letting go of a dream

why do we take depression naps? how do you find bliss when your world is falling apart? what does it mean to have an identity crisis? why are depression and anxiety linked so closely? so many questions, but at the heart of it all, this is an exploration of self-trust. thank you to my friend Shravani for joining me on this conversation almost a year ago now. i've been holding this one for a while haha follow me on IG @iloveloitering or @gaelaitor

what does entering womanhood feel like? how does one learn to embrace femininity? should you try everything once? and how do you react to seeing childhood friends change for the worse? in this special episode, i loiter with my sister karla and ask her about what it's like turning 15 years old. keep up @iloveloitering on socials!

we are all sheep mindlessly shoving and pushing toward the front of the crowd during concerts but has anyone stopped to think about why we want to be there in the first place? probably not. but worry not, as i am here to save you from the brainwashing of big concert and make my case for why the best place to be is in the very back. thanks for loitering with me, follow the show @iloveloitering or @gaelaitor

introducing... my girlfriend! or wait no, my friend who is a girl. here's an episode where we loiter together and talk about the weird dynamics of tagging people, coachella, ins and outs, and flaking. thank you for listening, please give the show a rating (or a review!) and if you want more follow me on instagram @iloveloitering or @gaelaitor

maybe we're the problem and not the dating apps? is the reason we're alone because we have no more patience? have we protected our piece a little too much? perhaps. in this episode i talk about why i believe we should give things more chances than you usually would. thank you for listening, please give the show a rating (or a review!) and if you want more follow me on instagram @iloveloitering or @gaelaitor

the world is filled with things to like but perhaps more so with things to dislike. here is a collection of minor things that i find annoying and make me wonder if everything is ok with me. thank you for listening, please give the show a rating (or a review!) and if you want more follow me on instagram @iloveloitering or @gaelaitor

in this episode i document the opening of a decision that could change my life. if it goes my way then all is good! but if it doesn't, then i might have to let go of a dream i've had for the first time in my life. thank you for listening, please give the show a rating (or a review!) and if you want more follow me on instagram @iloveloitering or @gaelaitor

how do you create euphoria? i think i have a theory. we all have moments we can think of when it felt like our life was falling apart, whether it was a crushing loneliness or a deep heartbreak. point is, things were rough. yet here we are. maybe more alive than ever? this is a reflection on everything we've overcome and why that's the reason euphoria can exist in the first place. link to the playlist i talked about! follow me if you wanna @gaelaitor or @iloveloitering new episodes every friday

is your ideal life filled with adventure & instability or routine and mundaneness? what would you do if you were all alone in this world? what is the meaning of work? in the first episode of loitering, i give my *incredibly* valuable opinion on all these questions in hopes that i help you find a satisfying answer for yourself. thanks for hanging out with me, tell me what you think of the show! follow me if you wanna @gaelaitor or @iloveloitering new episodes every friday

gael spends a lot of time loitering in interesting places because what else is there to do in this world? all of his lingering here and there has filled his brain with observations, thoughts, and experiences that he must share with the world before his brain runs out of storage. so, from the comfort of his living room, and at times, wherever the wind takes him, he has decided to spill his mind to you. once in a while, you might get an interesting piece of wisdom, but if you don’t, gael hopes you at least remember this one thing: learn to love loitering because loitering is existing. New episodes every Friday! For more loitering follow @iloveloitering on all socials and for more gael @gaelaitor everywehre