM Iris Christianson as Haley Holst MUSIC BY MAXIE KNIGHTLEY EDITED BY LUKE VARNER