Shit's Hard

If you’re in your 20s and thinking about getting a dog - this one’s for you. This past week has been insane. I was watching my best friend's dog this past week when he went into heart failure. It’s been the week from literal hell for her and it’s got me thinking about the dog you get in your 20s. Princess, my 12 yo sheppard,  means everything to me and I’m not ready to let her go. It seems like there is never quite enough time. The love, joy, and simplicity they bring is what makes this pain worth it. Your 20s is such a developmental time where friends, jobs, and cities all change. Your dog is your one constant,always there, always loving you. We can never truly thank them enough for the wet nose kisses, the soft fluffy hugs, or unconditional love they give.

At one point my average screen time was like 6 hours + but that ends now! I feel like my phone has been ruining my life. I would come from work, doom scroll to “decompress” and be left feeling shitter than before. Lately, I’ve been on a journey to spend my time differently. From listing out what I rather do than doom scroll to putting it into practice, I have got my screen time down to 3 ish hours. Although that's not perfect and certainly will change, I feel the benefits already. I’ve been way more creative, motivated to create content, and just overall in a better mood. It finally feels like my days are mine. So buckle in and I'll take you through the how, what, when, and whys so you can take back your days too :)

Ever felt like you’re not “creative” enough? Me too. This episode’s purpose is to prove you and me WRONG. You see everyone is creative, and you disagree you probably haven’t found your medium yet. I also feel like doom scrolling is killing my creative juices. So, I’ve set even stricter limits on my insta and tik tok. I am committed to spending more time exploring my creative outlets and less time overthinking how “uncreative” I am. Just as well, I’d like to share a journal prompt with you, “What have you created that feels like a representation of you?” Share your answers in the comments if you feel so inclined :)

A lot of us think about rowdy boys in grade school when we hear ADHD. Hell, we’ve barely studied anyone other than white males when it comes to ADHD and ADD. My experience has been a little bit different and getting diagnosed as an adult answers a lot of questions from my childhood. This episode is all about my lived experience having ADHD as well as trying medications that did not work for me. If you are curious please tune in, knowing all and well that everyone’s experience is different. If you need help with ADHD testing, behavioral therapy, or medication, reach out to your provider. Also, If you don’t have ADHD or ADD please refrain from minimizing your peer’s symptoms with comments like “oh, that’s not ADHD, everyone has that”. It’s not helpful!

I am working on my continuing education for my CPT and I am loving this cert. I’m taking the Size Inclusive Training module from ACE Fitness and the Be Body Positive Facilitator Training. These training programs pose such a good and controversial question; Is intentional weight loss problematic? Training programs like these are changing the way we think about fitness. By encouraging intuitive eating, intuitive movement, and living intuitively these programs are single handedly dismantling toxic gym culture. If you want help finding sustainable fitness that is in alignment with your body, reach out! I am definitely the trainer for you ;)

I’ve been struggling lately, and I feel like I’ve come to a conclusion that lowkey contradicts this episode…so that’ll probably be the next episode hahaha. For now, I’ve been in a rut. Just went through a break up, doom scrolling is at all time time, and overall feeling lost about my career. I saw a tik tok about a Mind Movie manifesting technique and I was intrigued. It's basically a vision board but in video format. It's all about envisioning what you want for your life and changing the way that you make decisions, spend your time, until you eventually are living the life of your dreams. I had a chat with my friend after this and she mentioned it may be unhelpful to think about yourself so much. I honestly agree, it feels like everyday I ponder where my life is going. So, although I do believe it's good to be selfish and take time to care for yourself, I also think it's a slippery slope into eternal self contemplation. So next week, we’re talking about how we can be of service to others because both are important and fulfilling!

I don’t really feel like recording today tbh. I just got back from a trip and I feel like the idea box is empty. So there it is, that’s my authenticity. I really do struggle to be myself on the internet, I feel like I talk about it a lot on here. So this video is more or less my fix for that issue. I’ve been challenging myself more and more to speak on things and make every video idea I think of. I never want to become click-baity or start doing things for views. But hey, maybe that’s why I’ve got 60 subscribers and not 600k.

Just got back from good ole’ Ohio. Going home is hard with poor family dynamics. Things are certainly different after my sibling went no contact - but honestly I cannot blame them. This trip was busy, indulgent, and triggering. It’s always good to get out of the LA bubble, but to be honest it serves as a reminder of why I left the midwest. In LA, it’s normal to not have a “stable job”, it’s normal to not be married by 35, or to be pursuing a niche passion. Ohio can be a little “go to college, get married, white picket fence” for me. Anyway, come for the trauma dump, stay for the witty humor ;)

What does 50/50 mean to you? What do men bring to the table? What do women bring to the table? If we lean into femininity and masculinity are we contributing to misogyny? I am expanding on my answers to these thought-provoking questions in this episode. We’re digging into financial load, mental load, and emotional load. I had a really good conversation with my boyfriend about this and I am dyinggggg to hear your thoughts. So please leave a comment and tell me what you think!!!

You heard me, CAPITALISM DOESN’T WANT YOU TO HAVE FRIENDS. What do I mean by that? I saw this Tik Tok about capitalism and community the other day and it really got me thinking. We are so ISOLATED as a community, but why? I saw another Tik Tok about people wanting a village but not wanting to be a villager. This got me thinking about how capitalism thrives off of us being disconnected from one another and teaches us to be selfish. They don't want us to have a friend take us to the airport or help us move. Capitalism tells us: You need to get an uber, you need to hire movers, you need to spend more money. As I sit in traffic on the 101 in Los Angeles, I look around and the first 50 cars I see have one person in them. An 8 minute drive turned into 35 minutes because 50 people are riding alone (myself included). It seems silly to me to think how we really normalized isolation and disincentived community building. In this episode, I’m exploring how problematic this is and sharing my solution.