#105 Kane & Kingman

This episode is about learning to stop running from yourself.Jon sits down with returning guest Matt Domyancic, The Tactical Chaplain, a medically retired police officer, former SWAT operator, wellness coach, and spiritual director, for a powerful conversation about optimal health, emotional suppression, spirituality, and what it truly means to take responsibility for your life. Drawing from decades of experience in law enforcement, peer support, human performance, and contemplative practices, Matt explores the relationship between physical health, hormonal balance, chronic stress, and emotional well-being. We discuss what happens when first responders spend years running hot, operating in survival mode, and pushing their nervous systems beyond their capacity to recover. When you're constantly overwhelmed and disconnected from yourself, even the people trying to help you can struggle to reach you. We confront the culture of coping through beer, women, nicotine, distractions, and the endless pursuit of stimulation, and why these temporary escapes cannot resolve the deeper emotions we often refuse to face: grief, fear, inadequacy, shame, chronic pain, and unresolved trauma. But this conversation goes far beyond mental health. What is spirituality, and what does it actually mean to live a spiritual life? Together, we explore spirituality beyond religious dogma, institutional beliefs, and the language that can sometimes become another way of avoiding ourselves. We examine how genuine spiritual development requires an honest relationship with our inner world, the willingness to confront suffering, and the courage to recognize the patterns influencing how we experience life. Matt shares how spirituality can become a practical foundation for first responders, not something reserved for a church, meditation retreat, or moment of crisis, but something cultivated through everyday experiences, relationships, self-awareness, and connection. It's about understanding that physical performance means little without emotional awareness, that spirituality is more than adopting a belief system, and that real transformation begins when we become willing to meet the parts of ourselves we've spent years avoiding. Episode 106 offers a roadmap for cultivating physical, emotional, mental, and spiritual well-being, helping first responders move beyond simply surviving their careers toward living with greater awareness, connection, meaning, and purpose.

In this episode of GrabLives, we sit down with firefighter Kane Johnson for a conversation about peer support, mental health, connection, and the power of getting first responders outside of the environments where they spend so much of their lives operating under pressure. Kane shares his involvement with Open Water and how the organization uses the water, physical challenge, community, and shared experience to bring firefighters and first responders together. We dive into why peer support matters, especially in a profession where people can become incredibly good at carrying everyone else’s emergencies while quietly carrying their own. We talk about breaking down the stigma around asking for help, creating spaces where firefighters can actually talk to one another, and why sometimes the person who can reach you isn’t a clinician or someone with the perfect words. Sometimes it’s simply another firefighter who understands the weight of the job. This conversation is about building stronger communities, getting people connected before they reach a crisis, and remembering that peer support isn’t weakness. It’s part of taking care of our own.

Jon sits down with Amy Charlesworth, an Army veteran, licensed psychedelic facilitator, and psychedelic educator, to explore her personal journey through PTSD, healing, and the transformative world of psychedelics. Amy shares her experience with DMT-X at Eleusis in the Caribbean, where the exploration of consciousness meets scientific inquiry, ancestral wisdom, and intentional healing. We dive into her personal story, the experiences that led her toward psychedelic medicine, and how her journey has shaped her understanding of trauma, self-realization, and human potential. At Eleusis, the mission is to dissolve the stigma surrounding psychedelics and usher in a new era where the exploration of consciousness is embraced as an essential pillar of well-being. By bringing together science, ancestral wisdom, and clear intention, Eleusis seeks to create an environment where individuals can explore the deeper nature of their existence and the possibilities of personal transformation. Throughout this conversation, we explore the evolving landscape of psychedelic research, the unique nature of extended-state DMT experiences, and the relationship between consciousness, trauma, and the human capacity for change. Amy's story invites us to question the boundaries of our own perception, challenge the identities and patterns that shape our lives, and consider what becomes possible when we approach the unknown with curiosity, openness, and trust. This episode is more than a conversation about psychedelics. It's an exploration of consciousness, the evolution of healing, and the possibility of discovering who we are beyond the limitations of our conditioned identities.

What happens when the very body you've dedicated your life to using to save others begins to break down? In th episode, Jon sits down with fellow firefighter/paramedic and trauma-informed health coach Egan De Los Campos to explore his personal journey through autoimmune disease, PTSD, and the path toward reclaiming his physical and mental health. Egan shares how his experiences led him to look beyond physical symptoms and explore the deeper connections between the mind, body, gut, and nervous system. Through his own healing journey, he discovered the importance of addressing unresolved trauma, chronic stress, and the patterns that influence our overall well-being. We dive into the transition from PTSD to post-traumatic growth, the relationship between gut health and mental health, and how first responders can begin taking a more proactive approach to their health both on and off duty.This conversation challenges the traditional approach of simply managing symptoms and returning to business as usual. Instead, we explore what it means to take personal responsibility for our health, develop greater self-awareness, and create sustainable changes that support long-term healing.Egan's story is a reminder that our experiences do not have to define our future and that adversity can become an opportunity for profound personal transformation.

Paul Scrivano returns to GrabLives for Episode 102 to take a hard look at the state of Los Angeles and ask a simple question: Who’s accountable? From homelessness and public safety to city spending, political leadership, and the growing disconnect between policy and what’s actually happening on the streets, we unpack the systems shaping Los Angeles and the consequences felt by the people who live and work here every day. Paul brings his perspective back to the conversation as we examine where the money goes, who is responsible for results, and why massive problems can continue year after year despite billions of dollars being spent trying to solve them. This isn’t about left versus right. It’s about accountability. When a city has enormous resources, powerful institutions, and elected officials tasked with serving the public, people should be able to ask difficult questions about outcomes without the conversation immediately becoming political theater. Where is the money going? Who is measuring whether these programs actually work? Who takes responsibility when they don’t? And what would real reform in Los Angeles actually look like?

Your words don’t just describe your reality. They help construct it. In this episode, Jon sits down with Mark England, co-founder and head coach of Enlifted, TEDx speaker, and a coach who has spent nearly two decades exploring the relationship between language, story, and human potential. We dive into the power of the words we use every day, especially the ones we barely notice. Maybe. Probably. I think. I can’t. I have to. The language we repeatedly use can reveal the stories, beliefs, and identities operating beneath the surface. Mark breaks down how changing our language can interrupt limiting narratives and create more ownership, clarity, and possibility. We explore how the stories we tell about our past can become the architecture of our present, and how becoming conscious of our words gives us an opportunity to rewrite that architecture. Because sometimes the biggest shift doesn’t begin with changing your circumstances. It begins with changing the words you use to describe them.Contact Mark: enlifted.me

For Episode 100 of GrabLives, Jon sits down with Matt Domyancic, a medically retired police officer, former SWAT officer, academy instructor, strength and mental performance coach, chaplain, and peer support advocate serving first responders throughout Los Angeles. Matt has spent his life in the trenches. From law enforcement and SWAT to coaching athletes at Yale and Georgetown, training NFL prospects, and eventually studying pastoral theology, spiritual direction, contemplative practice, and masculine psychology, his path has brought together two worlds that rarely share the same room: the warrior and the contemplative. This conversation explores what happens beneath the badge. How do first responders find meaning in careers built around witnessing suffering? How do we build mental, emotional, physical, and spiritual resilience before crisis arrives? And can the experiences that often lead first responders toward burnout, addiction, PTSD, and disconnection instead become part of a deeper spiritual path? Matt’s work isn't about preaching religion. It’s about meeting first responders where they actually are, earning trust in the trenches, and creating spaces where people accustomed to carrying everyone else can finally put down their armor. The job changes you. The question is what you choose to do with what it gives you. Episode 100 is a conversation about service, brotherhood, spirituality, identity, resilience, and finding meaning inside one of the most demanding professions in the world.Contacting The Chaplain: https://www.tacticalchaplain.com

In this episode of GrabLives, Jon sits down with LAFD firefighter Michael Bochey to discuss his case study exploring psychedelic-assisted approaches for firefighters living with treatment-resistant PTSD, depression, anxiety, and burnout.For firefighters who are suffering, curious, hesitant, or simply unfamiliar with this emerging field, this episode isn't about telling anyone to take a psychedelic. It's about replacing stigma and ignorance with education.Many first responders are already quietly exploring these approaches while fearing professional judgment, legal consequences, or misunderstanding from their departments and healthcare providers. Michael's research creates an anonymous way for those experiences to become part of a larger scientific conversation. We also explore the deeper end of the spectrum with medicines such as ayahuasca and iboga, traditions often approached not simply as symptom management, but as profound experiences that can challenge how a person relates to trauma, identity, behavior, and their life as a whole. Because if new approaches to PTSD treatment are going to be studied, developed, and potentially integrated into legitimate healthcare, the voices of the firefighters actually living with these injuries need to be part of that conversation. This episode is an invitation to become informed, ask better questions, and explore what the future of first responder mental health could look like.If interested please visit the case study: https://firstresponderpsychedelic-survey.my.canva.site

What if the parts of ourselves we are constantly trying to fix are not flaws, but part of what makes us whole? In this episode of GrabLives, Jon reconnects with Shaun Taylor, former Canadian Tier 1 Special Operations operator, world champion endurance athlete, martial artist, author, and high-performance coach, to explore Wabi-Sabi, the Japanese philosophy of beauty within imperfection, impermanence, and incompleteness. Together they examine how the pursuit of perfection can create a kind of dysmorphia of self-worth, convincing us that we must become stronger, heal more, or achieve more before we are worthy of our own love. For two men shaped by performance and pushing human limits, the question becomes: What if the next stage of growth isn't becoming more perfect, but becoming more whole? Perhaps perfection was never the requirement for love in the first place.

Episode Description What if the biggest obstacle standing between you and the life you want isn't the world around you, but the unconscious patterns you've been rehearsing for years? In this episode of GrabLives, we explore the daily principles and practices that have transformed the way I approach growth, healing, leadership, and consciousness. Drawing from years of books, conversations, first responder experiences, spiritual practice, and personal experimentation, I share the six inner disciplines I search for within myself every single day: • Be determined and keep advancing.• Stay hungry enough to seek higher ground.• Remain thirsty to learn something new every day.• Give more value than you're paid for.• Understand that impact creates income.• Prepare before life demands it. We also unpack a simple mantra that has the power to reshape identity: "A belief is only a practiced thought." If beliefs are habits of thought, then they can also be replaced with new ones. From there, we dive into a holistic approach to self-healing that bridges biology, nervous system regulation, consciousness, and personal responsibility. Topics include mineral balance, energetic coherence, fasting, meditation, visualization, gut and liver health, learning the language of the heart, understanding resistance, recognizing unconscious patterns, overcoming victim consciousness, developing a healthy relationship with giving and receiving, facing fear, and building unwavering belief in yourself. This conversation isn't about chasing perfection. It's about becoming aware of the stories you've inherited, accepting what is, and consciously choosing what comes next. Healing begins the moment awareness replaces autopilot. The question is... what pattern are you ready to stop practicing?