the Mother in the Dark w— Clark Strand 🌌

“Good Girl” consciousness isn’t a personality trait. It’s actually a rigid, self-righteous construct. It’s a way you’re trying to feel safe, loved and worthy; but truly it kills your desire, alienates you from others, diminishes your creativity and inhibits intimacy.In this episode, grace breaks down how the most common signs the good girl programming are running your nervous system, your relationships, and even your business. She traces where the programming comes from, why it often collapses into martyrdom or control, and what it takes to trade goodness for a more pleasurable, wild wholeness instead.We discuss —(0:33) what good girl consciousness is — a pattern in your nervous system and a paradigm about how the world works(6:55) not feeling “good enough” to want what you want(8:36) being rigid about everyone else’s behavior and beliefs(12:41) believing it’s your job to save others, and resenting those who aren’t trying to “save the world”(15:39) the real point of a spiritual practice is not being a good person(19:34) driven by the fear of being misunderstood and performing so people won’t leave you(33:41) the suffering artist story surrounding your gifts(40:02) pride in hyperindependence and the fear of “wanting too much”If you enjoyed the episode, check out —finding your true Gift 🎁RIP Good Girl 🪦from Judgement to Mystery 🌀Beyond Good & Bad 💫Mentioned in the episode—Join the waitlist for MA 🌹Check out VIRGIN ($77 masterclass) 🐍Send us a message! 💫Free resources —Take grace’s free class EROS : INITIATOR ❤️‍🔥 — Learn what the Erotic actually is, why it's the answer to what's not healing in your life, and who it’s calling you to become — someone delighted and powerfulStay Connected —Subscribe to the podcast wherever you get your listensVisit grace's websiteJoin the newsletter 💌thanks for listening. peace, be well. 🙏

Is uncertainty a feeling, a thought, a condition, or a curse? Is it a beautiful opportunity for wonder or a harrowing reminder of our finitude?In this episode, grace explores and answers these questions with Narinder Bazen — full spectrum death midwife, intuitive counselor, and founder of Nine Keys School of Death Arts.Together, they untangle how death is a sacred portal that pries our fingers from the false grip of certainty. And they remind us that uncertainty is with us every day — allowing presence and serendipity into our lives.Inside —Social norms and the desire for certaintyHow we conflate certainty with healing and feeling safeThe beauty of embracing an ordinary lifeUncertainty as a doorway to miraclesWhy you can be ok — even when ‘the world’s on fire’Creating flexibility in your consciousnessReaching up toward the face of DeathIf you enjoyed the episode, check out —NOW is the Seed for NextThe Initiation Deficit : Part 1More about our guest —Website: narinderbazen.comIG: @narinder.bazen.death.lifeNewsletter: narinderbazen.com/newsletterPodcast: Nine Keys & CoSend us a message! 💫Free resources —Take grace’s free class EROS : INITIATOR ❤️‍🔥 — Learn what the Erotic actually is, why it's the answer to what's not healing in your life, and who it’s calling you to become — someone delighted and powerfulStay Connected —Subscribe to the podcast wherever you get your listensVisit grace's websiteJoin the newsletter 💌thanks for listening. peace, be well. 🙏

Before you experience your full erotic capacity, you have to heal your scripts about intimacy.In this episode, grace is joined by Darshana Avila to discuss why so many adults feel disconnected from their bodies, their partners, and any sense of authentic pleasure.Darshana is a trauma-informed somatic educator, practitioner and international speaker who helps people reconnect with the most essential aspects of themselves — their truth, their desires, and their capacity for profoundly satisfying and genuinely intimate relationships.Inside —Why people pleasing is ruining your relationships — and your sex lifeIdentifying your embodied protectorsSimple practices for somatic orientationWhy so many adults know so little about pleasureHow to figure out what you actually enjoyFinding sensuality in natureWhy consent requires genuine desireIf you enjoyed the episode, check out —R.I.P. Good GirlInitiation Deficit : Part 1Becoming a Lover: the Devotional work of PartnershipMore about our guest —DarshanaAvila.comDeeper with Darshana podcastSend us a message! 💫Free resources —Take grace’s free class EROS : INITIATOR ❤️‍🔥 — Learn what the Erotic actually is, why it's the answer to what's not healing in your life, and who it’s calling you to become — someone delighted and powerfulStay Connected —Subscribe to the podcast wherever you get your listensVisit grace's websiteJoin the newsletter 💌thanks for listening. peace, be well. 🙏

If your spiritual life feels more like a discipline than a joy — and your body feels more like used car than a temple — this podcast episode is for you. Most of us are really familiar with trying to be good, well behaved, and nice as the goal of our gifts and our practices. But what if we could liberate our relationships, intimacy, pleasure, and power instead?In this episode, grace re-introduces the show and explores the liberatory path of erotic devotion.Because when our wounds, fears, and secret desires emerge, they’re not coming up so we can judge ourselves and feel bad forever. They’re coming up so we can burn more brightly and become free.You can only be a true leader and lover from the path of erotic devotion. Tune in to embark on your journey of surrender, empowerment and ecstasy.we discuss —What the erotic is + is notHow to connect with sensuality + intimacyWhy destiny requires desireWays to get out of transaction mode and why that mattersThe paradox of power and surrenderWhy devotion is not about victimhood or obedienceIf you enjoyed the episode, check out —The Transformative Power of Desire & Devotion w— grace allerdice x Erin Kelleyerotic devotion for modern mysticsSend us a message! 💫Free resources —Take grace’s free class EROS : INITIATOR ❤️‍🔥 — Learn what the Erotic actually is, why it's the answer to what's not healing in your life, and who it’s calling you to become — someone delighted and powerfulStay Connected —Subscribe to the podcast wherever you get your listensVisit grace's websiteJoin the newsletter 💌thanks for listening. peace, be well. 🙏

What's underneath the frustration, resentment, guilt and plaguing sense that you're not doing enough to save the world?This un-embodied paradox is probably why your business isn’t working, why your creations don’t have that sparkle, why your mission isn’t moving, your creativity is stagnant, or your relationship is just… ok.Be sure to listen to the end, for a simple and portable embodiment practice to help you ground into the present moment.Send us a message! 💫Free resources —Take grace’s free class EROS : INITIATOR ❤️‍🔥 — Learn what the Erotic actually is, why it's the answer to what's not healing in your life, and who it’s calling you to become — someone delighted and powerfulStay Connected —Subscribe to the podcast wherever you get your listensVisit grace's websiteJoin the newsletter 💌thanks for listening. peace, be well. 🙏

What if you don’t have to “deserve” a beautiful life? But as long as you’re trying to be very, very good… you can’t actually have one?In this episode, grace unravels the false promises of the “good girl” and invites you to release the belief that being good is how you get what you want.Time to break out of good girl jail. Send us a message! 💫Free resources —Take grace’s free class EROS : INITIATOR ❤️‍🔥 — Learn what the Erotic actually is, why it's the answer to what's not healing in your life, and who it’s calling you to become — someone delighted and powerfulStay Connected —Subscribe to the podcast wherever you get your listensVisit grace's websiteJoin the newsletter 💌thanks for listening. peace, be well. 🙏

Judgement and ideology are alive and well everywhere. But what if we left them behind and stepped toward Mystery?Listen in, and learn how to stop avoiding the Mysterious path and find the antidote to separation.We discuss —Why we choose judgement + ideology instead of uncertaintyWhat we’re really craving when we reach for GodHow to embrace the path toward Mystery“Everyone is God in drag.” — Ram DassWhy your body is not better or worse than your spiritHumble stewardship + discerning difference without judgementSend us a message! 💫Free resources —Take grace’s free class EROS : INITIATOR ❤️‍🔥 — Learn what the Erotic actually is, why it's the answer to what's not healing in your life, and who it’s calling you to become — someone delighted and powerfulStay Connected —Subscribe to the podcast wherever you get your listensVisit grace's websiteJoin the newsletter 💌thanks for listening. peace, be well. 🙏

Clark Strand was a Zen Buddhist monk. Now he writes books of love poetry to Kali Ma and manifestos to the Dark.In this conversation, we trace his spiritual path from childhood Protestantism through monasticism and massage school — ultimately leading him into deep devotion to the Divine Mother.Listen in, as we step into the Dark together.We discuss —the many paths of spiritual devotionthe patriarchal traditions of many world religionshow Clark encountered the Divine Motherfeeling safe in the darkwhy Now is the hourhuman civilization vs human culturethe power of simple-hearted devotionwriting poems for Kaliremembering our birdsongMore about our guest —The Way of the Rose.orgWaking Up to the Dark, book by Clark StrandNow is the Hour of Her Return, book by Clark StrandMentioned in the episode —The Gospel of Sri RamakrishnaThe Gospel According to the DarkSend us a message! 💫Free resources —Take grace’s free class EROS : INITIATOR ❤️‍🔥 — Learn what the Erotic actually is, why it's the answer to what's not healing in your life, and who it’s calling you to become — someone delighted and powerfulStay Connected —Subscribe to the podcast wherever you get your listensVisit grace's websiteJoin the newsletter 💌thanks for listening. peace, be well. 🙏

In the second half of our conversation about Initiation, we’ll investigate what happens when we avoid initiation and how to recognize when we’re doing that.We discuss —The difference between spiritually mature individuals who embrace initiation versus those who avoid itHow lack of initiation keeps us stuck in adolescent emotional patternsWhy we struggle to connect with and embody powerful energiesThe importance of death and rebirth cycles in spiritual transformationHow to recognize and respond to initiation when it appears in our livesWhat is really behind the energy of initiation and what it could unlockSend us a message! 💫Free resources —Take grace’s free class EROS : INITIATOR ❤️‍🔥 — Learn what the Erotic actually is, why it's the answer to what's not healing in your life, and who it’s calling you to become — someone delighted and powerfulStay Connected —Subscribe to the podcast wherever you get your listensVisit grace's websiteJoin the newsletter 💌thanks for listening. peace, be well. 🙏

Today we explore why true transformation is so challenging in dominant Western culture.We discuss —Why change is not just about "knowing better"Two crucial ingredients of the forgotten art of InitiationWhy many people struggle to make sense of their transformational experiences + resist growthWhat the ego’s role is in all of thisWhat it means to come of ageSend us a message! 💫Free resources —Take grace’s free class EROS : INITIATOR ❤️‍🔥 — Learn what the Erotic actually is, why it's the answer to what's not healing in your life, and who it’s calling you to become — someone delighted and powerfulStay Connected —Subscribe to the podcast wherever you get your listensVisit grace's websiteJoin the newsletter 💌thanks for listening. peace, be well. 🙏