EP #221 - The Edge Of Freedom; Anxiety, And The Balance Between Control And Love

Bobby, standing on the threshold of freedom after 12 years, grapples with the rollercoaster of feelings that comes with it. He recounts his initial surge of anxiety when well-meaning parents, in a sincere effort to help, made a significant decision about his life on the outside without his input. For someone whose past 12 years have been entirely controlled by others, this felt like a continuation of that very confinement. But with deeper reflection comes a profound understanding. He talks about the complex emotions of immense gratitude for their unwavering support, alongside the vital need for autonomy and communication, even with those who love us most. It's a powerful exploration of the emotional complexities of re-entry, the delicate balance between control and love, and the essential conversations that pave the path to true freedom.You can read more about Bobby and prison reform on our website:   notesfromthepen.com  And check out the GoFundMe  to help with Bobby’s new start  https://www.gofundme.com/f/j3khzk-help-for-a-new-startTwitter: https://twitter.com/NotesFromThePen Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/p/CJYuOh4pKxa/?igshid=y8lo9kbdifvq   Bluesky: https://bsky.app/profile/notesfromthepen.bsky.socialShout-out to JD and Ashely Bell for all their behind the scenes support. Intro and Outro music created just for Notes From The Pen by PJ Trofibio and Jeff Quintero and used with permission.

Bobby and Co-host JD are back this week and dive into how easy it is to imagine you'd never end up in prison. "There but for the grace of God go I." Have you ever had that extra beer, or glass of wine, and got behind the wheel? There's a difference between intended violent criminal actions, and accidents, but the media and general population don't always make that distinction.Also, imagine a daily existence where regulations are presented as absolute, but make no sense at all because the very structure of prison life makes them nearly impossible to live by. It creates an atmosphere where in order to survive in prison you have to decide which rules warrant breaking. It teaches inmates that not all rules are necessary to follow. That's bad for everyone when that carries over to the outside world. Society needs prisons, but the way they're created actually makes things worse. You wouldn't cut your arm off to treat arthritis. The guys talk about how prison reform is easier than most think. You can read more about Bobby and prison reform on our website:   notesfromthepen.com  And check out the GoFundMe  to help with Bobby’s new start  https://www.gofundme.com/f/j3khzk-help-for-a-new-startTwitter: https://twitter.com/NotesFromThePen Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/p/CJYuOh4pKxa/?igshid=y8lo9kbdifvq   Bluesky: https://bsky.app/profile/notesfromthepen.bsky.socialShout-out to JD and Ashely Bell for all their behind the scenes support. Intro and Outro music created just for Notes From The Pen by PJ Trofibio and Jeff Quintero and used with permission.

Bobby is sick, so we're not able to record this week. He's okay, just feeling under the weather. I thought I'd play this one again because it ties into Bobby's last year of prison. Even though this was recorded in 2021 it talks about 'lasts' which is what Bobby is going through for the next 3 moths. We'll be back next week with a new recording, so stay tuned.Bobby hits a milestone, and Cpt Last Call makes an early appearance.A special thank you to Doug Stanhope, and make sure you visit his website for tour dates, and merchandise.⁠https://www.dougstanhope.com⁠ ⁠https://twitter.com/DougStanhope⁠You can read more about Bobby and prison reform on the website:  ⁠notesfromthepen.com⁠Twitter: ⁠https://twitter.com/NotesFromThePen⁠Instagram: ⁠https://www.instagram.com/p/CJYuOh4pKxa/?igshid=y8lo9kbdifvq⁠YouTube ⁠https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCHN6enhnEfCr6D45TX9kvVA⁠Intro & Outro music created just for Notes From The Pen by PJ Trofibio & Jeff Quintero

Who is your favorite Diaz Brother, Shane Gillis is a big boy, the tattoos you get in the real world take on a whole new meaning behind bars, placing new inmates in max security joints lead the fresh inmates down the fraternity path, and POC (Paint On Canvas) art. Plus a post show clip. You can read more about Bobby and prison reform on our website:   notesfromthepen.comAnd check out the GoFundMe to help with Bobby’s new start  https://www.gofundme.com/f/j3khzk-help-for-a-new-startTwitter: https://twitter.com/NotesFromThePenInstagram: https://www.instagram.com/p/CJYuOh4pKxa/?igshid=y8lo9kbdifvq   Bluesky: https://bsky.app/profile/notesfromthepen.bsky.socialShout-out to JD and Ashely Bell for all their behind the scenes support.Intro and Outro music created just for Notes From The Pen by PJ Trofibio and Jeff Quintero and used with permission.

Michale Bay movies, an emotional dilemma on the prison yard and, for the first time in history, the Federal Bureau Of Prisons (BOP) has appointed a former inmate to the position of Deputy Director. Will this appointment mark a turning point in prison reform? Bobby shares his thoughts on the man responsible for this decision, and what it means to someone still serving a prison sentence. You can read more about Bobby and prison reform on our website:   notesfromthepen.comAnd check out the GoFundMe to help with Bobby’s new start  https://www.gofundme.com/f/j3khzk-help-for-a-new-startTwitter: https://twitter.com/NotesFromThePenInstagram: https://www.instagram.com/p/CJYuOh4pKxa/?igshid=y8lo9kbdifvq   Bluesky: https://bsky.app/profile/notesfromthepen.bsky.socialShout-out to JD and Ashely Bell for all their behind the scenes support.Intro and Outro music created just for Notes From The Pen by PJ Trofibio and Jeff Quintero and used with permission.

Join a conversation that begins with mythology and how others may view an individual. Bobby reflects on the mistakes and missteps of youth, the moments that, in hindsight, make us wince. But this isn't just about regret; it's about growth and exploring how confronting our past selves can be a powerful catalyst for change. How would others from your past describe you? Have you ever looked back at your younger self and felt a pang of regret for choices made? Bobby has a candid conversation about reflections and navigating feelings of remorse and the crucial steps towards making growth and moving forward. You can read more about Bobby and prison reform on our website:   notesfromthepen.comAnd check out the GoFundMe to help with Bobby’s new start  https://www.gofundme.com/f/j3khzk-help-for-a-new-startTwitter: https://twitter.com/NotesFromThePenInstagram: https://www.instagram.com/p/CJYuOh4pKxa/?igshid=y8lo9kbdifvq   Bluesky: https://bsky.app/profile/notesfromthepen.bsky.socialShout-out to JD and Ashely Bell for all their behind the scenes support.Intro and Outro music created just for Notes From The Pen by PJ Trofibio and Jeff Quintero and used with permission.

Prison culture encompasses the values, beliefs, norms, and behaviors that emerge within a prison environment. What happens when this culture changes? Bobby shares valuable insight on how prison is shaped by the 'prison code', a set of unwritten rules crucial for maintaining order and safety within prison. What happens when what was once order among convicts is becoming chaos?You can read more about Bobby and prison reform on our website: notesfromthepen.comAnd check out the GoFundMe to help with Bobby’s new start https://www.gofundme.com/f/j3khzk-help-for-a-new-startTwitter: https://twitter.com/NotesFromThePenInstagram: https://www.instagram.com/p/CJYuOh4pKxa/?igshid=y8lo9kbdifvqBluesky: https://bsky.app/profile/notesfromthepen.bsky.socialShout-out to JD and Ashely Bell for all their behind the scenes support.Intro and Outro music created just for Notes From The Pen by PJ Trofibio and Jeff Quintero and used with permission.

Bobby talks about joining the Marines, priority changes as we age, and just trying to get across the line during his last few months in prison.You can read more about Bobby and prison reform on our website:   notesfromthepen.comAnd check out the GoFundMe to help with Bobby’s new start  https://www.gofundme.com/f/j3khzk-help-for-a-new-startTwitter: https://twitter.com/NotesFromThePenInstagram: https://www.instagram.com/p/CJYuOh4pKxa/?igshid=y8lo9kbdifvq   Bluesky: https://bsky.app/profile/notesfromthepen.bsky.socialShout-out to JD and Ashely Bell for all their behind the scenes support.Intro and Outro music created just for Notes From The Pen by PJ Trofibio and Jeff Quintero and used with permission.

Bobby shares his parole news, someone is looking for Mark, and getting excited about stand-up. Plus, don't miss a post show clip of mama c and Bobby talking about how his parole news was delivered. You can read more about Bobby and prison reform on our website:   notesfromthepen.com  And check out the GoFundMe  to help with Bobby’s new start  https://www.gofundme.com/f/j3khzk-help-for-a-new-startTwitter: https://twitter.com/NotesFromThePen Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/p/CJYuOh4pKxa/?igshid=y8lo9kbdifvq   Bluesky: https://bsky.app/profile/notesfromthepen.bsky.socialShout-out to JD and Ashely Bell for all their behind the scenes support. Intro and Outro music created just for Notes From The Pen by PJ Trofibio and Jeff Quintero and used with permission.  

Prison phones have been down for a few days, which means Bobby hasn't been able to call to record an episode, so I'm using unpublished recording with JD from last month. We promise next week we'll have an update on Bobby's parole hearing process. You can read more about Bobby and prison reform on our website:   notesfromthepen.comAnd check out the GoFundMe to help with Bobby’s new start  https://www.gofundme.com/f/j3khzk-help-for-a-new-startTwitter: https://twitter.com/NotesFromThePenInstagram: https://www.instagram.com/p/CJYuOh4pKxa/?igshid=y8lo9kbdifvq   Bluesky: https://bsky.app/profile/notesfromthepen.bsky.socialShout-out to JD and Ashely Bell for all their behind the scenes support.Intro and Outro music created just for Notes From The Pen by PJ Trofibio and Jeff Quintero and used with permission.