I read my journal entries from my hardest season…God was working all along

Church hurt, finding the right church, serving, burnout, friendships, cliques, dating, leadership, and the question: “Do I really need church if I have a personal relationship with God?”In Part 1, we’re having an honest conversation about what it means to find a church where you can grow, heal, serve, and genuinely encounter God.If you’ve ever struggled with church in your 20s, this episode is for you. ✨Watch the Podcast on YouTube✨www.youtube.com/@deathtoselfpodcastbyPearl✨Follow the podcast on TikTok✨https://www.tiktok.com/@deathtoselfpodcast?_t=8rotqEVc0Nb&_r=1✨Follow the podcast on instagram ✨https://www.instagram.com/deathtoselfpodcast?igsh=MWV1a243cGhxZTRlcw%3D%3D&utm_source=qr✨death to self playlist on Spotify ✨https://open.spotify.com/playlist/3YZWX13cOazDMzGIrmFQ5s?si=2S6-P19dRZe_bM3qCpt37A&pi=e-N_m0vvPIQR66✨death to self playlist on Apple Music ✨https://music.apple.com/za/playlist/death-to-self-playlist/pl.u-oZylDglIGaXvyMv

Welcome to DTS Season 6! 🤍If you’re in a season where nothing makes sense and you’re wondering what God is doing, this episode is for you. Today we’re reading journal entries that remind us how easy it is to miss God’s hand in the moment—but how clear His faithfulness becomes when we look back🥹I hope this encourages you to keep trusting Him, because even when you can’t see it, God is still working everything together for your good.✨Watch the Podcast on YouTube✨www.youtube.com/@deathtoselfpodcastbyPearl✨Follow the podcast on TikTok✨https://www.tiktok.com/@deathtoselfpodcast?_t=8rotqEVc0Nb&_r=1✨Follow the podcast on instagram ✨https://www.instagram.com/deathtoselfpodcast?igsh=MWV1a243cGhxZTRlcw%3D%3D&utm_source=qr✨death to self playlist on Spotify ✨https://open.spotify.com/playlist/3YZWX13cOazDMzGIrmFQ5s?si=2S6-P19dRZe_bM3qCpt37A&pi=e-N_m0vvPIQR66✨death to self playlist on Apple Music ✨https://music.apple.com/za/playlist/death-to-self-playlist/pl.u-oZylDglIGaXvyMv

I MISSED YOU SOOO MUCH!! happy 2026 I guess😭Here’s a little life update on how 2026 has been treating me so far🫠 I hope the year has been good to you and we will be back sooner than you think by God’s grace 🩷✨death to self Substack✨https://open.substack.com/pub/deathtoselfsub✨Watch the Podcast on YouTube✨www.youtube.com/@deathtoselfpodcastbyPearl✨Follow the podcast on TikTok✨https://www.tiktok.com/@deathtoselfpodcast?_t=8rotqEVc0Nb&_r=1✨Follow the podcast on instagram ✨https://www.instagram.com/deathtoselfpodcast?igsh=MWV1a243cGhxZTRlcw%3D%3D&utm_source=qr✨death to self playlist on Spotify ✨https://open.spotify.com/playlist/3YZWX13cOazDMzGIrmFQ5s?si=2S6-P19dRZe_bM3qCpt37A&pi=e-N_m0vvPIQR66✨death to self playlist on Apple Music ✨https://music.apple.com/za/playlist/death-to-self-playlist/pl.u-oZylDglIGaXvyMv

In one of the first episodes, I opened up about struggling with loneliness and idolizing relationships. Now, in this catch-up episode, I reflect on whether being in a relationship really cures loneliness, explore what truly causes us to feel lonely, and share practical ways to overcome it.✨Watch the Podcast on YouTube✨www.youtube.com/@deathtoselfpodcastbyPearl✨Follow the podcast on TikTok✨https://www.tiktok.com/@deathtoselfpodcast?_t=8rotqEVc0Nb&_r=1✨Follow the podcast on instagram ✨https://www.instagram.com/deathtoselfpodcast?igsh=MWV1a243cGhxZTRlcw%3D%3D&utm_source=qr✨death to self playlist on Spotify ✨https://open.spotify.com/playlist/3YZWX13cOazDMzGIrmFQ5s?si=2S6-P19dRZe_bM3qCpt37A&pi=e-N_m0vvPIQR66✨death to self playlist on Apple Music ✨https://music.apple.com/za/playlist/death-to-self-playlist/pl.u-oZylDglIGaXvyMv

In this episode, we dive into one of the biggest questions that separates Christianity from Islam — is Jesus truly God, or was He just a prophet? We’ll unpack what the Bible says about the divinity of Jesus, break down the concept of the Trinity, and explore why Christians believe that Jesus is in fact God. We’ll also take an unbiased look at both perspectives, examining the reliability of the Quran and the Bible.✨Watch the Podcast on YouTube✨www.youtube.com/@deathtoselfpodcastbyPearl✨Follow the podcast on TikTok✨https://www.tiktok.com/@deathtoselfpodcast?_t=8rotqEVc0Nb&_r=1✨Follow the podcast on instagram ✨https://www.instagram.com/deathtoselfpodcast?igsh=MWV1a243cGhxZTRlcw%3D%3D&utm_source=qr✨death to self playlist on Spotify ✨https://open.spotify.com/playlist/3YZWX13cOazDMzGIrmFQ5s?si=2S6-P19dRZe_bM3qCpt37A&pi=e-N_m0vvPIQR66✨death to self playlist on Apple Music ✨https://music.apple.com/za/playlist/death-to-self-playlist/pl.u-oZylDglIGaXvyMv

I turn 23 today and in honour of God blessing me with another year, here are 23 lessons I learnt by 23 ✨Watch the Podcast on YouTube✨ www.youtube.com/@deathtoselfpodcastbyPearl ✨Follow the podcast on TikTok✨ https://www.tiktok.com/@deathtoselfpodcast?_t=8rotqEVc0Nb&_r=1 ✨Follow the podcast on instagram ✨ https://www.instagram.com/deathtoselfpodcast?igsh=MWV1a243cGhxZTRlcw%3D%3D&utm_source=qr ✨death to self playlist on Spotify ✨ https://open.spotify.com/playlist/3YZWX13cOazDMzGIrmFQ5s?si=2S6-P19dRZe_bM3qCpt37A&pi=e-N_m0vvPIQR66 ✨death to self playlist on Apple Music ✨ https://music.apple.com/za/playlist/death-to-self-playlist/pl.u-oZylDglIGaXvyMv

You know death to self is supposed to be a safe space, right? So let’s be honest — have you ever found yourself missing the world? Missing your old ways and wishing you had the “freedom” to do whatever you wanted like you did before Christ? Because I have. In this episode, we’re talking about the struggle of keeping up with your convictions when you low-key miss the world — why that happens and how to deal with it. Let’s get real 💚✨Watch the Podcast on YouTube✨www.youtube.com/@deathtoselfpodcastbyPearl✨Follow the podcast on TikTok✨https://www.tiktok.com/@deathtoselfpodcast?_t=8rotqEVc0Nb&_r=1✨Follow the podcast on instagram ✨https://www.instagram.com/deathtoselfpodcast?igsh=MWV1a243cGhxZTRlcw%3D%3D&utm_source=qr✨death to self playlist on Spotify ✨https://open.spotify.com/playlist/3YZWX13cOazDMzGIrmFQ5s?si=2S6-P19dRZe_bM3qCpt37A&pi=e-N_m0vvPIQR66✨death to self playlist on Apple Music ✨https://music.apple.com/za/playlist/death-to-self-playlist/pl.u-oZylDglIGaXvyMv

Today’s episode features two very special guests—my friends who recently got married. They open up about their journey from friendship to courting, engagement, and now marriage. We dive into the beauty and challenges of navigating marriage in your early 20s—from adjusting to new roles to overcoming struggles while building a Christ-centered foundation together.✨Watch the Podcast on YouTube✨www.youtube.com/@deathtoselfpodcastbyPearl✨Follow the podcast on TikTok✨https://www.tiktok.com/@deathtoselfpodcast?_t=8rotqEVc0Nb&_r=1✨Follow the podcast on instagram ✨https://www.instagram.com/deathtoselfpodcast?igsh=MWV1a243cGhxZTRlcw%3D%3D&utm_source=qr✨death to self playlist on Spotify ✨https://open.spotify.com/playlist/3YZWX13cOazDMzGIrmFQ5s?si=2S6-P19dRZe_bM3qCpt37A&pi=e-N_m0vvPIQR66✨death to self playlist on Apple Music ✨https://music.apple.com/za/playlist/death-to-self-playlist/pl.u-oZylDglIGaXvyMv

Lately, it feels like the world is getting darker by the day. Christians are being persecuted, evil is getting louder, and sometimes it feels overwhelming. In this episode, I just wanted to sit down and talk about what’s really going on beneath the surface—the spiritual layer we often forget is there.This isn’t about fear, but about courage. About choosing to stand boldly for Christ, even when it’s hard. About remembering that our battle isn’t against people, but against spiritual forces we can’t always see.0:00 – Charlie Kirk’s death and the power in the truth3:24 – There’s a spiritual layer beneath it all4:38 – Do not fear persecution8:41 – Live a life that pleases God10:42 – Guard your heart ✨Watch the Podcast on YouTube✨www.youtube.com/@deathtoselfpodcastbyPearl✨Follow the podcast on TikTok✨https://www.tiktok.com/@deathtoselfpodcast?_t=8rotqEVc0Nb&_r=1✨Follow the podcast on instagram ✨https://www.instagram.com/deathtoselfpodcast?igsh=MWV1a243cGhxZTRlcw%3D%3D&utm_source=qr✨death to self playlist on Spotify ✨https://open.spotify.com/playlist/3YZWX13cOazDMzGIrmFQ5s?si=2S6-P19dRZe_bM3qCpt37A&pi=e-N_m0vvPIQR66✨death to self playlist on Apple Music ✨https://music.apple.com/za/playlist/death-to-self-playlist/pl.u-oZylDglIGaXvyMv

In this episode, my friend and I dive into the glorification of self and how pride often creeps into our lives—especially through achievements and success. Pride may feel like confidence at first, but it’s the very thing that distances us from God.✨Watch the Podcast on YouTube✨www.youtube.com/@deathtoselfpodcastbyPearl✨Follow the podcast on TikTok✨https://www.tiktok.com/@deathtoselfpodcast?_t=8rotqEVc0Nb&_r=1✨Follow the podcast on instagram ✨https://www.instagram.com/deathtoselfpodcast?igsh=MWV1a243cGhxZTRlcw%3D%3D&utm_source=qr✨death to self playlist on Spotify ✨https://open.spotify.com/playlist/3YZWX13cOazDMzGIrmFQ5s?si=2S6-P19dRZe_bM3qCpt37A&pi=e-N_m0vvPIQR66✨death to self playlist on Apple Music ✨https://music.apple.com/za/playlist/death-to-self-playlist/pl.u-oZylDglIGaXvyMv