How to Stop Sacrificing Your Self for Belonging w— Erin Kelley

There are moments in life when the ground shifts beneath us—moments that ask us to release who we have been and surrender to who we are becoming.In this conversation with Christine Eck, we explore these initiatory thresholds: the postpartum window, identity shifts, creative rebirth, and the deeply human experience of meeting ourselves in the dark.Whether it’s the identity rupture of new parenthood, a dream dissolving, a relationship shifting, or a calling echoing from somewhere you can’t yet see, these moments feel like freefall. They feel like failure. They feel like we are being unmade.And yet—they feel like that because it is a death.And it is also the beginning of a profound becoming.The only way out is through.The gift is at the bottom.And you cannot effort your way into becoming—you can only surrender into it.Enjoy this episode. And tune in next week for part two. we discuss —The beauty in the bottom of the chasmLaying down our fear of failureCaregiving as witnessing, not rescuingThe quiet tools that carry us through initiationsWhy we don’t walk alone LINKSIf you enjoyed the episode, check out —The Transformative Power of Desire & Devotion w—Erin KelleyBusiness as Initiation, grace on an episode of Off the Grid More about our guest —www.sacredwindowstudies.comIG @sacredwindowstudiesFB @AyurvedaForPostpartumSacred Window PodcastSacred Window Blog Free Resources —Receive the 3 keys that unlocked every major Initiation in my life. Get 3 Keys for the Soul here for FREE. 🗝️Burn through your unworthiness and ignite your innate erotic power. Sign up for VIRGIN here. ❤️‍🔥Join the waitlist for MA 🌹Stay Connected —grace’s websiteSubscribe to the home—body podcastSubscribe on YouTubeSend us a message! 💫thanks for listening. peace, be well. 🙏

Today I’m sharing my second conversation with writer and astrologer Erin Kelley.We tell our personal (and planetary) stories of loss, seduction, codependency, and people-pleasing — as we explore how mid-life transits can become portals to authentic intimacy.We also discuss Erin's Slow Magick practice and how to change your life in sacred time. As soon as I started to do the deep work… it changed how I was in my relationships. Once I was able to show up in a different way and be intimate in a whole new experience — that freedom of expression showed me how: “Oh no sweetie, you weren’t just codependent in your romantic relationships. That shit was everywhere.” — Erin Kelley we discuss —the power of a second actmid-life transits as portals for transformationending cycles of Self-abandonmentstarting over after loss of love, job, money, everythingNeptune’s illusions and delusionsthe tension between the 1st house of Self and the 7th house of Otherreleasing codependence and people-pleasingwhat committed partnership really meansthe devotional practice of Slow Magickthe pleasure of stepping into the Moment  LINKSIf you enjoyed the episode, check out —R.I.P. Good GirlBusiness as Initiation, grace on an episode of Off the GridListen to grace on Erin’s podcast The Nature of Invisible Things More about our guest —Slow Magick websiteSlow Magick on IGSlow Magick on SubstackDevotional Astrology & Tarot - A heart-centered experience of the stars and cards grounded in everyday life Mentioned in the episode—Burn through your unworthiness and ignite your innate erotic power. Sign up for VIRGIN here. ❤️‍🔥Join the waitlist for MA 🌹Free Resources —Receive the 3 keys that unlocked every major Initiation in my life. Get 3 Keys for the Soul here for FREE. 🗝️Stay Connected —Subscribe to the home—body podcastgrace’s websiteSend us a message! 💫thanks for listening. peace, be well. 🙏

Erin Kelley is a writer, devotional astrologer, and esoteric strategist with a feral heart. Her intuitive gift for right timing is at the core of her work, affectionately known as Slow Magick.Today’s episode is the first of two conversations I’m sharing with Erin, where we explore spiritual growth, initiation processes, and the transformative power of desire.we discuss —Death, walking the path of devotion, and magickThe qualities and challenges of being deeply VenusianThe importance of self-discoveryThe power in alchemical partnershipsMy personal journey from evangelical upbringing to embracing magical practices and embodiment LINKSIf you enjoyed the episode, check out —the gritty synthesis of holistic, soul-led entrepreneurs w— Portia Barnett-Herrinbecoming a Lover : the Devotional work of PartnershipLOVE & Stories w— Michael J MorrisMore about our guest —Slow Magick websiteSlow Magick on IGSlow Magick on SubstackDevotional Astrology & Tarot - A heart-centered experience of the stars and cards grounded in everyday life Mentioned in the episode—Burn through your unworthiness and ignite your innate erotic power. Sign up for VIRGIN here. ❤️‍🔥 Free Resources —Receive the 3 keys that unlocked every major Initiation in my life. Get 3 Keys for the Soul here for FREE. 🗝️Stay Connected —grace’s websiteSubscribe to the home—body podcastSubscribe on YouTubeSend us a message! 💫thanks for listening. peace, be well. 🙏

In this Winter Solstice reflection, grace explores a thread of freedom that looks like failure on the outside. Drawing on Gene Key 32, the archetype of the VIRGIN, and her own journey through multiple "failures," she reveals why veneration (not success) is the real game waiting to unlock.If you enjoyed the episode, check out —Beauty is Everythingthe Paradox of your Cosmic ServiceMentioned in the episode—Text grace a question 💬Burn through your unworthiness and ignite your innate erotic power. Experience VIRGIN here. ❤️‍🔥4 Water Ways for the Soul — a low-cost audio mini-course centering you in the medicine of the deep YINFree Resources —Receive the 3 keys that unlocked every major Initiation in my life. Get 3 Keys for the Soul here for FREE. 🗝️Stay Connected —Subscribe to the home—body podcastgrace’s websitework with gracejoin the newsletter 💌Send us a message! 💫thanks for listening. peace, be well. 🙏

You’ve probably heard of Maslow’s Hierarchy of Needs. It’s a pyramid that puts survival at the bottom and self-actualization at the top. But what if Maslow has it upside down?In this episode, grace invites us to imagine self-actualization not as a prize for doing the work, but as the pulse and driving force behind everything you are doing, everything you are trying to achieve.She traces the path to the Desire behind the desire behind the desire. Because it turns out: You have nothing to prove — only layers of longing to follow. “You can’t self-actualize through affirmations or self-help books. Who you are can only be actualized in Self through energetic mastery, rigorous self-honesty, and an unmistakeable and unique connection to what is greater than you.” — grace allerdice we discuss —how Maslow inverted an indigenous Blackfoot paradigmunlocking + embodying your fullest, most true expressionthe false promises of Success without Self-actualizationwhy things often fall apart in midlifenext steps for finding your pathIf you enjoyed the episode, check out —finding your true Giftthe gritty synthesis of holistic, soul-led entrepreneurs w— Portia Barnett-HerrinMentioned in the episode—Maslow’s hierarchy connected to Blackfoot beliefsJoin the waitlist for MA (our red hot devotional membership)🌹Text grace a question 💬Free Resources —Receive the 3 keys that unlocked every major Initiation in my life. Get 3 Keys for the Soul here for FREE. 🗝️Stay Connected —Subscribe to the home—body podcastgrace’s websitework with gracejoin the newsletter 💌This podcast is produced by Softer Sounds. ✨Send us a message! 💫thanks for listening. peace, be well. 🙏

Dark Matter is the biggest mystery of the cosmos. We’re in Her universe, not ours.Mentioned in the episode—join the newsletter 💌Join the waitlist for MA (our red hot devotional membership)🌹Text grace a question 💬Dive deeper —from Judgement to MysteryNOW is Gracemeet your new mistressSend us a message! 💫thanks for listening. peace, be well. 🙏

We can’t do anything unless we have a grasp on our attention. But how do we reclaim it amidst the endless stream of distractions?Today Amelia Hruby returns to the podcast for a conversation about social media, creative practice, and sacred attention.We explore digital consciousness, material reality, energetic sovereignty, and what’s really at stake when we live our lives online. People want all of the "safety" with no surrender. But that’s not how change works. — grace allerdice Amelia Hruby is a feminist writer, podcaster and producer with a PhD in philosophy. She is the founder of Softer Sounds podcast studio, and the host of Off the Grid, a podcast about leaving social media. Her new book, *Your Attention is Sacred Except on Social Media* is out now.we discuss —The nonlinear paths of writing booksAmelia’s experience leaving social mediaTaking full possession of ourselvesThe cultural transition from skepticism to desireWhat happens when you live a digital drone lifestyleWhy everyone’s talking about attention right nowShifting from economical to ecological frameworksStepping back from social media to make space for changeWhy transformation without space can feel like traumaFrom “paying” attention to “giving” attention LINKSIf you enjoyed the episode, check out —Your Deep Alignment is a PortalRedefining Acts of Service through Connection w— Amelia HrubyBusiness as Initiation & the Power of Deep Alignment — grace on Amelia’s podcast Off the Grid More about our guest —Visit Amelia’s websiteBuy Amelia’s bookListen to Off the Grid Free Resources —Receive the 3 keys that unlocked every major Initiation in my life. Get 3 Keys for the Soul here for FREE. 🗝️Stay Connected —Subscribe to the home—body podcast wherever you get your listens.grace’s websiteThis podcast is produced by Softer Sounds. ✨Send us a message! 💫thanks for listening. peace, be well. 🙏

Today, I’m joined by my dear friend Portia for a conversation about naming and embodying the sacred roles that shape our work.We explore the challenge of finding words that honor what we do without diminishing it.Then we trace the paths of the teacher, priestess, jester, and more — slowly weaving the webs that hold us in the world. Healing work is essentially facilitating space in which people can meet the part of them that knows, and can touch the part of them that’s already whole. That’s all I’m ever trying to do. — grace allerdice Portia is a London based filmmaker and coach. She works from a holistic perspective with flower essences to support anyone wanting to recalibrate emotional issues. She specialises in supporting freelancers, those navigating the creative industries and anyone moving into creative work. All her services can be found at www.newwoo.ukwe discuss —What it means to be a teacherLearning through presenceComparing sacred work to the role of the jesterVenusian venerationHow grace stepped into the role of PriestessAlchemical clarity + severity  LINKSIf you enjoyed the episode, check out —the Mother in the Dark w— Clark Stranderotic devotion for modern mysticsMore about our guest —NewWoo.ukFree Resources —Receive the 3 keys that unlocked every major Initiation in my life. Get 3 Keys for the Soul here for FREE. 🗝️Stay Connected —Subscribe to the home—body podcast wherever you get your listens.grace’s websitesubscribe to grace's newsletterThis podcast is produced by Softer Sounds. ✨Send us a message! 💫thanks for listening. peace, be well. 🙏

Clark Strand was a Zen Buddhist monk. Now he writes books of love poetry to Kali Ma and manifestos to the Dark.In this conversation, we trace his spiritual path from childhood Protestantism through monasticism and massage school — ultimately leading him into deep devotion to the Divine Mother.Listen in, as we step into the Dark together. When She appeared to me, it made sense of everything all of a sudden. It really changed me. I stopped thinking the way I used to think. My understanding of the natural world, myself, my family, my relationships, Devotion, Beauty, Time itself. — Clark Strand  Clark Strand has been studying the world’s spiritual traditions for more than thirty years. The author of several books including Waking the Buddha, Meditation Without Gurus, Waking Up to the Dark and Now is the Hour of Her Return, Strand has written for The Wall Street Journal, The New York Times, and the Washington Post/Newsweek “On Faith” blog. He is the founder of Way of the Rose, a growing nonsectarian rosary fellowship open to people of any spiritual background, with members around the world. He lives on a dark road with no streetlights in the southern Catskill Mountains.we discuss —the many paths of spiritual devotionthe patriarchal traditions of many world religionshow Clark encountered the Divine Motherfeeling safe in the darkwhy Now is the hourhuman civilization vs human culturethe power of simple-hearted devotionwriting poems for Kaliremembering our birdsong  LINKSIf you enjoyed the episode, check out —Many Mothers + Many Lifetimes: Ancestral Connection w–Perdita FinnMore about our guest —The Way of the Rose.orgWaking Up to the Dark, book by Clark StrandNow is the Hour of Her Return, book by Clark StrandMentioned in the episode—The Gospel of Sri RamakrishnaThe Gospel According to the DarkFree Resources —Receive the 3 keys that unlocked every major Initiation in my life. Get 3 Keys for the Soul here for FREE. 🗝️Stay Connected —Subscribe to the home—body podcastgrace’s websiteThis podcast is produced by Softer Sounds. ✨Send us a message! 💫thanks for listening. peace, be well. 🙏

a soft, simple guided practice to interrupt you, re-center you, into the flickering flame of your Heart.peace.be well.Join the waitlist for MA (our red hot devotional membership)🌹Text grace a question 💬Free Resources —Receive the 3 keys that unlocked every major Initiation in my life. Get 3 Keys for the Soul here for FREE. 🗝️Stay Connected —Subscribe to the home—body podcastgrace’s websitejoin the newsletter 💌Send us a message! 💫Send us a message! 💫thanks for listening. peace, be well. 🙏