Under the desk

You’ve been so patient, haven’t you?Sitting there, listening to my voice like a good boy.I know how badly you want to touch yourself.But you won’t—Not unless I say so.You’re aching, aren’t you?Just from hearing me say your name…Mmm.That’s adorable.You don’t need much at all.Just a whisper… a little praise…Maybe the sound of my breath, right here in your ear.There. That’s enough to make you twitch, isn’t it?Poor thing.I could let you touch yourself right now.I could tell you to stroke it slow,to imagine my fingers guiding yours.But I won’t.Because the way you whimper when you’re denied?The way your whole body begs?That’s the part I love the most.You want to be good for me.And being good means waiting.So stay still.Hands off.Eyes closed.And listen to me until I say you're allowed to come.I promise…It’ll feel so much better when you’ve earned it.

I don’t even know how we got here.One second, I was teasing him—just a little, biting my lip, saying something smart...And the next, I was on my back.Legs spread.Eyes barely open.Whimpering.He was deep inside me, slow and steady, one hand on my throat—not tight, just there. Just present.The other cupping my cheek.Like I was fragile. Like I was precious.And the way he looked at me—God—Like I was his whole world.“Look at you,” he murmured. “Taking me so well.”My whole body clenched.I couldn’t stop it—my hips rolled up to meet him like I needed him deeper, fuller.I needed to feel it.Every word. Every inch. Every breath.“You're such a good girl for me,” he said.My eyes fluttered shut and I moaned—that filthy, helpless, broken kind of sound I only make when I’m completely gone for him.And he just smiled.“There she is,” he whispered. “My perfect, perfect girl.”I could feel it happening—my body building to the edge again, my thighs trembling around him, nails digging into his back like I needed to hold on or float away.“Come for me,” he said, voice low, rough, reverent.“Show me how sweet you are when you fall apart.”And just like that—I did.Shaking, crying out his name like it was a prayer, my whole body unraveling around him.And he held me through all of it.Kissing my forehead.Whispering, “That’s my girl.”

Be still. Don’t say a word.You wanted this, didn’t you?Me, under your desk. Kneeling between your legs while you're on your little conference call.Keep your mic off.Or don’t.I want them to hear your breath catch when I unzip your pants…Feel your whole body tense when my lips wrap around you—Slow. Wet. Patient.I’ll suck just enough to make you shift in your chair.Just enough to make you beg without speaking.And when you come?I’ll swallow every drop…Smile sweetly…And crawl back into my chair,Like a good girl.

I'm going to experiment and play with audio content :D --Love isn’t loud.It’s the quiet things.The coffee cup left full,The blanket pulled higher in your sleep.Love is breath between words,Laughter at the wrong moment,Eyes that linger when they don’t need to.It’s the space between my fingers,And how yours fit there—Always,Without question.That’s how I love you.Quietly.Constantly.In the things I never say out loud.

I'm back! In this episode, I cover the topic of solo dates and how EMPOWERING it is to be able to do them. I'm passionate about solo dates and I just want more people to embrace them too because urgh, it's so good. Enjoy! PS: Below is the summary by ChatGPT that I was super impressed about lol. Podcast Talk Track: Solo Dates Introduction: Introduce the topic of solo dates and why they can be empowering and enjoyable. Mention the benefits of dining alone, such as the freedom to choose where and when to go. Section 1: Preparing Mentally for the Solo Date Get excited about the solo date and plan where to go. Study the venue and menu to get a feel for the vibe. Use Yelp and Instagram to learn more about the place. Choose the drink and dessert you'll have and get excited about the experience. Section 2: Timing Your Solo Date Decide on the timing of your solo date, either on the same day or planning a week in advance. Taking advantage of being a single diner by going to places with open seating or walk-in options. Section 3: Arriving and Getting Seated When you arrive, ask for a "seat for one" and specify whether you prefer the bar or a table. Checking in with the front door person can be helpful in busy establishments. Overcoming nervousness about dining out alone by realizing that many others do the same. Section 4: How to Spend Time During the Solo Date Utilize your phone for various activities like responding to messages, checking emails, or writing notes. Consider engaging in conversation with the bar person or other patrons if you're open to it. Be approachable and open to chatting with others by not wearing AirPods. Section 5: Overcoming Challenges and Embracing Solo Dates Address common concerns like feeling weird or strange while dining alone. Encourage the audience to embrace solo dates as a way to enjoy life and feel accomplished. Remind them that they don't need to wait for someone else to take them out; they can do it themselves. Section 6: Affordability and Budget-Friendly Options Assure listeners that solo dates don't have to be expensive. Mention that even ordering just one drink or a small item can be a valid reason to be at a bar or restaurant alone. Section 7: Dealing with the Fear of Being Judged Address concerns about being seen alone by someone they know. Encourage a positive mindset and remind listeners that solo dining is not something to be ashamed of. Share examples of friends who were inspired by the idea and have tried solo dates themselves. Conclusion: Recap the key points about solo dates and their benefits. Encourage the audience to try going out alone and enjoy the experience. Sign off with a positive message, empowering listeners to take charge of their social lives and embrace solo adventures.

Today is three weeks since the breakup. It's been an emotional rollercoaster, but I am cruising as of late. This 'journal entry' covers what I have been up to and my reflections. Thank you always for listening xo More thoughts post-recording: It's actually not even 'petty' for me to try and get the remainder of my rent from him. It was sent in error and is rightfully mine and should be returned. I was so offended that DG and his mum thought that I was being crazy, petty and irrational, and refusing to move on from the relationship lol. Excuse me? Get the f over yourselves. Also, the point of me chatting to his mum was NOT to get her to hear my story or choose sides. He was DELIBERATELY avoiding me and my refund request. I was going to see if she would be open to passing on my message since he was trying to be unreachable.

Reflections and revelations from the week post-breakup. I'm remembering there are other things that made for an insecure environment but I mention a good bunch in this episode. I get a bit unhinged in this but I’m high strung and dealing with things 😀

Here it is. All the tea of what went down. Forgive my scatterbrain.. It's been an emotional week.

In this episode, I talk about why therapy is a good idea, when would therapy be a good idea, why I started, how and where to start, how to use your therapist, and when to stop therapy. I tacked on a few last minute questions that came in, so please be sure to listen to the actual end of the episode. Wanted to make sure I got to those :) Find me around! IG: ⁠@seekingderrangement⁠ Twitter: ⁠@seekingdamages

Vaginal health! pH issues, UTI, yeast infections and how I cope. Find me around! IG: @seekingderrangement Twitter: @seekingdamages