02 - can I spiral without losing the plot?

I'm giving you a taste of how 'having meaning in life' takes place in my brain.Do you feel guilty about not feeling fulfilled in your job regardless of the security it offers you?Do you want to scrap the whole idea of looking for meaning and do what provides you comfort?Welp, here is it.

Okay so this was a very difficult episode to record, as it turns out, I cannot seem to talk about my feelings in a non-serious way.It was an aim of mine to make this a positive episode, and because of that, it became a complete mess. So, forgive me, the audio sound is also quite poor. I love being critical of myself!!!But I hope you there's some nice things to hear, and if not, be patient.. I will stick to being introspective in whatever way I like for the next one.

I spiral. Sometimes it’s loud and sometimes it’s quiet, but it sometimes feels like the story is slipping out of my hands. In this episode, I’m asking whether it’s possible to fall apart a little without losing the thread of who I am, and what actually decides which way it goes.

I’ve been called “too much” my whole life, and until recently, I didn't really mind. In this first episode of Can She Hear Herself?, I’m asking where that label came from, what it did to me, and why I’m finally recording myself saying all of it out loud.SO excited to let go of the shame, and maybe love that I say silly things sometimes.

can she though?