Can You Feel So Now?

Justin Barton interviews his niece Aubrey about her 18+ months as a missionary, where she served, and how her faith deepened. Aubrey, from Snowflake, Arizona, explains being called to the Temple Square Salt Lake City Mission (Spanish-speaking) and later reassigned for a short outbound experience to the Colorado Springs Mission, finishing March 2026 after starting in November 2024. She shares challenges learning Spanish amid many languages, companions from different cultures, and differences in questions asked by tour groups. In Colorado, facing opposition and unfamiliar proselyting, she admits she lacked a firm testimony of the Book of Mormon and gained it through vulnerability, scripture study, prayer, and fasting. She describes faith as taking risks, learning she isn’t an exception to consequences or God’s love, and choosing surrender and trust in God. 00:00 Welcome and Introductions00:22 Aubrey Background and Hobbies00:45 Finding a Love for the Gospel01:29 Mission Call and Reassignment02:46 Spanish at Temple Square04:01 Gift of Tongues in Action05:23 Culture Lessons on Tours08:19 Colorado Springs Growth11:23 Vulnerability and Testimony14:57 Why Serve Without Knowing16:37 Introvert to Missionary Life18:50 Prayer Becomes Personal21:35 Not an Exception25:17 Faith Means Acting30:06 Fasting and Letting Go32:58 Surrender and Trust God36:16 Mission Theme Scripture39:05 Final Counsel Build Testimony40:15 Can You Feel So Now42:46 Spanish Testimony and Farewell

Justin Barton interviews recently returned missionary Lauren Zobell of Mesa, Arizona, who served an English-speaking mission in the Texas Houston Mission from September 23, 2024 to March 10, 2026. Lauren shares how struggles with self-image, anxiety, loneliness, and a painful breakup led her to take “simple” spiritual habits seriously, gain a testimony of the Book of Mormon (especially Alma the Younger), and accept repeated promptings to serve after encouragement from her bishop. She describes lessons from President and Sister McMullen about relying on the Savior’s Atonement, learning to love others through rejection, and strengthening ward members when teaching was slow. Lauren recounts trusting God’s timing in transfers, the challenge of maintaining missionary habits after returning home, the power of temple service, deepened testimony of Joseph Smith and the Restoration, and a conversion story of Don and Joe culminating in their sealing shortly before Don’s death. 00:00 Podcast Welcome00:30 Meet Lauren Zobell01:48 Mission Call Details02:26 Choosing To Serve04:44 Book Of Mormon Spark06:26 Breakup To Belief09:12 Prompting To Go10:42 Leaders Who Lifted12:40 Mission President Theme15:03 Hanging By A Thread17:24 Power Of Prayer19:50 Gods Better Solutions21:54 God’s Timing Revealed23:29 Coming Home Is Hard25:32 Building New Routines26:32 Temple Work Power28:03 Restoration Testimony Grows30:11 Messy Resume and Anxiety32:50 Grace Through Rejection36:57 Don and Joe Conversion41:38 Who God Made Me43:13 Can You Feel Now46:35 Gospel Testimony Closing

Host Justin Barton interviews returned missionary of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, Sam Niles about his mission journey and faith. Sam was assigned to the West Virginia Charleston Mission (June 2023), but an illness in February 2024 led to a service mission after he was diagnosed with cancer, had surgery, and underwent nine weeks of chemotherapy (April–June 2024) followed by recovery. Feeling physically better, he returned to West Virginia, but a remission checkup triggered a trauma response and his mission president advised him to finish as a service missionary; he completed his mission in June 2025. Sam describes moments of peace through prayer, a powerful experience of feeling a divine presence in an ER, meaningful service in the temple and community, lessons about loving others, journaling, overcoming perceived stigma, and centering multiple identities around Jesus Christ. 00:00 Welcome and Introductions00:23 Sam’s Background and Hobbies01:52 Mission Call and Timeline03:20 Cancer Diagnosis and Treatment06:21 Chemo Struggles and Service Work08:48 Temple Service and New Perspective13:20 Returning to West Virginia and Trauma15:38 Atonement and the Empty Chair Moment20:10 Identity After Cancer and Mission Stigma25:45 Learning Prayer and Purifying Motives32:57 Journaling and Loving Leadership37:16 Why Justin Started the Podcast40:54 Final Reflections and Alma 5 Questions48:42 Testimony and Closing

Justin Barton interviews Croft Christensen on the Can You Feel So Now? podcast about his two-year mission for The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, beginning with Spanish training in the Mexico City MTC (Feb–Apr 2024), proselyting in Santiago, Chile (Apr–Dec 28, 2024), and finishing with a service assignment in Spokane, Washington after a hip injury, surgery, and rehab (Dec 2024–Feb 2026). Croft shares his initial peace upon receiving his Chile call, then his struggle, prayer, and fasting as he accepted staying home to serve, drawing on Elder Bednar’s teaching about being called to serve and assigned to a place. He discusses guilt about leaving a trainee, lessons from President Roseland on intentional obedience and serving Christ, differences in accountability as a service missionary, why service missions are equal, and his testimony of scripture study, revelation, Christ’s love, and a change of heart tied to Alma 5:26. 00:00 Welcome and Introductions00:28 Croft Background and Mission Overview01:14 Hobbies and Interests02:00 Mission Timeline and Dates03:02 Opening the Chile Call04:52 Injury and Coming Home06:54 Calling Versus Assignment08:50 Wrestling With Doubt12:46 Staying Connected With Trainee13:55 Lessons From Chile President18:30 Service Mission Differences22:40 Why Choose Service Mission25:05 Mission Call to Action30:16 How the Mission Changed Him34:35 Primary Answers Revisited39:42 Christ Love on His Heart42:19 Alma 5 Can You Feel45:21 Time Machine Self Coaching48:11 Final Testimony and Closing

Justin Barton interviews recently returned missionary of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, Sarah Kropf about serving in the Indonesia, Jakarta Mission from August 2024 to February 2026, teaching primarily in Bahasa. Sarah shares misreading her call as “Indianapolis,” then learning about Indonesia’s many languages and cultures. She describes early loneliness on Bali with only one native companion and how praying for strength to do “one more day,” focusing on small acts of gratitude, and journaling helped her endure. She discusses developing deeper trust in the Lord, relying on prayer throughout daily interactions, and using charity (Moroni 7) to overcome fear and serve others, including companions. Sarah reflects on learning to live with less, teaching Muslims and Hindus about Christ as Savior, assuming love to avoid offense, and feeling hope that “the best is yet to come,” which she plans to carry into life and a possible future in labor and delivery medicine. 00:00 Welcome And Introductions00:34 Meet Sarah Kropf01:19 Mission Call To Jakarta02:44 Language And Culture03:32 Deciding To Serve04:40 Early Struggles In Bali05:56 One More Day Mindset07:38 Gratitude As A Tool09:49 Trusting The Lord12:42 Finding Joy In Third Area14:06 Scripture Focus On Charity16:23 Assume Love Theme18:05 Choosing Not Offense20:29 Life With Less21:45 Grocery Store Shock22:43 Remembering What Matters24:19 Faith Across Religions26:24 Christ As The Constant29:01 Prayer In Real Time32:13 Cultures And Companions33:41 Calling And Core Values36:34 Change Of Heart39:26 Song Of Redeeming Love40:17 Advice To Future Self41:54 Bahasa Testimony And Farewell

Host Justin Barton interviews returned missionary of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, Spencer Sant from Spokane, Washington, about serving in Madagascar from March 2024 to February 2026, including the mission’s split into North and South and the resulting shortage and rapid influx of missionaries that forced accelerated training. Spencer shares how the Lord provided during difficult leadership and language situations early in his mission, and he emphasizes obedience as essential for having the Spirit and converting others, with logic and the Spirit working together in teaching. He discusses key scriptures (2 Nephi 28:30 and Alma 32), rejecting a “checklist” gospel in favor of continual faith and action, and describes trials with a difficult companion that taught boundaries and Christlike love. Spencer explains how praying in Malagasy deepened his relationship with Heavenly Father, how personal study strengthened his testimony of repentance and the Atonement, how he receives revelation as simple “bings,” and how his mission shaped his goals, especially temple marriage, ending with a Malagasy testimony. 00:00 Welcome and Introduction00:18 Meet Spencer Sand01:31 Called to Madagascar02:21 New Mission Growing Pains04:28 When the Lord Provides07:17 Obedience Brings the Spirit11:24 Logic and the Holy Ghost12:40 Line Upon Line Faith21:00 No Coasting After Missions22:35 Hard Companions and Boundaries26:27 Praying to Oh Father28:21 Repentance as a Gift32:51 Future Plans and the Temple35:19 Revelation and Bing Moments38:17 Can You Feel So Now Questions43:40 Testimony in Malagasy Closing

Host Justin Barton interviews Mallory Lybbert about her service in the Washington Spokane Mission in the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints (set apart June 16, 2024; home Nov. 25, 2025) and the mission emphasis on the Doctrine of Christ—faith, repentance, baptism, the Holy Ghost, and enduring to the end—along with “press forward with steadfastness in Christ.” Mallory describes initially not wanting to serve, feeling prompted to go, and being grateful for a stateside call. She shares how faith became recognizing everyday actions as faith, how prayer deepened through listening for revelation and acting on first promptings (including a lawn-mowing contact who was later baptized), and how enduring became “enjoying to the end” and giving “justice to where you are.” She discusses repentance as ongoing change, lessons on exact obedience (including Mosiah 3:1–4), facing grandparents’ deaths near the end of her mission, and bearing testimony of the Restoration, Joseph Smith, and Jesus Christ. 00:00 Welcome and Introductions00:23 Mallory Background and Mission Dates01:12 Mission Theme Doctrine of Christ02:33 Faith Before and After Mission04:01 Deciding to Serve05:44 Opening the Spokane Call06:29 Patriarchal Blessing Fulfilled08:59 Culture Shock and Early Trials10:28 Trainer Lessons for New Missionaries12:29 Prayer and Hearing Answers14:58 Promptings Lead to Baptism17:00 Enduring and Enjoying to the End20:06 Repentance as Daily Change22:31 Hard Moments and Wanting Home23:25 Grief Near Mission End25:03 Blessing and New Perspective26:30 Feeling Christ Through Companionship27:48 Learning Exact Obedience29:25 Obedience After Coming Home31:28 Mission Prep Regrets32:19 Preach My Gospel Breakthrough33:32 Why Doctrine of Christ Matters34:46 Knowing God Loves You35:56 Obedience Turning Point Story40:51 Can You Feel Questions43:12 Coaching Your Future Self45:45 Testimony and Closing

Host Justin Barton interviews Quinlin Haglund, an endurance athlete and organist from Quaker Hill, Connecticut, about serving in the Adriatic North Mission (Slovenia, Croatia, Serbia, Bosnia and Herzegovina, and Montenegro) for the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints from June 2023 to June 2025. Quinlin describes learning Slovene in the MTC, serving his first year in Slovenia (including a branch he attended as a child), then transferring to Zagreb, Croatia, to finish his mission while learning Croatian. He shares emotional struggles with comparison and feelings of failure, and how returning to personal prayer, journaling, and keeping “a song in your heart” (especially “Come, Come Ye Saints”) helped him rely on the Lord. He discusses lessons on agency, the Serenity Prayer, mission themes of obedience guided by the Spirit, Omni 1:26 and consecration, and how the Lord used his media and music skills to produce mission content and organize concerts featuring Alex Sharpe from Celtic Woman. 00:00 Welcome and Introductions00:23 Quinlan Background and Sports01:42 Adriatic North Mission Overview04:08 Languages and Areas Served05:09 Switching Countries and Stress08:12 Doubt and Needing God11:10 Rock Bottom and Comparison15:10 Serenity Prayer Lessons17:30 Prayer and Hymn Strength22:04 Writing as Therapy23:58 Journaling After Mission25:53 Mission President Obedience27:37 Spirit Versus Letter29:25 Omni Verse Deep Dive32:09 Consecration And Calling35:52 Talents In Media Work40:52 Change Of Heart43:33 Song Of Redeeming Love44:54 Advice To Future Self49:12 Testimony In Two Languages

Justin Barton interviews Jamie Fulmer, who grew up in Spokane, later moved to Kansas, is adopted, and loves basketball and playing violin. Jamie shares how he served as a missionary for the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints in the California Los Angeles Mission ("CLAM") from August, 2023 to August, 2025, speaking Spanish after training at the Mexico City MTC. He discusses having two mission presidents who emphasized the doctrine of Christ, what he learned about Latino work ethic ("la chamba"), and how his understanding of daily repentance shifted to turning toward Jesus Christ. Jamie recounts a difficult training assignment with a companion who wanted to go home, and how prayer helped him trust the Lord. He highlights Ether 12 and describes seeing Jesus Christ in the people he served, growing in gratitude and specific prayer, recommitting to temple covenants, ministering, and preparing for future marriage and sealing, then answers Alma 5:26 questions about change of heart and the Song of Redeeming Love. 00:00 Welcome and Guest Intro00:43 Family Adoption and Hobbies01:22 Violin on the Mission02:25 Called to the CLAM04:44 Spanish in Los Angeles06:48 La Chamba Work Ethic08:38 Repentance Reframed10:55 Key Indicators and Sacrament15:44 Hard Transfer as Trainer22:38 Parents and Compassion25:02 Ether 12 and Seeing Jesus28:57 Prayer Growth and Specific Needs31:55 Thy Will and Future Plans37:53 Advice to Future Missionaries39:34 Can You Feel So Now Questions41:49 Time Machine Self Coaching43:14 Spanish Testimony and Farewell

Justin Barton interviews Charlotte Peterson, a BYU student and recently-returned missionary of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints who gave up college running opportunities after feeling prompted to prioritize missionary service. She served from February 12, 2024 to July 22, 2025, initially reassigned to the Florida Fort Lauderdale Mission for five months while awaiting a visa before going to the Zimbabwe Harare Mission. Charlotte shares how fasting shifted her from trying to change God’s will to aligning with it, how Florida taught her obedience and the reality of missionary work in the U.S., and how her mission deepened her relationship with Christ through prayer and the “daily bread” principle. She testifies of enduring discipleship after returning home, and bears testimony of Jesus Christ, the Book of Mormon, and eternal families.00:00 Meet Charlotte Peterson01:07 Running Dreams and Revelation03:06 Mission Call and Reassignment03:59 Language and Companions06:13 Fasting and Trusting God09:50 Lessons from Florida11:41 Obedience from Love15:56 Daily Bread with Christ21:01 Scriptures for Hard Days24:23 Prayer and Hearing God29:57 Prayer Becomes Real31:08 Bearing Your Cross33:12 Joy While Carrying35:16 When It Felt Crushing35:33 Dangerous First Transfer38:03 Prayer Through Hardship39:41 Missionary After Coming Home43:33 Finish Strong Together44:11 Alma 5 Change of Heart46:16 Song of Redeeming Love48:02 Remember in Dark Times50:44 Testimony in Zimbabwe53:27 Final Thanks and Farewell