7 years trying to get skinny

TW: body dysmorphia, eating disorders, depression, suicide

Everyone has been affected by talk, media, and societal pressures around body image, weight loss/gain, eating, dieting, and beauty standards. Hopefully this video is helpful for some of you regardless of whether you have or have had an ED. It’s been over 2 years since I’ve given an update on my eating disorder and body dysmorphia but I’ve finally gotten around to getting my thoughts together. A part of it is that even talking about it can trigger me to start eat differently again and even get back into old habits. But as I mentioned in the video, it's not linear and all part of the recovery process!

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The video is split into 2 main parts: my eating disorder story and 26:58 advice for recovery 00:00 - intro

02:23 - what it's like to have an eating disorder

05:05 - how I developed binge eating disorder

08:02 - the other issues that came with the ED

09:55 - feeling like a failure and worthless

10:33 - the cycle of starving myself

13:06 - 6 years of recovery

15:33 - recovery is not linear

17:21 - summer body, trying to be skinny, and anorexia

20:54 - where I am today

21:54 - recovery advice is surface level

24:18 - the "monster" version of you

26:02 - making myself throw up

26:58 - what is working for me today

32:41 - tough love

40:06 - exercising and eating disorders

42:32 - what is working for me today

45:05 - body image and comparing myself

47:35 - high low buffalo #weightloss #bodydysmorphia #eatingdisorders

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