Rotting Light: When Mercy Becomes Optional

Matthew 5 calls Christians to be salt and light, not in theory, but in visible mercy. This episode reflects on what happens when Catholics choose silence, excuse inaction, or hide behind “nuance” while suffering remains visible. It’s about sanctification, demonization, and the slow deformation that comes when mercy becomes optional.

In this Gospel reflection for Sunday’s reading from Matthew 5, we linger with the opening line of the Beatitudes. Instead of rushing through the list, we slow down and sit with the atmosphere of the mountain and the first words Jesus speaks.What does it mean to be blessed. What does it mean to be poor in spirit. And what is the Kingdom of Heaven that Jesus says already belongs to them.This reflection is not about achieving holiness or spiritual performance, but about making room. About openness, surrender, and the interior posture that allows God to dwell within us.Sometimes Scripture asks us not to move forward, but to stay. To linger long enough for the Word to work.Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the Kingdom of Heaven.

Many Catholics feel spiritually dry or burned out, even while praying often, attending Mass, and practicing multiple devotions.In this episode of St. Anthony’s Tongue, we explore what I call spiritual gluttony. This is the subtle habit of consuming prayers, devotions, and spiritual practices in a way that exhausts us instead of transforming us.This is not a rejection of Catholic devotion. It is an invitation to stop performing and start receiving.We talk about why so many Catholics feel they need to earn the love of God, how prayer can quietly become transactional, and why silence and stillness are essential to the Christian life. We also reflect on the difference between spiritual dryness and spiritual exhaustion, and why many people are not distant from God but simply tired.This episode gently introduces the movement of prayer from vocal prayer to meditation and contemplation, and why devotion is meant to lead to union with God rather than accumulation.You are not broken.You may simply be exhausted.And God is not disappointed in you.Peace be with you.

This reflection began as Mass prep for Sunday’s Gospel (Matthew 4:12–23), but it quickly became something more interior.In this episode, I linger with the moment Jesus interrupts ordinary lives by the Sea of Galilee—calling fishermen who move before they understand, leaving everything behind. We explore interruption and overwhelm not as problems to fix, but as signs of God’s nearness.Drawing from Scripture, the Psalms, and the lives of the saints—especially Mary—we reflect on how God often calls not through explanation, but through Presence. The fear of the Lord, awe, and holy overwhelm are not obstacles to faith, but often its beginning.This is both a Gospel reflection and a mystical meditation for anyone who feels interrupted, unsettled, or overtaken by God.

In this episode, we examine famous quotes commonly attributed to Catholic saints that they never actually said — and what we lose theologically when spiritual language is flattened, mistranslated, or weaponized.From Jacinta of Fatima and Our Lady, to the “Instrument of Peace” prayer attributed to St. Francis, to Catherine of Siena and the meaning of becoming who God meant you to be, we look at how misquotation, translation drift, devotional culture, and modern social media distort the saints’ actual teachings.This is not about debunking devotion, but about recovering the real spiritual depth of the tradition — and learning to read the saints more carefully.Patreon supporters receive a bonus episode on how saints get misquoted and how translation changes theology.Support my work via Patreon at: patreon.com/anthonystongue

What does it mean when John points to Jesus and says, “Behold, the Lamb of God”?In this episode, we enter the quiet mysticism of John 1 and the Baptism of Christ. “Behold” is not a command to analyze or define. It is an invitation to see, to receive, to stand before God rather than explain Him. At the Jordan, Christ is not made divine. He is revealed as the dwelling place of God. The Spirit does not merely appear. He remains. God does not visit. He dwells.This reflection explores how Christ’s baptism reveals the heart of the Incarnation, the removal of separation through self-giving love, the mystery of holy unknowing, and the promise that what dwells fully in Christ is what God longs to share with the human soul. Christianity is not only God with us. It is God within us.

In this episode, I talk about the mystic poets who didn’t just shape my theology—they taught me how to pray. Not the greatest-hits version of Catholic mysticism, but the voices that formed my interior life through poetry, longing, and encounter. We explore why poetry has always been the native language of mysticism, how prayer is shaped more by desire than by technique, and why some of the most transformative saints are remembered for their theology while their poetry is quietly forgotten. Along the way, I reflect on John of the Cross, Jacopone da Todi, Mechthild of Magdeburg, and St. Columba—mystics who wrote about God not as an idea, but as fire, wound, pursuit, exile, and love. This isn’t a how-to on prayer or a list of spiritual habits, rather it's an invitation into a deeper, more contemplative Catholic spirituality, where longing becomes language and love becomes the teacher. For three additional mystics, check out the bonus video on Patreon! patreon.com/anthonystongue

OOPS! This originally only included the final 30 minutes. Here is the full 1hr 45 min version. Yikes. To submit Qs for future Q&As (and get early access and other perks) consider joining our patreon here: www.patreon.com/anthonystongue In this episode, I sit down and respond to a wide range of questions from you all, touching on prayer, confession, Christian mysticism, saints, suffering, hope, conversion, symbolism, and what it actually looks like to live a contemplative life in the middle of ordinary, busy days.Some of these questions are deeply theological. Some are personal. Some are tender and unresolved. All of them are honest.

To submit Qs for future Q&As (and get early access and other perks) consider joining our patreon here: www.patreon.com/anthonystongue In this episode, I sit down and respond to a wide range of questions from you all, touching on prayer, confession, mysticism, saints, suffering, hope, conversion, symbolism, and what it actually looks like to live a contemplative life in the middle of ordinary, busy days.Some of these questions are deeply theological.Some are personal.Some are tender and unresolved.All of them are honest.We talk about things like:Whether God can forgive sins outside the sacrament of confessionHow to discern God’s will in painful, long-held prayersLay mystics and contemplation in ordinary lifeAnointing with oil, candles, and embodied spiritualityLetting go of past spiritual frameworks after conversionSaints, books, music, and the works that shaped me this yearAnd much moreThis is not meant to be consumed all at once.Feel free to pause, skip around, or come back later.Grab a drink. Sit with it. Let it unfold.Thank you for being here, and for trusting me with such thoughtful questions. I’m really grateful for this community.In Him, W.

What does the Nativity reveal about masculinity?In this video, we reflect on St. Joseph and the quiet, contemplative masculinity revealed at the birth of Christ. Against modern ideas of power, dominance, and performance, the Nativity offers something radically different. Strength expressed through tenderness. Authority shown through obedience. Holiness revealed through proximity to a vulnerable God.St. Joseph never speaks in Scripture, yet he stands at the very center of the mystery of the Incarnation. He guards the Child. He listens in the night. He acts without spectacle. In doing so, he shows us a masculinity shaped not by control, but by intimacy with God.This reflection explores the masculine mysticism of Advent and the Nativity, the fear of tenderness in modern Catholic masculinity, and the deeper strength found in silence, vigilance, and mutual gaze with God. We also consider Joseph as an image of the bridal posture of the soul, showing how availability to God can take shape in a man’s life.