Healing From a 20-Year Undiagnosed Eating Disorder with Foster Wilson

Eating disorders don't often look like what you might picture in your mind. We often dismiss what we're going through or experiencing because we're not "too thin" or needing to be hospitalized. But as you’ll hear in today’s episode, you don’t have to look sick to be struggling.I’m joined by Foster Wilson, a poet, postpartum doula, and podcast host whose work bridges creativity, care, and connection. After living with an undiagnosed eating disorder for over 20 years, Foster shares what it was really like to exist in the exhausting, all-consuming cycle of food noise, body shame, and perfectionism - all while appearing “fine” on the outside.Foster’s journey toward recovery began when she finally realized that her so-called “healthy habits” were actually keeping her trapped. Through intuitive eating, nervous system healing, and radical self-compassion, she learned to rebuild trust with her body and redefine what nourishment truly means. In this episode, you'll learn:What it’s really like to live with a “hidden” eating disorderHow perfectionism and people-pleasing fuel food anxiety and controlWhy letting go of food rules feels terrifying — and why that’s a good thingHow nervous system safety and self-compassion support food freedomThe healing power of vulnerability, creativity, and communityIf you’ve ever wondered whether what you’re experiencing “counts” as disordered eating, or you’ve struggled to quiet the mental noise around food, this episode will remind you: you’re not broken, and it’s never too late to heal your relationship with food and your body.Connect with Foster:🎙️ Beauty in the Break podcast 📖 Afternoon Abundance 🌐 www.fosterwilson.com 📸 Instagram🎥 Get Instant Access to my FREE workshop : How To Stop Feeling Obsessed With Food📲 Follow me for daily tips & resources on instagram! @sabrina.magnan.health💌 Get on my Food Freedom Weekly Newsletter here: https://site.sabrinamagnan.com/newsletter/🤝 Ready to get support in healing your relationship with food and your body? Join my signature program, Food Freedom Academy, to have step-by-step guidance, accountability and support. DISCLAIMER: Live Unrestricted and all content shared by Sabrina are for general informational, educational, and entertainment purposes only. Everything you hear is meant to support your relationship with food, not replace professional advice. This podcast is not therapy and Sabrina is not a licensed therapist. Any decisions you make based on this content are your responsibility. For any medical or mental health concerns, always seek guidance from a qualified healthcare professional.

If you've ever spent the weeks before a trip restricting, overexercising, and trying to "clean up" your eating — only to arrive and feel completely out of control around food — this episode is for you.I know what it's like when a vacation creates more food anxiety than genuine excitement. When you're stressing about it WEEKS before you leave, eat in a way that feels chaotic once you're there, and come home already planning how to compensate. The trip is supposed to be the good part. And it's just... exhausting.In this episode, I'm walking you through exactly how I eat while traveling now — as someone who has genuinely healed her relationship with food. From travel days and nervous system regulation, to eating out without anxiety, to eating more than everyone at the table without making it mean anything.I also talk about how I handle coming home — and why "getting back on track" now looks a lot more like slowing down than compensating.This isn't a set of travel eating rules. It's a window into what's possible when food stops being the thing you have to manage, and just becomes… food.🎥 Get Instant Access to my FREE workshop : How To Stop Feeling Obsessed With Food📲 Follow me for daily tips & resources on instagram! @sabrina.magnan.health💌 Get on my Food Freedom Weekly Newsletter here: https://site.sabrinamagnan.com/newsletter/🤝 Ready to get support in healing your relationship with food and your body? Join my signature program, Food Freedom Academy, to have step-by-step guidance, accountability and support. DISCLAIMER: Live Unrestricted and all content shared by Sabrina are for general informational, educational, and entertainment purposes only. Everything you hear is meant to support your relationship with food, not replace professional advice. This podcast is not therapy and Sabrina is not a licensed therapist. Any decisions you make based on this content are your responsibility. For any medical or mental health concerns, always seek guidance from a qualified healthcare professional.

Stephanie had been navigating a complicated relationship with food and her body since she was 15. On the outside, she had it “all together”. She was a teacher, a marathoner, an Ironman athlete - someone who got called disciplined and in control her whole life. For decades, she mostly convinced herself she was okay. But she wasn’t. In this episode, Stephanie shares what four decades of disordered eating and compulsive exercise actually looked like - how it shifted shapes over the years, what finally pushed her to do something different, and what life is like now.She talks about the messy middle of healing: letting go of the habits that kept you safe before anything replaces them. About going out for pizza and wings with friends and just... eating. Focused on the conversation, not the food.And she talks about what she'd say to the woman who's been struggling so long she's quietly stopped believing it gets better."I thought I was going to die with this," she says.She didn't. This one's for the woman who's starting to wonder if she will too.🎥 Get Instant Access to my FREE workshop : How To Stop Feeling Obsessed With Food📲 Follow me for daily tips & resources on instagram! @sabrina.magnan.health💌 Get on my Food Freedom Weekly Newsletter here: https://site.sabrinamagnan.com/newsletter/🤝 Ready to get support in healing your relationship with food and your body? Join my signature program, Food Freedom Academy, to have step-by-step guidance, accountability and support. DISCLAIMER: Live Unrestricted and all content shared by Sabrina are for general informational, educational, and entertainment purposes only. Everything you hear is meant to support your relationship with food, not replace professional advice. This podcast is not therapy and Sabrina is not a licensed therapist. Any decisions you make based on this content are your responsibility. For any medical or mental health concerns, always seek guidance from a qualified healthcare professional.

Have you ever wondered what it’s like to approach food with flexibility, ease and peace of mind?To just…listen to your body, eat what sounds good, and move on with your day?Well, this episode is going to show you! I'm taking you inside my internal world to share how I eat as a recovered disordered eater. Not WHAT I eat, exactly -  but how I think about it. The filters behind my decisions. The difference between choosing from fear and choosing from self-knowledge.I walk through a few days of eating, but the real takeaway isn't the food. It's the mindset behind it. One that took years to build, and that you can build too.In this episode: why the same food choice can come from two completely different places, why "just listen to your body" advice falls flat for so many women, and what it looks like when eating decisions finally become effortless.🎥 Get Instant Access to my FREE workshop : How To Stop Feeling Obsessed With Food📲 Follow me for daily tips & resources on instagram! @sabrina.magnan.health💌 Get on my Food Freedom Weekly Newsletter here: https://site.sabrinamagnan.com/newsletter/🤝 Ready to get support in healing your relationship with food and your body? Join my signature program, Food Freedom Academy, to have step-by-step guidance, accountability and support. DISCLAIMER: Live Unrestricted and all content shared by Sabrina are for general informational, educational, and entertainment purposes only. Everything you hear is meant to support your relationship with food, not replace professional advice. This podcast is not therapy and Sabrina is not a licensed therapist. Any decisions you make based on this content are your responsibility. For any medical or mental health concerns, always seek guidance from a qualified healthcare professional.

Most of us have been there. A hard day, a stressful afternoon, a moment where you're just…done. And before you've made any kind of conscious decision, you're in the kitchen. Eating something you didn't really plan to eat. Sometimes it feels chaotic and out of control.And it helps! For about two minutes. And then it doesn't. And then the guilt shows up, the emotions you were trying to escape come back, and you feel worse than before.If that loop sounds familiar, this episode is going to give you a completely different way to understand it.Because this isn't about willpower. It isn't really about food either. There's actual neuroscience behind why emotional eating feels so impossible to break. And once you understand this, things will start to make a lot more sense.In this episode, we cover:Why you're not actually "addicted to food" and what you're ACTUALLY craving insteadThe trigger–behavior–relief loop that makes emotional eating feel automatic and beyond your controlHow this pattern forms, often starting in childhood, and why it has nothing to do with weaknessWhy food takes up SO much space when it becomes your main source of comfort or reliefWhat the real goal is (hint: it's not better food control)Two journal questions to help you start seeing your own pattern more clearlyIf emotional eating has felt like something that just takes over no matter how hard you try, this episode is going to help you understand why. And that understanding is the beginning of actually changing it.🎥 Get Instant Access to my FREE workshop : How To Stop Feeling Obsessed With Food📲 Follow me for daily tips & resources on instagram! @sabrina.magnan.health💌 Get on my Food Freedom Weekly Newsletter here: https://site.sabrinamagnan.com/newsletter/🤝 Ready to get support in healing your relationship with food and your body? Join my signature program, Food Freedom Academy, to have step-by-step guidance, accountability and support. DISCLAIMER: Live Unrestricted and all content shared by Sabrina are for general informational, educational, and entertainment purposes only. Everything you hear is meant to support your relationship with food, not replace professional advice. This podcast is not therapy and Sabrina is not a licensed therapist. Any decisions you make based on this content are your responsibility. For any medical or mental health concerns, always seek guidance from a qualified healthcare professional.

You know when you’ve had a good stretch? You feel like you’re making progress. Things are quieter around food. You're not thinking about it as much. You’re actually noticing…change. But instead of relaxing into it, you find yourself waiting for it to fall apart. Waiting for the next shoe to drop. One of our Food Freedom Academy members asked me about this recently. She'd been making real progress less than a month in and she said: I keep noticing I'm braced for failure. Is that normal?Yes. And there's a specific reason it happens.In this episode, I'm breaking down why you get pulled back into old patterns right when things start to shift. Your body isn't working against you - it's responding to something unfamiliar. And to your nervous system, unfamiliar and dangerous feel identical, even when one of them is healing.You'll walk away understanding why the discomfort of progress is actually a sign the work is happening, what to do when your old identity starts making noise, and how to stay in the new without retreating to the old.If you've ever had a good stretch and found yourself just waiting for it to end, this one's for you.Follow the show so you never miss an episode, and come find me on Instagram @sabrina.magnan.healthxo, Sabrina🎥 Get Instant Access to my FREE workshop : How To Stop Feeling Obsessed With Food📲 Follow me for daily tips & resources on instagram! @sabrina.magnan.health💌 Get on my Food Freedom Weekly Newsletter here: https://site.sabrinamagnan.com/newsletter/🤝 Ready to get support in healing your relationship with food and your body? Join my signature program, Food Freedom Academy, to have step-by-step guidance, accountability and support. DISCLAIMER: Live Unrestricted and all content shared by Sabrina are for general informational, educational, and entertainment purposes only. Everything you hear is meant to support your relationship with food, not replace professional advice. This podcast is not therapy and Sabrina is not a licensed therapist. Any decisions you make based on this content are your responsibility. For any medical or mental health concerns, always seek guidance from a qualified healthcare professional.

We hear it all the time… “Just be consistent.” “Just stick to the plan.” “Just try harder.”But what if the reason you feel inconsistent, stuck, or like nothing is really clicking… has nothing to do with your effort?In this episode, I'm joined by Courtney Townley, women's health coach, host of the Grace & Grit podcast, and author of The Consistency Code - and we go way deeper than food, workouts, or routines.We talk about what it actually means to be physically, mentally, and emotionally healthy… and why so many women feel like they’re doing everything “right” but still don’t feel good in their lives.We live in a world of "info-besity." There's no shortage of protocols, plans, and programs telling you exactly what to eat, how to move, and who to be. And yet… you're still stuck. Still starting over. Still wondering why it feels so hard. Because real health isn’t about following a perfect plan. It’s about learning how to lead yourself through a life that is constantly changing.And if you’ve been stuck in cycles of starting over, feeling off track, or questioning yourself… this episode is going to completely transform your perspective.In This Episode, We Talk About:Why outsourcing your health keeps pulling you further from yourself — and what to do insteadThe concept of "info-besity" and why more information is not the solutionThe 4-part Consistency Code frameworkWhat self-trust actually is (hint: it's a practice, not a personality trait)Why busyness is often a hiding habit — and what you might really be avoidingThe campfire analogy that will completely reframe how you think about falling off trackWhy you cannot criticize yourself healthy — and what the science says about itThe one small shift you can make today to start unburdening your nervous systemAbout Courtney TownleyCourtney has been helping women take better care of themselves with more consistency and ease for over 20 years. She teaches women how to rebuild their relationship with themselves so they can experience deep health, purpose, and impact. She’s the host of the Grace & Grit podcast and the author of The Consistency Code.Connect With CourtneyWebsite: GraceandgritGrace & Grit with Courtney TownleyInstagram: Instagraminstagram.com/gracegritBook: TheconsistencycodeThe Consistency Code: A Midlife Woman’s Guide to Deep🎥 Get Instant Access to my FREE workshop : How To Stop Feeling Obsessed With Food📲 Follow me for daily tips & resources on instagram! @sabrina.magnan.health💌 Get on my Food Freedom Weekly Newsletter here: https://site.sabrinamagnan.com/newsletter/🤝 Ready to get support in healing your relationship with food and your body? Join my signature program, Food Freedom Academy, to have step-by-step guidance, accountability and support. DISCLAIMER: Live Unrestricted and all content shared by Sabrina are for general informational, educational, and entertainment purposes only. Everything you hear is meant to support your relationship with food, not replace professional advice. This podcast is not therapy and Sabrina is not a licensed therapist. Any decisions you make based on this content are your responsibility. For any medical or mental health concerns, always seek guidance from a qualified healthcare professional.

If you’ve been trying to change your your relationship with food or eating habits… but feel like you keep repeating the same patterns no matter HOW HARD you try, this episode is going to show you why.Because the issue that you don't have enough information or knowledge. The issue is in.... your nervous system.I'm about to share a deeply personal realization I made last week when I noticed that despite journaling, meditating, and “doing all the right things,” I still felt overwhelmed, stuck, and unable to shift certain patterns. I finally realized what I was missing. In this episode, you're going to learn:• Why you can want change deeply but still feel unable to create it• How a chronically stressed nervous system keeps old patterns in place• The subtle signs your body is living in survival mode• Why constant stimulation and busyness make healing harder• The surprising role boredom and stillness play in real changePLUS! At the end of the episode, I'm leaving you with an actionable challenge that's going to help regulate your nervous system, shift out of survival mode, think more clearly and finally start experiencing real change in your relationship with food. 🎥 Get Instant Access to my FREE workshop : How To Stop Feeling Obsessed With Food📲 Follow me for daily tips & resources on instagram! @sabrina.magnan.health💌 Get on my Food Freedom Weekly Newsletter here: https://site.sabrinamagnan.com/newsletter/🤝 Ready to get support in healing your relationship with food and your body? Join my signature program, Food Freedom Academy, to have step-by-step guidance, accountability and support. DISCLAIMER: Live Unrestricted and all content shared by Sabrina are for general informational, educational, and entertainment purposes only. Everything you hear is meant to support your relationship with food, not replace professional advice. This podcast is not therapy and Sabrina is not a licensed therapist. Any decisions you make based on this content are your responsibility. For any medical or mental health concerns, always seek guidance from a qualified healthcare professional.

“What if I’ve dieted for so long that I’ve permanently damaged my metabolism?”This is a question I hear a lot. If you’ve spent years restricting, tracking, cutting carbs, pushing through hunger, over-exercising, … it makes sense that your body doesn’t feel the same anymore.Maybe you’re exhausted.Maybe you’re lifting weights but not building muscle.Maybe you’re barely hungry all day… then ravenous at night.Maybe the second you loosen control, your brain screams, “You’re going to gain everything back.”In this episode, I sit down with Ashley Fillmore - professional nutrition coach, health educator and certified personal training with nearly 20 years of experience helping women heal their metabolism , balance their hormones and achieve body-composition changes that last a lifetime. We talk about:• What “metabolic adaptation” really is • Why chronic restriction down-regulates your metabolism • The difference between intentional healing and chaotic rebound eating • Why swinging from restriction to bingeing feels so awful • Signs your metabolism needs support • And the question everyone is afraid to ask: Is it repairable?This conversation is so compassionate and science-informed. You're going to walk away knowing how to begin supporting your metabolism without obsessively tracking or white-knuckling your way through another plan.Connect with Ashley:Website & Coaching: https://www.metabolicfix.com/onePodcast: https://www.metabolicfix.com/podcasts/cheers-to-your-successInstagram: @ashley_fillmore1Free Phase Assessment Quiz: https://www.metabolicfix.com/phase-quizFree Hormone Assessment and Hormonal Guide: https://www.metabolicfix.com/hormone-quiz🎥 Get Instant Access to my FREE workshop : How To Stop Feeling Obsessed With Food📲 Follow me for daily tips & resources on instagram! @sabrina.magnan.health💌 Get on my Food Freedom Weekly Newsletter here: https://site.sabrinamagnan.com/newsletter/🤝 Ready to get support in healing your relationship with food and your body? Join my signature program, Food Freedom Academy, to have step-by-step guidance, accountability and support. DISCLAIMER: Live Unrestricted and all content shared by Sabrina are for general informational, educational, and entertainment purposes only. Everything you hear is meant to support your relationship with food, not replace professional advice. This podcast is not therapy and Sabrina is not a licensed therapist. Any decisions you make based on this content are your responsibility. For any medical or mental health concerns, always seek guidance from a qualified healthcare professional.

Chances are, that you are already abundantly aware that too much of your worth is attached to your body. Maybe...Your mood changes depending on the number on the scaleYou feel more confident on “good body” days and want to hide on “bad” onesYou believe you’ll finally feel worthy once you lose the weightYou postpone photos, dating, trips, clothes… until you look differentCompliments about your body feel like they give you lifeCriticism about your body feels like a punch to the gutAnd underneath all of that, there’s this quiet belief: “If my body isn’t good enough, I’m not good enough.”This can feel like an incredibly difficult belief to dismantle, especially because it's likely been your driving force for years - or even decades. You could try affirmations all day long, and a thousand people could repeat the phrase "your body is the least interesting thing about you", and yet... that honestly doesn't really help. The sentiment is nice, but at the end of the day, you still feel like your body changing is the worst thing that could ever happen to you. So the natural question is :"how the heck do you ACTUALLY detach your worth from your body?"...in a way that works. That's what we're talking about in this episode. First, we're going to look at the ways in which this belief is actually getting in the way of your goal - which is to create a life of health, happiness, peace, joy and fulfilment. So...we have to rewire that.And then, we're going to talk about how to actually separate your worth from your body: recognizing that your value as a human being is inherent and unchanging, regardless of your size, shape, weight, or how your body looks on any given day.This is suchhhhh a good one! So let's get into it 🎙️🎥 Get Instant Access to my FREE workshop : How To Stop Feeling Obsessed With Food📲 Follow me for daily tips & resources on instagram! @sabrina.magnan.health💌 Get on my Food Freedom Weekly Newsletter here: https://site.sabrinamagnan.com/newsletter/🤝 Ready to get support in healing your relationship with food and your body? Join my signature program, Food Freedom Academy, to have step-by-step guidance, accountability and support. DISCLAIMER: Live Unrestricted and all content shared by Sabrina are for general informational, educational, and entertainment purposes only. Everything you hear is meant to support your relationship with food, not replace professional advice. This podcast is not therapy and Sabrina is not a licensed therapist. Any decisions you make based on this content are your responsibility. For any medical or mental health concerns, always seek guidance from a qualified healthcare professional.