493: Onyx A. revisits

🔸 Nothing I can possibly understand about an abstract fetal part; the root of my anger issues.🎓 What I'd like to do differently: First call at new time slot: 630am (in Vietnam). I stopped offering it after a few months, having become aware of those crafty parts always suggesting any IFS stuff as a fine substitute for my own parts-work. -----🗳 Send anonymous feedback to James: Feedback Form😀Come chat with us: Discord🙏PLEASE help Internal Family Systems reach more people. Subscribe, give a rating, or comment here: ItunesYouTubeHow to leave a review - iPhone👉 Find your ACE score with this one-page questionnaire

🔸 Another version of me that could be with my mother. 🔹 Parts: P: Membrane, buffer. Doing the job of creating another me. Blocking the comparison to another. Needs more time in nature and free expression, free hand doodling for 5 minutes, 5 days. "Open your eyes and really see"P: Gotta find the right thing to work with. Lots of choices, pinball, distract. E: 7-8yrs old. No time for my feelings. Rejected, not enough, disappointing. "I'm not that other kid"🎓 What Christine would like to do differently: Remember to hit record before the call starts!-----🗳 Send anonymous feedback to James: Feedback Form😀Come chat with us: Discord🙏PLEASE help Internal Family Systems reach more people. Subscribe, give a rating, or comment here: ItunesYouTubeHow to leave a review - iPhone👉 Find your ACE score with this one-page questionnaire

🔸 LSD. My partner, my self.🎓 What I'd like to do differently: When I would meet my former business partner on the job site, my first task was to figure out how much he already had to drink. And knowing that, I still couldn't predict how productive we would be. Are we going to get some work done, or am I going to spend my day hiding him from the homeowner and later the cops? I understood my drinking-buddy's drug of choice and how it affected him. But I don't have experience w higher doses of LSD, and I don't know Julian's sober baseline. I dont know which parts are LSD inspired/accessible, and so my abilities feel devalued/moot. I have the hour blocked off, it's not like I don't want to meet with him, but I don't know who I'll be meeting! The right thing to do I suppose is just speak for that, but it's a tough line to walk. Plenty of parts disappointed or frustrated, but I did some good work with them eventually,, and discussed it w Jules. I'm not anti-drugs, or anti- having fun with IFS, but I'd like to do that with mutual intention and agreement. -----🗳 Send anonymous feedback to James: Feedback Form😀Come chat with us: Discord🙏PLEASE help Internal Family Systems reach more people. Subscribe, give a rating, or comment here: ItunesYouTubeHow to leave a review - iPhone👉 Find your ACE score with this one-page questionnaire

🔸 If mom wants to go… 📌 Justine call referenced is #411 -----🗳 Send anonymous feedback to James: Feedback Form😀Come chat with us: Discord🙏PLEASE help Internal Family Systems reach more people. Subscribe, give a rating, or comment here: ItunesYouTubeHow to leave a review - iPhone👉 Find your ACE score with this one-page questionnaire

🔸 Smoke; a solid ally, something to hold on to in a storm. 🎓 What I'd like to do differently: Funky energy today, failing to shift my sleep schedule before going to Vietnam next week. And more tempted to go completely off script working w Christine, like in experimenting w not you-turn today. Why? Cuz what if this type of access is more efficient (or is that a step backwards)? Or a part of me that wants to show my own care for her parts? Or maybe my attention was divided by my own 13-year-old sneak out and smoke parts relating, and because I needed to speak with that part, I was doing that vicariously. -----🗳 Send anonymous feedback to James: Feedback Form😀Come chat with us: Discord🙏PLEASE help Internal Family Systems reach more people. Subscribe, give a rating, or comment here: ItunesYouTubeHow to leave a review - iPhone👉 Find your ACE score with this one-page questionnaire

🔸 At risk all the time. More than validation. -----🗳 Send anonymous feedback to James: Feedback Form😀Come chat with us: Discord🙏PLEASE help Internal Family Systems reach more people. Subscribe, give a rating, or comment here: ItunesYouTubeHow to leave a review - iPhone👉 Find your ACE score with this one-page questionnaire

🔸 Too gay... (nobody likes the critic)📌 The last convo we're referencing was not published. -----🗳 Send anonymous feedback to James: Feedback Form😀Come chat with us: Discord🙏PLEASE help Internal Family Systems reach more people. Subscribe, give a rating, or comment here: ItunesYouTubeHow to leave a review - iPhone👉 Find your ACE score with this one-page questionnaire

🔸 No point in being here anymore-----🗳 Send anonymous feedback to James: Feedback Form😀Come chat with us: Discord🙏PLEASE help Internal Family Systems reach more people. Subscribe, give a rating, or comment here: ItunesYouTubeHow to leave a review - iPhone👉 Find your ACE score with this one-page questionnaire

🔸 Will I be any good at this?-----🗳 Send anonymous feedback to James: Feedback Form😀Come chat with us: Discord🙏PLEASE help Internal Family Systems reach more people. Subscribe, give a rating, or comment here: ItunesYouTubeHow to leave a review - iPhone👉 Find your ACE score with this one-page questionnaire

🔸 I can never grow up🎓 What I'd like to do differently: Glad I got a redo on "change bodies"! It didn’t feel quite right but I was in "you can do anything" mode. -----🗳 Send anonymous feedback to James: Feedback Form😀Come chat with us: Discord🙏PLEASE help Internal Family Systems reach more people. Subscribe, give a rating, or comment here: ItunesYouTubeHow to leave a review - iPhone👉 Find your ACE score with this one-page questionnaire