Impossible Practice of Awareness

There’s a tribe with no past. No future. No myths. No plans. And no depression. They laugh every day. They don’t ruminate. They’re not chasing anything. They don’t speak about what they haven’t seen. And they may be the happiest people alive.Mind Blind Episode 33: The Pirahã and the Grammar of Peace

The Brilliance That Brought Us to the BrinkOur own brilliance built civilization—but it also built the dreaming and division that now threaten our very existence. In this episode, we uncover the invisible machinery behind it all: language itself.From tribes with no concept of time to how a single word can overwrite reality, we trace how language didn’t just describe the world—it quietly hijacked it. And we explore how seeing through this “spell” might be the key to awakening.Because we’re not seeing what's real...

Confused, Frustrated—and Waking Up!What are all the stages of the spiritual path—and why does stage one feel so maddeningly hard, and maybe even like your failing, at first?In this episode, I reveal why your mind seems to get louder, how pain and frustration can actually be used to wake up, and the one shift you must make to move beyond the beginner stage. If you’ve ever felt trapped in your own head, stuck in looping thoughts, or battling the 'movie in your mind,' this will change how you see it—and how you move through it.

Most people say they want awakening… but they don’t know what it costs. It’s not a better version of you. It's not more control. It’s not just more peace, more clarity. This isn’t self-improvement.This is ego extinction.If that scares you — good.If it calls you — even better.After this episode, join me live for something I haven’t done in over a year:It’s free.It’s public.It’s raw.And if you’re ready…It will change everything.Reserve your spot on the wait list now: https://EgoWorkshop.com

There’s a reason you keep spiraling.It’s not your trauma. It’s not your inner child.And no — it’s not your hip flexors holding unprocessed grief.You’re being sold a lie about emotions.This episode dismantles the feel-good fiction that’s keeping you stuck — and exposes what’s actually going on when you “lose it.”You think you’ve been bottling up emotions.You haven’t.What you’ve been doing is far stranger…and way more destructive.This episode pulls the pin on the feel-good myths you’ve been sold — about trauma, emotions, healing, and what’s really going on inside you.It’s not what you think.And once you hear it…you won’t be able to go back.

You’ve bought the books. Taken the courses.Tried to stay positive. Done everything they told you to do.So why are you still here — tired, disillusioned, and wondering if any of it was ever real?What if the breakthrough you’ve been searching for isn’t found in another method, mantra, or mindset...but in something you’ve been trained not to do?This episode isn’t a pep talk.It’s a turning point — for those who are finally ready to stop pretending they’re not pretending.

What if everything you’ve ever believed about yourself — was just a filing error in the mind? In this raw and riveting episode, Barbara speaks after a heart-cracking glimpse.The words come slowly… fiercely… as she tries to articulate the unspeakable.We talk about truth, thought, and the subtle trap of the “enlightened ego.”And the difference between waking up — and knowing who you are, or Self-Realization.It’s not a theory. It’s not a philosophy.It’s a living recognition.You can’t think this.But once you know and see this…You can't unsee it.Listen to these clips, highlights from our webinar in the Reality Lover Community webinars.

In Episode 26 of Mind Blind, join Barbara and Cindy for another engaging "Conversation that Triggers Conscious Awakening." Have you ever wondered if there's something deeper, simpler, and more immediate than your constant effort to become more present? What if the very notion of "practicing being" misses the point entirely?Tune in as Barbara and Cindy gently peel back layers of subtle mental illusions, nudging listeners toward a surprising and liberating realization. This insightful dialogue will make you question what you believe about attention, reality, and your deepest self—perhaps in ways you've never imagined.

Barbara had a whole story ready. One she believed. One she almost delivered. But something deeper in her was ready to stop — and that’s when everything changed.We've all done this. We suffer, and then we try to make sense of it with thoughts. We narrate. We explain. We defend. But all of that is still the dream.Conscious awakening doesn’t happen when we figure it out. It happens when we stop trying to make the story real — and return to what’s actually here.Listen to this, so the next time you feel yourself burning… before you reach for a reason, a pattern, or a plan—you can notice.And if you’ve slipped, it’s okay. That’s not failure. Knowing that IS the moment you've woken up. Listen how now, because waking up is not hard to do—suffering the dream is.Epsiode 25 ~ Barbara's Burning:

What if the thing hurting you… isn’t what you think?In this episode, we meet Rachel — a woman unraveling in a web of small, subtle betrayals. A dishwasher. A missing towel. A wrong kind of tea. Harmless on the surface. Devastating beneath.Her emotions are real. Her pain is raw.But something else is happening — something no one sees coming.This one goes where most won’t.