Haven’t Showered, Have Thoughts

I’m talking about being stuck in limbo between jobs, chasing GCSE results from the year 2000, and the very unwelcome experience of having to dig back into records tied to my deadname.

I recorded this at around 3:45am after another broken night of sleep, and it ended up feeling like an old-school podcast episode in the best and worst way, me in the dark, unable to switch off, talking it out because I needed to.

A totally normal episode where work calmly ruins my nervous system and I politely pretend that’s fine.

I didn’t plan to go on a full political rant, but here we are. In this episode, I talk about why I’m feeling so disconnected from the country I live in, the rise in hate, and why I’ve finally joined a political party for the first time.

Recounting a solo London escape, an emotional meet-and-greet with ionnalee, COVID jab curveballs, and a life-changing Monday I can’t talk about… yet

In this one, I explain why I’ve been quiet and set the scene for what’s next, if you want the wider journey and future extras, the links below are where to find me.

In this first raw vlog-turned-podcast, I drop the masks and speak honestly. I talk neurodivergence, nostalgia, creative burnout, disordered eating and the shaky, hopeful act of beginning again

In this raw & sleepy episode, I record from my bed, unloading a cascade of thoughts that hit me whilst I got up for a piss.

I recount my unforgettable night in Runcorn for an NHS sleep study, where I arrived wired for rest but left wired with regret.

In this episode, I reflect on job challenges and frustrations with disability accommodations, expressing a desire to move on. I discuss coping through music and upcoming podcast projects, including a milestone 20 years of podcasting.