Recovery From Self-Hatred

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Leanne’s life began with the mystery of not knowing her birth parents, who were themselves grappling with their own battles. However, she was adopted into a loving and supportive family, providing her with a stable foundation. Despite this support, Leanne found herself struggling with her identity, feeling like she never truly fit in.To cope with her sense of not belonging and the pressures of fitting in, Leanne turned to drugs and alcohol. This led her down a path of addiction, causing her to spend most of her adult life in a cycle of random jobs that facilitated her substance abuse. It was during this tumultuous period that she became pregnant.Leanne’s pregnancy was further complicated by the devastating news that her child, Darcy, was going to be born with serious health issues and might not survive. The courage it took to carry on with the pregnancy and give birth to Darcy was remarkable. But as they left the hospital and went home, a dark cloud of sadness descended upon Leanne.Today, Leanne stands as a beacon of hope and recovery. She has made a full recovery from postnatal depression and is sober, having conquered her addiction. Her relationship with her daughter, Darcy, has evolved into a beautiful and unbreakable connection. Despite Darcy’s ongoing medical needs, both mother and daughter exhibit incredible strength and determination, ready to leave their mark on the world.Content warnings - alcohol/drug abuse, physical injury, depression. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

Today on the show, we're going to take a break from our usual storytelling to bring you a Q+A  with host, Abi Feltham. Listen as Abi answers questions on recovery, sobriety and everything in between. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

Luke's story begins in the crucible of his school years, where he was relentlessly bullied for being overweight. Seeking validation and acceptance, he adopted the role of the class clown, hoping that humor would be his shield. However, this pursuit of approval led him down a tumultuous path, often getting him into trouble.The roots of Luke's struggle with self-medication took hold when he developed an eating disorder, restricting food in a desperate bid to shed pounds and conform to societal ideals. As he turned 18, he found solace in attending parties with his older sisters. The allure of alcohol and recreational drugs provided a temporary escape from the anxiety and self-loathing that had haunted him for years.In a desperate attempt to escape his demons, Luke relocated to London, only to find his addiction issues intensifying. It wasn't until he sought help in rehab, not once but twice, that he received a life-altering diagnosis—ADHD. It was then that Luke realized he had been self-medicating his undiagnosed ADHD with drugs and alcohol, a revelation that would change the course of his life.Content/trigger warnings: disordered eating, drug abuse, car crash, alcohol abuse. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

Raised by a single mother alongside four brothers and a sister, Chloe never knew her biological father. However, her world would change forever when her mother married her step-dad. This union brought with it the burden of addiction, as both her mother and step-dad struggled with alcohol abuse, often neglecting not only Chloe but also the needs of her siblings.At the tender age of 6, Chloe's life took a dark turn when her step-dad began sexually abusing her. This painful secret she carried weighed heavily on her shoulders, leading her to act out at school and even lash out at her younger brother.It wasn't until Chloe reached the age of 14 that she experienced a life-altering epiphany. She finally realized the gravity of the sexual abuse she had endured for years and made the courageous decision to confide in her mother about the horrors she had endured.Content/trigger warnings: child abuse, sexual assault, drug and alcohol abuse.In the UK, if you are in need of help, advice, support or intervention with issues relating to child sexual abuse, you can get in touch with the Lucy Faithfull Foundation - lucyfaithfull.org.ukFor people who are struggling with sexual thoughts and behaviours towards children, or are concerned about someone else's behaviour, you can call Stop It Now! on 0808 1000 900.stopitnow.org.uk Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

Brianna's story began in a loving family with two artist parents who provided unwavering support to her and her two sisters. As a spirited child, she was passionate about performing, often immersing herself in plays and theatrical pursuits. However, beneath her vibrant exterior, she grappled with feelings of never quite measuring up, even as a child.It was a seemingly innocuous event, a failed math test, that marked the beginning of Brianna's struggle with self-harm. The overwhelming emotions of not meeting her own standards and expectations led her to resort to self-inflicted pain as a coping mechanism. Remarkably, this behavior continued into her teenage years, despite her academic achievements and her deep love for theater and sports. The shadow of low self-esteem loomed large.Brianna's journey was characterized by a relentless pursuit of perfectionism, with self-harm serving as a punishing release valve every time she perceived a failure, no matter how trivial. Her torment deepened when she ventured abroad, grappling with a demanding job and surrounding herself with individuals who reinforced her damaging belief that she was inherently inadequate. This episode serves as a powerful testament to the strength of the human spirit and the capacity for healing and self-love. Brianna's story is a beacon of hope for those facing similar struggles, showcasing that with the right support and a commitment to self-discovery, it is possible to break free from the grip of self-harm and embark on a path toward genuine self-acceptance and recovery.Content/trigger warnings: self harm, self injury.If you are living with self-harm, you can find support via Self-injury Support, National Self Harm Network, Self-injury Support, LifeSIGNS, The Mix and Sane. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

Growing up in a small Georgia town where Baptist beliefs dominated, Rosa found herself standing out as an outsider due to her parents' atheistic views. Both her parents were professors at the local university, exposing Rosa to a worldview that differed greatly from her peers'. This stark contrast led to her feeling like a misfit and enduring the torment of relentless bullying from classmates.In this episode, we explore Rosa's transformational journey, the pivotal moments that led her from the depths of self-hatred to the shores of self-compassion. We delve into the tools, the mindset shifts, and the support systems that played a pivotal role in Rosa's path to healing.Content/trigger warnings: alcohol abuse, suicidal ideation, sexual assault references Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

Matt's life began with the gift of a stable and loving childhood, surrounded by his two sisters and caring parents who provided everything he needed.As he grew, Matt achieved the milestones of life that many aspire to: marriage, a home, and the joyous arrival of children. However, when tragedy struck at the age of 30, everything changed. His world was shattered when his 5-month-old son succumbed to sudden infant death syndrome, leaving him grappling with unimaginable grief.Struggling to cope with this profound loss, Matt turned to destructive coping mechanisms such as alcohol and drugs. The pain of not knowing how to grieve, coupled with uncertainty about his son's well-being, led Matt to hit rock bottom. The devastating aftermath extended to his marriage, which eventually dissolved under the weight of their shared sorrow.Amidst the darkness, Matt found a glimmer of hope that became his turning point. He embarked on a journey of spiritual exploration and encountered a medium who reassured him that his son was safe. This encounter brought a profound sense of relief, giving Matt the courage to begin the difficult process of healing.Content/trigger warnings: baby loss, sudden infant death syndrome, alcohol and drug abuse, suicidal ideation.If you need bereavement support after the death of a baby or child, you can contact The Lullaby Trust here. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

Growing up, Jess never had the chance to know her father, and her mother's battle with bipolar disorder led to a life of instability. Their relationship evolved into an unhealthy and toxic bond that resembled more of best friends than parent and child. As a child, Jess found herself in the heart-wrenching role of caretaker, often needing to patch up her mother's self-inflicted wounds and tending to her emotional needs.Trapped in a cycle of unhealthy coping mechanisms, Jess mirrored her mother's behavior and struggled with her own mental health. By the age of 13, she had already taken her first overdose. In a desperate bid to be together, Jess's mother attempted to end her life to join her daughter in the hospital. Jess's life was a tumultuous journey, bouncing between foster care, children's homes, and her mother's care.Today, Jess's story takes a heartwarming turn as she now works in peer support within the very psychiatric wards she frequented as a child. Through relentless practice of wellness, gratitude, and compassion, she has forged a path to forgiveness – forgiving both her mother and herself. Jess's journey is a powerful testament to the human spirit's resilience and the transformative power of self-love.Content/trigger warnings: self harm, suicide, mental illness, child abuse, alcohol and drug abuse. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

From an early age, Luke stood out as the shy, introverted child in a family that favoured sports and athleticism. Unlike his three younger brothers, Luke's interests lay in technology and science fiction, setting him apart as the "black sheep" of the family.This feeling of being an outsider only intensified when his family moved to the United States when he was just 9 years old. In his new environment, Luke became a target for relentless bullying due to his outsider status. The cruelty he experienced shattered his self-esteem and confidence, leaving deep emotional scars.Join us as we explore Luke's inspiring journey of triumph over trauma, celebrating his courage, reflecting on his challenges, and uncovering the vital lessons he has learned along the way. Through Luke's story, we discover the power of authenticity, self-compassion, and the transformative potential of embracing a life aligned with one's true desires.Content/triggers warnings: bullying, depression, suicide and self-harm.If you are in the UK and having suicidal thoughts, you can find a list of support services here, or text SHOUT to 85258.If you are being bullied, you can contact the National Bullying Helpline here. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.